11:11 Master numbers.. Remembering to dance September 20, 2018

 

From the moment the world went digital the 11:11 seeding remembrance of god goddess we created this journey so that we could have a beautiful experience together..

Yes we have a Mother and we have a Father…. older kinder gentler… and they too have parents, so we have Grandparents.. but that does not subtract from who we are, it enhances it.. embraces it.. and is delightful as an energy to dance within..

Working the energy of being a Conscious Creator September 20, 2018

In looking out at the 11:11 and our awakening to our god goddess selves…

what we think on is the energy we draw towards us

So it has come to my attention that not only has humanity been exposed to the 11:11 … but government officials… and big business owners and management has been been exposed to their clocks being noticed at 11:11 or 555 or 333… we have all been brought to the place of awakening that we are gods and goddess, children of creator, we are creators too..

the other day I observed my grandson on his game systems.. In the first game he was telling me how he would have to steal people vehicles to up the vehicle he was driving..

In the second one it was all about purchasing machine guns and killing the aliens..

In the third one I watched as he was positioning rocks to fall on peoples heads.. to laugh at peoples pain..

so I explained to him that the writes of those programs are working to desensitize the children … and that life is about the choices we make, to chose to play games intended to desensitize.. or choose game to uplift and learn and grow and flourish..

Afterwards I got to thinking about it…. about the responsibility that the big business must take in the self healing of their disease, in awakening to remember that we all came to make this journey together.. all equal, wanting and longing to experience a world of touch because as spirit we literally pass through each other

so we wanted to come down to this deep energy… and touch..

the Awakening was a journey we also chose to experience so that we could come back into balance and enjoy our journey.

I used to think that it was humanities, each and every individual responsibility to challenge themselves into accepting their awakening..

But at the age of 12 I was given an inner guide while staring into the face of flower.. an Indian appeared and told me that she came to guide me through this 3rd dimension. She told me that all the rules for how to walk in balance had been written on the Earth, and it was to the Earth that I was to look for rules on how to determine what I believed..

In looking out I have now come to realize to the magnitude by why there are leaders and followers…. storm fronts… and the energy that first picks up a wave and pulls more water into a bigger wave… to the ant and its little dance, “Hey I found food” and talking more ants into following… to the leader of the wolf pack and even the first tree that lands in a forest and the multitude that comes from it..

In so many ways I can now see that it is the responsibility of big business to tend to the healing of their disease, their lack of ease,, and the projection of energy that is not balanced…

All of natures serves each other… for a comfortable and beautiful experience as gods and goddesses choosing to come experiencing a a deeper closeness of us…

We are seeding a new journey when we think on these things about how big business needs to take responsibility to their self healing, We are moving energy when we do that, opening the path for it to play out that way.. because the things we think on are the things we create.. the things we draw to us…

 

The healing path, journey to being a conscious creator July 28, 2018

One of the greatest medicines I found in my youth: After the rape of my soul they tried to exorcise the Indian out of me. It hit me hard, like a bomb going off inside of my stomach.. They thought their victory came when I blacked out. They did not know that when I blacked out it was because my Indian Kacheena, she came and grabbed my hand and took me to a safe place deep down inside far away from the pain that was outside.. When I awoke I was full of rage and hatred against them, and the emptiness inside of me felt like a bomb had exploded inside my tummy… and rocking and holding my stomach like that I began to weep..

And weeping I looked around and saw a great psychic war was taking place across the Earth, to the children of the Earth..

There was a girl, and to most she appeared hardened of heart, and bitterness had come upon her… but when she told me the story of her soul, of the rape that had come upon her and changed her whole world and how nothing looked the same after that I turned my tears away from weeping for me, to weeping for her…

And looking around I saw so many wounded inside the psychic battle of innocence stolen at the hands of another and upon waking inside the dark cold reality the rage and hatred kicking in protecting them from the pain they felt of having the innocence stolen from their hearts… In my brokenness I found myself walking around weeping for all the others as I listened to their stories inside a room that was full of rage and hatred….

and by weeping for others more than myself.. this is what I believe was the medicine that guided the path to my healing..

I really believe that Love could not have found me if all I did was wallow in despair for myself (or I could not have seen love standing there as long as I only felt and embraced the rage only within myself in self pity… I really believe that there is healing medicine in weeping for all the same or similar stories.. that this act enables one to see that hand of love has come to lift them from their misery..

and from this point I began my journey to become a conscious creator…… All my love… Destiny

Twin Flame Unions May 23, 2018

 

I am a 5th Dimensional dweller, keeper of the birth of a new way of thinking, new ways of perceiving, opening new paths I look out with new eyes.. and accept new concepts into my world view..

Long has this journey been (in my current life with this back having gotten injured in 1984, with the white dr saying “We will have to put you on pain pills for the rest of your life” … while I refused to surrender to that reality ..

Most of what I share it is inside me, through vision and dream I move forward and grow, but the time has come for me to look to others who understand more about where I have arrived (5th dimension) and then form my concepts from what I see as I explore concepts I have not focused on before.

The place where I have found myself deal with a world in which there are 12 different realities I am living in all at once, and the fact that reason I have not found true healing for my aches and pains has to do with the fact that the original injury took place in another me living on a separate time line.

Anyway I am willing to look in this direction for healing.. so there is a class, in Espavo, the Group that is designed to open the path to the other dimensions of me. Normally would not take these classes because they are expensive, but as I get older and find this human body feeling like it is in a rapid descendsion of decay, like my parts are breaking, I have decided that I am willing to pay this price (200.00) for these seed activation’s to open the path to so that I can look for healing in this direction…

So this morning I woke up inside my dream and I and my Twin Flame (who lives on a separate continent) were walking together down a path. Between us was the portal and I could see that within the portal we we were holding hands as we walked.

Then the Ancients who guide my path opened up an image within my mind of a poem I wrote to my Twin Flame in 2003 about how in the places where I am weaker they are strong and in the places where they are weak I am stronger, so that together we were stronger than we were when we were not together.

then the Ancients said that in taking this class that the healing would travel to both of us, not just me, but to both of us…  We both would benefit from my exploration into this new concept…

and with this I have realized that even though my Two Spirit love and I live on separate continents, and are currently making a silent passage through time, only touching in dreams and small moments of time in space between that it is possible to achieve  Twin Flame Union even when living on separate continents…  even if our missions placed us on separate planets we would still be able to achieve Twin Flame Union..  In our dreamtime we are always together…. always connected…

Twin Flames, journey with my Two Spirit love.. Standing Rock and historical trauma July 31, 2017

It must be really hard having both genders living inside you.. in a world that does not understand or live to support you..

Upon last count my love had returned and I could feel her soft softness inside my bed..  but inside him all I can feel is a wound..  a distance not trans versed, but like he showed up because of her.. (and I can still feel her inside my bed)

Inside my dream this morning he showed up, just sitting there inside a daze, not saying anything…  3 times did she (his divine feminine) come to him and ask him why he disappeared.. 3 times he sat staring as if he did not hear and would not answer her..

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They have been inside my dream world since before I was 12..  sometimes her.. sometimes him.. sometimes them…  my mind has been wondering, on this time of signs, of her showing up, of him bringing her..  why the pain that is inside him now…

This morning, as I feel my body all hurting again, as it has been hurting horribly since the rubber bullets and the water cannons were sprayed upon the people of Standing Rock..  I am wondering if my love also is lost inside the historical trauma that we we all experience at Standing Rock.. (I do not have any way of knowing what they are feeling as I only have dreams, and the knowledge of her.. his.. their presence inside my bed)..

but I know that I, myself have been locked inside this horrible pain since the spray of rubber bullets and water cannons tried to quell our quest to protect our water for all the generations to come..

I have been struggling through a need to feel prejudice.. and a need to protect all those who fall outside the guidelines of the white supremacist who seem determined to turn the clock back to the days when they could rule the world through prejudice…

..  This morning I awoke my my dream and wondered if my love too has gone into a need for healing because of what we witnessed at Standing Rock on the day the rubber bullets were shot and the water cannons were sprayed..

my body has hurt horribly since then….  as if someones trauma came inside me.. or as if on the astral plane I was there and felt what happened..

Twin Flames.. and Walk Ins .. and Cosmic Lovers July 19, 2017

When my ‘Cosmic Lover’ was a child her dad just walked away and never came home.. she carries this burden with her all the time, so that she will suddenly disappear, go off and live another life, and who knows if she will reappear or not.. because she does as her father did to her…

so right now she is gone, and will not speak to me at all..

Beyond that I am having this lesson on Walk Ins.. When I was 12, that is the first time I saw my Cosmic Lover (who is a Two Spirit and embodies both the male and the female in one body) .. A member of the High Council had come into my room. He as all excited and said that the contract that I had written from my mission to the Earth had been accepted and that I would be leaving soon to incarnate on Earth..

Then my Cosmic Lover, he comes in, all excited, holding me like the Sun holds the Earth and says that they accepted his contract also and we would be hooking up to share a mission…

Then from the time I was 12 on, They, the Two who walk in One body kept showing up in my dreams.. When our paths finally come together in this life Love said that he/she they came as a Walk In. that there was a person whose life had been devastated to the point of committing suicide and at the moment this person was leaving their body the contract was exchanged between them that my love would fulfill the duties of this persons life, working towards their healing.. holding sacred the space with their mom while doing the work that they came to do..

As I make this journey now without her, I can see how the energy of the Walk Ins work. Not only do they accept the mission they came to fulfill, but so also do they accept an obligation to the people who allowed them to have an Earth experience through their suicide. It is a deep contract that must be honored.. always.. and who the person was before is still very much a part of who the Walk In becomes in their behavior..

So my love, she has disappeared and left me like her father disappeared and left her (my dreams say this is about her male energy, and it is the male energy that protects her).. She has gone away to have a different life and there is no telling if she return or never return… I cannot wish her ill or bad thoughts. I can only wish for her to once again find her heart (because she passes forward the pain inside her heart when she disappears and leaves another just wonder what they did wrong, or whatever).. and find love that holds her in a sacred way and makes her feel safe, because being a Two Spirit is dangerous in this current time period..

Anyway, Great Spirit has this strange sense of humor.. my loves flower is the Sunflower.. and before this new journey came into focus, before I knew the journey was going to go this way a bird came and dropped 2 Sunflower seeds, one outside my back door, pictured below, and one outside my neighbors back door, which is across from my driveway..

These sunflower plants are like the giant among plants.. like 9 feet tall, so I have to climb a latter to take a picture.. and they have such a personality that there is no denying they are messenger plants… I may not know the future.. may not know the message… but there is no denying they are messenger plants…

Water is life, manifesting a picture to go with the dream and vision of 2007 July 16, 2017

In person it is even more magical… It is an expression from vision and dream journey 2007 2008… I was down at the river when the river began to sing a song of “Are you lonely, yes I am” … Upon walking away from the song I heard another song calling to my heart. . That night in my dreams I heard the song again and coming up out of my body I swam for days, through my dreams in the direction of the song..

 

When I arrived I realized I at the galaxy from when come the Whale Tribe, and the on who dreamed me, began swimming with me across the great deep back towards the Earth. It took several days of dreaming to get to the Earth…

 

In the meantime another singer had begun to sing me a song of “Remember when? In the end of that vision, when I saw the singer of the song (which will manifest in this next great circle around the central sun that began 2012) I saw the singer of the song of Remember when? (my creation song) was a Unicorn..

 

When the Whale dreamed me, he brought me to planet Earth and took me swimming all across the ocean to show me the poisoned waters and to tell me the Water Tribes were dying at an alarming rate…

 

This is the moment I began to sing my prayers for the Water….

 

I am glad to finally have put a face to that journey… All who knew me back then heard me sing the song…

Mermaid Island, a spiritual retreat, June 6, 2017

 

I have gone to Mermaid Island on a spiritual journey, spiritual retreat… It is the place where I lived in our passage through Lemuria.. I will be searching through time for my memories from that life…

Once we set our mind on something, it will cause the path to open before us..

and thus through my dreams and ‘seeings’ I will be be able to access memories from there…

I found myself in a dream from there this morning, but I was not able to bring it out with me…

but the thought is crossing my mind, as I swan down the corridor that we lived in the caves.. that was as much of the dream as I was able to bring out

I have a feeling the Hawk.. and the Blue Butterfly will both have appearances on this journey…. along with the water dragon with golden light in its hair…

Journey to Mermaid Island ~A Two Spirit Journey June 4, 2017

Life happens… changes happen .. it is very important that we honor the changes..

 

the painting of this picture was a journey of discovery that all began with a mistake.. this was a mermaid lesson on line that I was painting and after getting the sun, sky and dragon stone painted I drew in the rainbow haired mermaid.. Then I noticed it was all blank to the right of her and thought, ‘well I will just add a second mermaid. Got her all outlined and I still had a 1/4th of the canvas to fill… so I thought I will put a flower in the second mermaids hair and have the limbs of a tree coming down to fill the rest of the space…

 

As this happened a book begin to form in my mind and the pictures I could paint in this book so I began to have a look see at the symbols the Earth was giving presently around me and saw the Honey Suckle in the Tree who came to visit me and share her message with me…..

 

So then I knew that in the next picture the water dragon will appear with me.. and with my love, an amazing Star Fish in her hand that she is showing me…

 

In the course of painting this picture I did some research to look at various mermaid head dresses and discovered that there are a multitude of Two Spirit who are Mermaids… (and they need to be part of this honoring song also)

 

and then today I did some research to see what a group of mermaids is called… I found, to my amazement a passage that one in 3 mermaids is infertile and will spend her life running with her sister.. or friend… or lover such as I and my Two Spirit Love who happens to be my Twin Spirit (according to the Eagles in my dream) making us born in the Womb of Creation together as Twins…

 

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Sometimes Love is a Butterfly, lessons from a Two Spirit Journey April 18, 2017

This Two Spirit love.. pictures from the journey

This is from last summer when she came home traumatized and said she had to leave, that what she once believed was no longer true and she had to go find herself.. and grow

I had responded with I will leave also, and thinking that I would go somewhere else I found myself in a sea of clover with a blue butterfly dancing at my feet. The Blue Butterfly showed a Y in the path and said, “you can go right and there will be food there, or left and there will be food there also”

So I left the path where I was going to leave her, changed my name to River Song and told her the Blue Butterfly was the path I would follow in a sing a long…

Two Spirits are amazing. She disappeared behind her masculine energy and her gentle feminine would not touch me from inside the place she had gone to heal…

She sent me pictures from inside the forest where she had gone to heal..  And I sent her pictures of the butterfly traveling along the River Song… There were mermaids in that river, and fairies and magical trees, and a dark forest where one could get lost endlessly..

Then I dreamed she was returning… though she still was holding herself so far from me…. so I rejoiced in the knowing and sang exuberantly… while she pretended not to notice I was dancing by myself waiting for her to step back out of the forest where she had gone to find herself…

That moment, when she came back and found me still sitting there waiting for her…. I believe it was the moment love was reborn in her heart…

Sometimes things happen in life that can tear us apart, leave us shattered and torn… and sometimes it takes a butterfly to heal that pain….