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Twin Flames, journey with my Two Spirit love.. Standing Rock and historical trauma
July 31, 2017

It must be really hard having both genders living inside you.. in a world that does not understand or live to support you..

Upon last count my love had returned and I could feel her soft softness inside my bed..  but inside him all I can feel is a wound..  a distance not trans versed, but like he showed up because of her.. (and I can still feel her inside my bed)

Inside my dream this morning he showed up, just sitting there inside a daze, not saying anything…  3 times did she (his divine feminine) come to him and ask him why he disappeared.. 3 times he sat staring as if he did not hear and would not answer her..

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They have been inside my dream world since before I was 12..  sometimes her.. sometimes him.. sometimes them…  my mind has been wondering, on this time of signs, of her showing up, of him bringing her..  why the pain that is inside him now…

This morning, as I feel my body all hurting again, as it has been hurting horribly since the rubber bullets and the water cannons were sprayed upon the people of Standing Rock..  I am wondering if my love also is lost inside the historical trauma that we we all experience at Standing Rock.. (I do not have any way of knowing what they are feeling as I only have dreams, and the knowledge of her.. his.. their presence inside my bed)..

but I know that I, myself have been locked inside this horrible pain since the spray of rubber bullets and water cannons tried to quell our quest to protect our water for all the generations to come..

I have been struggling through a need to feel prejudice.. and a need to protect all those who fall outside the guidelines of the white supremacist who seem determined to turn the clock back to the days when they could rule the world through prejudice…

..  This morning I awoke my my dream and wondered if my love too has gone into a need for healing because of what we witnessed at Standing Rock on the day the rubber bullets were shot and the water cannons were sprayed..

my body has hurt horribly since then….  as if someones trauma came inside me.. or as if on the astral plane I was there and felt what happened..

Twin Flames.. and Walk Ins .. and Cosmic Lovers
July 19, 2017

When my ‘Cosmic Lover’ was a child her dad just walked away and never came home.. she carries this burden with her all the time, so that she will suddenly disappear, go off and live another life, and who knows if she will reappear or not.. because she does as her father did to her…
so right now she is gone, and will not speak to me at all..
Beyond that I am having this lesson on Walk Ins.. When I was 12, that is the first time I saw my Cosmic Lover (who is a Two Spirit and embodies both the male and the female in one body) .. A member of the High Council had come into my room. He as all excited and said that the contract that I had written from my mission to the Earth had been accepted and that I would be leaving soon to incarnate on Earth..
Then my Cosmic Lover, he comes in, all excited, holding me like the Sun holds the Earth and says that they accepted his contract also and we would be hooking up to share a mission…
Then from the time I was 12 on, They, the Two who walk in One body kept showing up in my dreams.. When our paths finally come together in this life Love said that he/she they came as a Walk In. that there was a person whose life had been devastated to the point of committing suicide and at the moment this person was leaving their body the contract was exchanged between them that my love would fulfill the duties of this persons life, working towards their healing.. holding sacred the space with their mom while doing the work that they came to do..
As I make this journey now without her, I can see how the energy of the Walk Ins work. Not only do they accept the mission they came to fulfill, but so also do they accept an obligation to the people who allowed them to have an Earth experience through their suicide. It is a deep contract that must be honored.. always.. and who the person was before is still very much a part of who the Walk In becomes in their behavior..
So my love, she has disappeared and left me like her father disappeared and left her (my dreams say this is about her male energy, and it is the male energy that protects her).. She has gone away to have a different life and there is no telling if she return or never return… I cannot wish her ill or bad thoughts. I can only wish for her to once again find her heart (because she passes forward the pain inside her heart when she disappears and leaves another just wonder what they did wrong, or whatever).. and find love that holds her in a sacred way and makes her feel safe, because being a Two Spirit is dangerous in this current time period..
Anyway, Great Spirit has this strange sense of humor.. my loves flower is the Sunflower.. and before this new journey came into focus, before I knew the journey was going to go this way a bird came and dropped 2 Sunflower seeds, one outside my back door, pictured below, and one outside my neighbors back door, which is across from my driveway..
These sunflower plants are like the giant among plants.. like 9 feet tall, so I have to climb a latter to take a picture.. and they have such a personality that there is no denying they are messenger plants… I may not know the future.. may not know the message… but there is no denying they are messenger plants…

Water is life, manifesting a picture to go with the dream and vision of 2007
July 16, 2017

In person it is even more magical… It is an expression from vision and dream journey 2007 2008… I was down at the river when the river began to sing a song of “Are you lonely, yes I am” … Upon walking away from the song I heard another song calling to my heart. . That night in my dreams I heard the song again and coming up out of my body I swam for days, through my dreams in the direction of the song..
 
When I arrived I realized I at the galaxy from when come the Whale Tribe, and the on who dreamed me, began swimming with me across the great deep back towards the Earth. It took several days of dreaming to get to the Earth…
 
In the meantime another singer had begun to sing me a song of “Remember when? In the end of that vision, when I saw the singer of the song (which will manifest in this next great circle around the central sun that began 2012) I saw the singer of the song of Remember when? (my creation song) was a Unicorn..
 
When the Whale dreamed me, he brought me to planet Earth and took me swimming all across the ocean to show me the poisoned waters and to tell me the Water Tribes were dying at an alarming rate…
 
This is the moment I began to sing my prayers for the Water….
 
I am glad to finally have put a face to that journey… All who knew me back then heard me sing the song…

Mermaid Island, a spiritual retreat,
June 6, 2017

 

I have gone to Mermaid Island on a spiritual journey, spiritual retreat… It is the place where I lived in our passage through Lemuria.. I will be searching through time for my memories from that life…

Once we set our mind on something, it will cause the path to open before us..

and thus through my dreams and ‘seeings’ I will be be able to access memories from there…

I found myself in a dream from there this morning, but I was not able to bring it out with me…

but the thought is crossing my mind, as I swan down the corridor that we lived in the caves.. that was as much of the dream as I was able to bring out

I have a feeling the Hawk.. and the Blue Butterfly will both have appearances on this journey…. along with the water dragon with golden light in its hair…

Journey to Mermaid Island ~A Two Spirit Journey
June 4, 2017

by Destiny
Life happens… changes happen .. it is very important that we honor the changes..
 
the painting of this picture was a journey of discovery that all began with a mistake.. this was a mermaid lesson on line that I was painting and after getting the sun, sky and dragon stone painted I drew in the rainbow haired mermaid.. Then I noticed it was all blank to the right of her and thought, ‘well I will just add a second mermaid. Got her all outlined and I still had a 1/4th of the canvas to fill… so I thought I will put a flower in the second mermaids hair and have the limbs of a tree coming down to fill the rest of the space…
 
As this happened a book begin to form in my mind and the pictures I could paint in this book so I began to have a look see at the symbols the Earth was giving presently around me and saw the Honey Suckle in the Tree who came to visit me and share her message with me…..
 
So then I knew that in the next picture the water dragon will appear with me.. and with my love, an amazing Star Fish in her hand that she is showing me…
 
In the course of painting this picture I did some research to look at various mermaid head dresses and discovered that there are a multitude of Two Spirit who are Mermaids… (and they need to be part of this honoring song also)
 
and then today I did some research to see what a group of mermaids is called… I found, to my amazement a passage that one in 3 mermaids is infertile and will spend her life running with her sister.. or friend… or lover such as I and my Two Spirit Love who happens to be my Twin Spirit (according to the Eagles in my dream) making us born in the Womb of Creation together as Twins…
 
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Sometimes Love is a Butterfly, lessons from a Two Spirit Journey
April 18, 2017

This Two Spirit love.. pictures from the journey

This is from last summer when she came home traumatized and said she had to leave, that what she once believed was no longer true and she had to go find herself.. and grow

I had responded with I will leave also, and thinking that I would go somewhere else I found myself in a sea of clover with a blue butterfly dancing at my feet. The Blue Butterfly showed a Y in the path and said, “you can go right and there will be food there, or left and there will be food there also”

So I left the path where I was going to leave her, changed my name to River Song and told her the Blue Butterfly was the path I would follow in a sing a long…

Two Spirits are amazing. She disappeared behind her masculine energy and her gentle feminine would not touch me from inside the place she had gone to heal…

She sent me pictures from inside the forest where she had gone to heal..  And I sent her pictures of the butterfly traveling along the River Song… There were mermaids in that river, and fairies and magical trees, and a dark forest where one could get lost endlessly..

Then I dreamed she was returning… though she still was holding herself so far from me…. so I rejoiced in the knowing and sang exuberantly… while she pretended not to notice I was dancing by myself waiting for her to step back out of the forest where she had gone to find herself…

That moment, when she came back and found me still sitting there waiting for her…. I believe it was the moment love was reborn in her heart…

Sometimes things happen in life that can tear us apart, leave us shattered and torn… and sometimes it takes a butterfly to heal that pain….

In the Womb of Creation, a Rainbow Twin Spirit Love song
April 3, 2017

Here is a love song I wrote.. to her.. to him.. to them..   to my Two Spirit Love recently… (not only is she my Two Spirit Love, she is also my Twin Spirit. That is what I heard in a dream this last January..)

In the womb of creation
we lie in in sacred dance
Our bodies yearning
and turning towards each other
with the knowing
in that moment
we had touched love
And that it was a divine energy
that would always flow between us

Oh we could come back
and be Twins again and again
or triplets with your divine
intertwining within me
But it is just so much fun
to come here and dance with you
outside the confines
of a bloodline twins
In this place where we
can be lovers true
and enjoy the pleasures
of Two Spirited you.
dancing with me
in eternal love..

while remembering
how beautiful it felt
when we danced in the
Womb of Creation
our bodies touching
in sacred bliss
knowing this was the first place
where we touched Love..
knowing that this is where
we experienced
our first kiss.

Love Destiny and Shining Star

In the place where we stand is the place where we should sing from

Honoring the Star Dancer.. journey with my Cheyenne Two Spirit love
October 31, 2016

I don’t know that I will find time to complete this, but I have to make my honoring by attempting to draw it out… and it also seems to fall in line with the dream of the green sun with its 3 moons… It is the continuation from a story that began in 2004 with my Twin Flame.. It was a vision that lasted 6 weeks or so and involved me seeing a Eagle Dancer and a Star Dancer (in 2004) Following behind Grandfather of the Wolf Clan who apparently it was important that the Dragon show up for this particular picture I tried to draw this weekend..

I don’t have time write it out but as I look at this picture it appears to be a continuation from the dream of the green sun with the 3 moons.. As the story of my life goes I was walking along, from the time I was 12 thinking that my love was with a man… and discovering that my one true love is a Two Spirit took me to a new dimension of thinking… a New World has opened up before me…. and all my drawing should begin to reflect this new world…

 

I have a lot on my mind right now, with looking the ethers to peer down upon Standing Rock and the Sioux Nation… Calling out to the Star people, “This is what is needed” but I wanted to make certain I took a moment to attempt to draw this honoring song for my Love, she is the Star Dancer from my 2004 vision… My heart holds her close again… She has returned from her journey…

 

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This vision is much longer than I imagine.  As I look down this portal through time I remember when the story of the Eagle dancer was given to me in a vision in 1994.  A bunch of Artist had showed up at my house and were sitting around drawing..  so I had joined them and was sitting drawing a picture of an Eagle when suddenly I realized that I had drawn a head dress.. and as I was drawing her face within the head dress I saw the words, “And at the end of the Story the Dancing Bird Goddess makes her leap  of faith from the Edge of the Precipice and is transformed into an Eagle….

My story with my Rainbow Twin Flame Two Spirit is a love story that began before she appeared..

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White Owl Woman’s Keys to being a Conscious Creator, by Destiny
October 23, 2016

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How many years has Snowy White Owl woman been walking with me? This thought has made its way into my consciousness.. Looking back there is a memory from when I was a child. My dad had bought a bike for all 4 of us children, but for some reason I simply could not figure out how to make it stay up. Everyone else learned how to ride it but me. As soon as my dad would let go I would just fall over.

5752_154123215481936a4d2b7e-a-conscious-creator-will-always-strive-to-move-the-energyThen one night, I woke up dreaming I was riding the bike. I could tell someone was holding me up. I thought it was my dad but when I turned to look at him I saw that there was a woman, dressed in white, her silken clothes flowing in the wind. There was no movement on her feet to indicate she was running. She simply glided beside me in her pure white dress.. Then she reaches over and whispers in my ear, “the balance of the bike is in the front wheel” Then she showed me how if I turned the wheel one direction I would begin to fall one way and if I turned the wheel the other direction I would fall the other way..

8d6a40b5c9d7aa5ada778ee9155a5358-all-the-rules-for-how-to-walk-in-balance-were-written-on-the-earthShe was the reason, years later, when I was in my 20’s that I began doing a series of dream exercises to become conscious in my dream. She even  shaped my journey when I did the dream exercises because everywhere I looked inside my dream world I was looking for her..  by looking for her I found multiple worlds existed within the dream scape.

When I finally found her we were in a room standing next to an old fashioned washing machine. She was teaching me how to do the laundry.. how to make myself pure…

like-thoughts-do-cluster-together-to-form-their-own-creationPurity has been a big part of my journey, holding the innocence to be a creator who creates from a pure spirit has always been her gift to me, in all of her whispering’s I would find myself being guided to find myself holding pure energy..

She would explain to me how to make what seemed like a large obstacle shrink in size until it would appear as merely a pebble upon a path.. She would say that how we did this by making offerings of gratitude in tobacco to that which seemed like a large obstacle, that when we gave thanks for every part of our journey, the reward would be found in why the obstacle had been put on our path, and when we found that, the obstacle would shrink and become smaller.. and smaller until it would be a pebble upon our path that we would regard as holy and give thanks for..

With this the change from student to teacher

I have never really thought of myself as a teacher but some time back I had a dream in which she showed up and at the end of the dream I received the words, “With this the change from student to teacher”

a-conscious-creator-will-sew-the-seeds-of-loveI had to ponder that for a moment before arriving at this place where I am now sharing the knowledge that was given to me on how to be a conscious creator.  I am doing it by making cards that anyone can share with the words of how different situations would be resolved in my own personal life…

If you would like to read the cards I will be sharing, they can be found here:

https://www.facebook.com/White-Owl-Womans-key-to-being-a-conscious-creator-106212489839728/

and / or here:

https://plus.google.com/u/0/collection/sb83jB

 

a-conscious-creator-knows-gratitude-is-the-key-to-a-properous-journeyThanks for coming.

Destiny

 

 

Love with a Two Spirit
October 19, 2016

Love with a Two Spirit
Her love make me feel like the Earth… and her love makes me feel crazy all at once.
I have found myself feeling the highest high and the lowest low with her and then she comes back and I realize we are standing in the ebb and flow of high tide and low tide… And I think one of these days I will no longer freak out when she leaves and will spread my legs in joyous anticipation when she returns to my naked land to again feel her naked waters running over me again in Heavenly Perceptions..
My love (who is a Cheyenne Two Spirit) has returned to me again. It can be a hard cold bitter world being a Two Spirit, with every thing that must be faced. while the newer generation has worked hard to reopen the path, for the older ones there is much pain to heal.
We were journeying together when she went back to a place that she had traveled to many times. when she came back she did not tell me what happened, she just place me some songs from hell and told me that she had to leave right then and there.
I was hurt and going to leave also, but a butterfly blue showed up and talk to me and told me to follow my Two Spirit.. So I did, even though, in my heart, I felt again as though I had lost hope, for she, my soft on soft had disappeared into her male energy. So I changed my name to River Song and followed them on their journey of silence and words unspoken.
Eventually I moved and began a new journey into the life of carbon monoxide poisoning (though I did not know that was happening until I became really ill) I didn’t know what was wrong but my River Song to her, as I waited for her, began to stop flowing.. and my status magically changed to Sleeping, and I began to sing songs of longing for her to come back.. and entertained her with many Leo pictures.. which began to fall off with the carbon monoxide poisoning when I could no longer hold my focus..
Somewhere inside the dream of this sleep I saw the first movement of her energy changing. she sent me a picture that had some words that said, “When you find someone who makes you feel magical every time they touch you, you should cherish them.”
She did not just suddenly reappear with those words, but they were like the moment she let me know I made her feel magical.. Of course after that I began fading because I was becoming more deeply affected by the carbon monoxide poisoning. It was all I could do to hold my jobs #1 holding prayer for the Lakota Nation, and #2 holding the job that supports me financially. Beyond that I could not hold my focus. And it was not until after I figure out what was making my brain to swell so big that I could not get my neutrons to fire properly that I was able to find my way back to again feeling like a River Song singing to her…
she has this way about her. She does not speak with spoken words to say what is going on but instead she sends pictures to speak for her. she sent me a picture representing her and in her hand was a bubble. In the bubble was I. In another of the group a woman had gone into the forest… and in another a woman sitting at the edge of the forest, waiting… so in her way she told me that she saw me sitting there the whole time waiting for her to find herself and return and that I had traveled with her as she made her journey..
Then in the moments just before her return to me I found myself in the memory of a vision I was given in 2004… when I was 13 (in 1969) I got molested by a family member. In that moment my innocence was stolen and in years ahead I had to take a journey to have a seed from the Tree of Forgiveness be emplanted into my heart for I simply could not forgive the man who did that to me.
In time he had grown old, but he seemed to be afraid to pass from this world and regressed back to his childhood..
In the meantime I was a girl of vision, trying to follow the visions, trying to follow the instructions I was given. til at last I arrived at the age of 48 to have my dad call one day and say the relative had been found in a coma lying on the floor…
In that moment I went into vision. I began walking through 3 dimensions all at once.. Now is not the time to write that story out for the vision lasted about 6 weeks and had many details, one of which involved a Ceremony for Healing the last remnants of Past Wounds. I was to take to the man who molested me in my youth the bridge he needed to cross to pass from this world to the next, then I was to travel to the place of my molestation and travel back through time to whisper to my younger self to find my focus in the flower so I could walk away, as I was frozen with what was happeneing,and after that the instructions were that I was to travel to a Sacred Mountain called Manataka and lay my heart upon my Mother.
I was very questioning of why I should do this, (go to Manataka) so I was praying for an answer when a portal opened up and I saw my 13 year old self curled up in fetal position.
In front of me I could see Grandfather of the Wolf Clan. His regalia was the skin of a Wolf, that covered his body with the wolfs head coming over the top of his head. In his hand he held his staff of power which he brought down to the Earth with a power so loud it shook the Earth and sounded like Thunder.
With this, even as he circled me clockwise, he swung his staff and danced counterclockwise as if to say, “Moving forward we will now heal your wounds from the past..
Behind Grandfather of the Wolf Clan came the Eagle Dancer.. and behind the Eagle Dance came the Star Dancer. She was the tallest woman I have seen, very very thin, with long long legs and behind her a trail of Stardust that was the Train of her sparkling white dress. Her hair was braided up in such a way that it had the appearance of a Constellation surrounding her head..
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seeing-the-star-dancerIt was in one of the pictures that Lakota sent me that I saw her, the Star Dancer with the long long legs (Lakota is 6’2″ and I am 5’3) and realized the immensity of this journey we are taking.
It is easy to get swept away in feelings of heart break and sadness. Easy to allow ourselves to leave and not continue down the path of the Twins who came to heal a planet and escort it to the 5th dimension.
In love with a Two Spirit I have found myself traveling to the highest highs and the lowest lows.. We try to run away from each other, but I am bound by my contract with the Earth by which if I follow the path she tells me to take I will feel the least amount of pain or discomfort and will achieve the reason for which I was sent, so when she sends her butterfly to guide down the path with my Two Spirit, I am bound by a leap of faith that where she is leading me to is the place where I am being sent.
The life of the Two Spirits, at this time, is mostly torture for their spirits have been torn to shreds and to walk with dignity many times means traveling against the grain of who they are, and trying to find comfort in others who are like them… but they too have been torn to shreds.. so it can be a bit vicious just trying to find some peace in this world..
 
Somewhere in this last journey of being separated from her I came into the knowledge that, no matter how sexually attracted I am to her soft on soft skin on skin I have to give birth to her and I being friends.
 
It may seem that this should have been the logical conclusion all along but there are parts within me that the Earth continues to purify. I have a possessive nature about me, and while some couples hold the same value, Two Spirits think different then non Two Spirits. So anytime my possessive nature has come up she will simply say, “My body is mine to show who I chose to show.”
 
So inside myself I am giving birth to a higher love. Friendship is being required of me even as she has now returned to stand so close I can feel her soft on soft.. whispering
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love, Destiny