Archive for October, 2014

The purification within the Kundalini journey
October 27, 2014

This Kundalini / and / Twin Flame journey is going wonderfully..  One second (last year) I was up to my heart chakra and then it seemed I moved to my crown chakra..

Remembering when I had the big release through my heart chakra, it was crown 2intense like that and what I could see when it was happening was a huge galaxy on the top of my head accompanied by a big headache..

It was a little freaky, as suddenly I could hear the sound of a thousand crystal beings all talking at once, and I became extremely sensitive to all sound. I had to throw myself in bed and sleep..

This journey is a purification process.  I am not the same person I was when I began this journey.  I can see so much difference now.  I used to be very jealous (not insanely jealous, mind you, but I had jealousy issues)  And I used to feel a need to control.  If I talked to a guy it was for one purpose, to get from point A to point B and have some kind of mating with him, so unless I was looking for some release I would not make friends with a guy.

There is much purification that takes place within the Kundalini journey..  to me when the spinning is going on I can see something that looks like a universe within me and it could be compared to something that looks like in the area of the sacred V, there  is a black hole spinning whose power is so strong that it is pulling the impurities out of me and transforming them into something else..

I remember one time a beautiful little galaxy had been spinning off to the side of my tummy.. and then one day I just watched as it got sucked down the heart chakra 3black whole..  but it was with that one that I realized that I had come into a purification process in the Kundalini..

After that it moved up into my heart chakra and that was a multi dimensional experience, with first the out pouring of my heart like a beam of light..  and then, sometime later, I experienced it as a lotus light flower upon my heart..  Then an intense huge bubble of energy pushed its way out my heart chakra purifying love within me.  After that love felt very different than it had before..  This love is pure, as it was in the beginning without jealousy, without fear, without resentment, just pure love.

Then my crown Chakra opened and released.  And in there I found another new journey begin its unfolding.  There was a guy who was following me and in his following I noticed that we shared an Egyptian connection, so in the Indian way I asked him for a friendship dance..

It is hard to describe how different this new love is going forward.  This is the first time I have made a friendship without an expectation, or based upon the end result of finding a mating partner or throw them in the trash when the expectation was not met.


This is a new love.  And it is an energy that goes forward.  With anyone from my past I do not seem to need to make the new love, just learn and explore this path in the new form.


I have this new friend and he offers his medicine which I accept.  In the beginning when he said he was offering his medicine I had this whole dilemma with it.  I am a girl on a mission, giving my all to my mission..  his offering meant that I would have to accept something back, which I am not used to and, frank fully, I had no idea how to a gracious receiver..


So I went to the Earth and asked her how to receive this medicine.  She reminded me that I am the mouth of a River on the new world we are creating, my whole song pours out of me.. and creates a river in the future…


She showed me a picture of a man standing in river making an offering, reminding me of a journey I once took to a River named Ouachita..  In that journey I merged with the River and he sang me a song about mountain who he used to run strong beneath her. He had told me how the hu mans had made explosions upon her body and had made cave in, how now his water ran less strong beneath her body and how bad she was missing him.  He bid me to take stones from his body and go lay them in the places where his waters used to spring up out of her..

So I did, and after that the water began speaking to me..

She said I was to express my gratitude for his medicine by being like the living stream of water running beside him…






Frog messages
October 9, 2014

Last time Frog showed up I was living in a house of transformation..  Feathers were being gifted from the heavens and in my dreams… the Ancestors showed up and told me I was Indian (my family was one who hid their Indian heritage because of events and pressures)… it was a time of great transformation for me (One summer in that house there were so many frogs in the yard I had to mow very slowly so they could jump out of the way as I was mowing.)  there were portal opening, Deer migrated through the yard, it was a great time of transformation..
The place where I live now, this the second frog sighting.. the first one was on the truck at Golden Coral.. and this one next to the bath tub we call our imaginary ocean (because it is so big) and we play like we are mermaids swimming in the ocean..

Apparently I am under the protection/medicine/message of the Frog now…  I am excited as I remember the time of transformation that took place last time Frog lived with me….


and here I am, in the time of purification as the Kundalini rises to the Throat Chakra…

Kundalini and the Twin Flame journey, touching pure love
October 7, 2014


never in my wildest human dreams did I know that love would feel like this in its pure state of being..  it is love that transcends this human expression, love that says we are eternally bound together, and everything that we do within our human forms translates to our spirit body in a deeply spiritual way…

All of the past and all of the present, and everything we still are to touch while in these human forms even if they take us apart from each other for a ‘time’ will be a part of the bigger story that is us in our pure spirit form, countless the winds have blown and we merged with countless beings to watch them pass through us, and feel their lingering colors…

I had a dream, within my Kundalini journey that I was with my Twin Flame when my whole body became lit..

It reminds me of the beginning of our physical reunion in this life..  how there was this moment when I saw through time, my hand was cradled in his..  Then the Earth screamed out to me to seal the journey I must cut off my hair and make it a medicine journey….  everything changed because of that as the journey took on the flavor of unconditional love..  while him and I bounced countless times away from each other….

Then at precisely the right moment his sister would show up and pull us back together..

It is this knowledge that pure love works this way when it comes to our Twin Flames…  always pulling us back together after the moments when our human emotions would pull us apart..


Twin Flames and Kundalini, our story
October 5, 2014

update: .. This story has become so beyond anything I know how to express that I have been quiet for a long time as I have been watching it unfold.  I still do not have the words to express what happened that changed the direction of this thing we call love after it was purified by the Kundalini.

The sharing of this journey, I feel is important as there will be others who will find expression because I took the time to record it.  Even though I haven’t the words to make this expression I wanted to share this week with my Twin Flame in a letter I wrote to him”

lakota bike

3 times recently you showed up in my dream, where I live..  It was in the third one that memories came cascading all around me..  In that one you showed up and went into the garage, hopped on your Harley and went for a ride..  I could see you, as if we were sky people, the trail you blazed before you turned around and came back to the garage…
after that our song began to cascade….  you sang to me:
One soul forever by Lakota
and it opened memories…  I remembered a dream back in the early 90’s that ended with me becoming a Winged One..  I received new tags for my car, and in the envelope there were pictures of me through time indicating someone was watching me through time…  Then I was out in the woods (struggling with the memories of my divorce) when I heard a motorcycle starting up in the distance and began traveling towards me…  I was afraid (of love then) and threw myself and my memories into the ditch.. and as you are riding towards me I see you are an Indian with long hair blowing in the wind and smiling so happy to see me..
but I am tore up from the divorce and frightened that you will kill me (break my heart).. 
then comes to me an Ancient Tree Spirit I had once hugged and she tells me I am interpreting my dream and life all wrong.  She tells me that I am here on my Cha Chee Too Wah, which is my Rite of Passage.  Then she shows me the road ahead how it will lead me to the place that feels like Home..
Then I turn and I am on my bed cleaning an Indian figurine…  The more I clean her, the more pliable she becomes until humbly she is down on her hands and knees in humbleness.  Then I hear a crackling and snapping as her DNA seems to be rearranging itself,, then Pop! and Wings emerge from her back and she begins to rise..
Creating a new way of love by Lakota
Then you are singing to me how we are creating a new way of love and I begin thinking “Oh my love, you are burning like a comet about to spread its seed” and suddenly I am taken to the memory of the comet dream
merging with a comet…..”Later, I arrive at another dream.  We are astronauts and are getting ready to go on a mission.  When I come into the dream we are taking our places in the space pod, the 4 of us, like in the dream before.  Now I realize that they are not really his parents, but our comrades.  (perhaps what would be expressed as our higher selves traveling with us as companions would..  They go every where with us.)

We seem to be strapped in for take off, but right after that I kind of break free and am floating around inside the space pod, bumping into him so that he too becomes not held so tight within the space pod..

I am feeling very happy as I float around, touching softly against him, loosening him so that he is not so attached to the pod.  I have this feeling of eternal love and joy inside of me, this feeling that even if I was to become separate from the pod and fly off to some distant land to make the new happening I was sent to create (as I feel like I am a seed pod) …  I have this feeling of joy inside of me that where ever I end up. Where ever I plant my seed is the exact place I am supposed to be…  Now I am flying free inside the space pod..  and he is watching me… Softly I bump into him and watch our spark…

I have been dreaming you for so long my Love.. 
Isn’t it just amazing that we can live on different continents, undergo births into little tiny human baby forms, loose all of our memories..  and still find each other? 
Love, Destiny
I have not yet found the picture of what I saw inside the dream  of us as a galaxy from when you hopped on your motor cycle and went for a ride…  I love you.. and I love our story…