Archive for October, 2013

Galaxies are people too
October 30, 2013

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I think looking at a galaxy as a person can best describe how we are all One within a collective whole…

as all of our movements

within the collective whole

make up the


and being

of the collective whole

known as a


it is quite lovely

Different shades of life
October 30, 2013

different shades of life 01I’ve changed.  I have decided it is time to let go of the past holding on and travel towards a new horizon.  This summer I was given 2 cucumbers, one too young and one too old.  They were each too bitter to enjoy, but the cucumber when picked at the right moment is a delight to eat.    Through this last experience I feel like I changed into a cucumber that is too bitter to enjoy..  and the reason I can see this so plainly is because of a 10 year ‘friendship/the guy you sleep with but he never is a boyfriend/thing’  He’s the one who proclaimed, “I am going to walk with you now and you are going to like it”..  at first you fight off his crude attack until you discover the more you wiggle the more his likes it..  but he never makes you his ‘mated one’ or treats you like he hears a word you are saying..  which is part of the reason it is so easy to call him the Dark One..

Anyway with the Kundalini I began to see farther than I was able to see before and eventually, when I realized what he was doing to me on the astral plane I left him (again) for good, and eventually entered a new journey that I thought was going to be different when I heard the words yelled across my universe, “I love you”

But do not be deceived for the journey has left me staring at a cucumber too old, too bitter to be enjoyed..

I can see it in how I am treating Rick (the Dark One) … it is the first time in my life that I have ever thought, “I think I have become a B*tc*.  I am like a cucumber that no one noticed to pick when she was at the perfect ripeness different shades of life 03and waiting to be enjoyed and now as I look at how I treat Rick and feel about him, how I don’t care if it hurts his feeling when I say, “I do not understand your jokes”  or purposely bust his bubble when he is trying to puff himself up to me…. He seems to have this idea that since I showed back up at his door this time, he keeps saying “I know you love me”.  And as I sullenly throw myself back into his bed I ask him with sarcasm, “What has love got to do with it?  Love is beyond the measure of this human concept.  When we are in spirit it is not ‘love’ that we feel as we dance, play and interact with each other.  There is no human concept of love that can measure itself against the peace that we feel in spirit form.  Love is a 4 letter word created by the human form in an attempt to define the emotion of people drawing together.”  I went back to him for one reason, because I knew if I went back to him he would sleep in my bed and give me the pleasure my heart longs to feel.  It has nothing to do with love.  Love is a 4 letter word I refuse to give him.  At this moment I have become a B*tc*…  I am bitter, no longer a pleasure to eat, I feel like torturing him, even though there are places inside his psyche playground that I quite enjoy..  laying in bed with him listening to him tell me how 3 dreams, each time he managed to find himself back in the same place in the circle with the Aztec Indians..  I do so like that that part of him, even though I am feeling completely repulsed when he tries to use the L word…  What has Love got to do with it? …I have turned into a be-otch even though on the astral plane he is sleeping in my bed again while I am acting like a beeetch.. trying to protect myself from the..  whatever..  He is horse medicine and keeps a harem of women..  His love belongs to no one.. to all.. to whoever is present..  trying to trick me into saying I love you because I showed back up at his door….while I say, “What has love got to do with it?”

and I have had great difficulty finding Hope… this is not even like me… to loose hope ..  it is like loosing face and no one knows it because no one even knew it happened in the first place…  so with bitterness we have found ourselves walking on…  clinging to the memories of him sweeping across us like the waves sweep across the land and then gone again to leave us once more barren and deserted… and him not even knowing that when he goes away we feel empty and lost..  and become bitter..

but it is not serving my journey to hold this thought, to allow it to remain attached to me…

so I am cleaning and clearing and removing him (the other) from my computer….  all the pictures he sent …  the pictures I created for him …  the pictures I printed and kept in my house, my truck, my work .. his book… him from my phone..  him from my email …  him from my home, my garden, my truck…  all must be released as I have determined that all these emotions I feel for him now are drawing the sweet and loving spirit right out of my being.. while I cling to the memory that he once said I love you it is making me behold the world with bitterness to the point that I am acting like a bi}c#.

time to move..  from this field of cucumbers, this place where I feel I have no value to him, where it was not noticed that I was ripe for the eating.. and so I grew bitter

into the energy of the self healed crystal where I have lots of value..

I am an earthen girl.  My world is translated to me  through the Earth..  In the course of writing this piece I was looking up crystal facets to what a particular crystal I have bears..

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I came across some words, description about how the energy of the crystal being is designed to multiply and perfection to infinity…  and about how some crystal beings had flaws…  but the truth of the matter is I would rather be a magnificent specimen of a flawed crystal than be a bitter cucumber any day.. and so I cut my strings from him who sucks the sweetness out of me and travel on to the place of the self healed crystal..  flawed?  maybe… but  it is said the girl who saved her fire (the sapphire) is flawed yet lovely…

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The Power of RAW Cannabis
October 28, 2013

This is great!

Gravitational pulls me down dream
October 28, 2013

It is not always easy to figure what words to use in a search engine..

102813 LabradoritedreamAs Indigenous people we see ‘humans’ in every flower, tree, river, stone, cloud, mountains, universe.  When we dream we are a planet, we dream it as having a ‘human’ body, having consciousness and thinking exactly like the spirits who clothed themselves in human skins.  We do not see any difference in the ones who wear ‘human’ skins with the one who wear the skins of bark, or skins of the mountain.  To us we are all the same.

In this mornings dream I was aware of this one I thought of as the Guardian.  He was larger then life, so large that I was just a wee spirit sitting there with him watching what was happening.  There was a man (I think) and when I became aware of him he was falling through the air.  He was full of light, like a shooting star or something, and as the gravity began to pull him down I could see that his clothes were being stripped off from his body one piece at a time.  And as the clothes were lighter then his body they were being sucked down faster and landed on the Earth (or Planet) just before his body landed on the planet..

The next thing I know I find myself being projectile’d through the air.  I have all my clothes on and am aware that the Guardian is watching what is happening to me as I am flying through the air.  Then I feel the pull of gravity pulling me down, and when it has pulled me down far enough it begins pulling my clothes off of me,  First my gloves are removed and flying down in the gravitational pull in front of me.  Then my shirt slips off and it pulled down by the gravitational pull..  and then, just like the male before me I land on the Earth (planet).

So I get up this morning thinking about the dream, thinking how is the Labradorite I am sleeping with formed?  It is not always easy to figure out what words to use in a search engine.. so I don’t know if Labradorite is formed as a product that begins when it is shot from a volcano (the Guardian) or if I was watching meteors or something like that being pulled down by Earths gravity and the Guardian was the Sun…


activating the space ship codes dream
October 27, 2013

It is the Labradorite that I placed on a shelf over my head that seems to be 102713 labadorite 2guiding my dreams of space ships…  It is also the Labradorite that I saw when I received the instructions to place a piece of Labradorite at all 4 corners of my bed and sleep within the portal that would create..

sleeping-dragonIn my dream this morning it seemed like I was in the house where the Sleeping Dragon lays in my garden.  Off out in the field behind the house is where I was taken to and shown a round spaceship.  I could not see all of it as part if it was obscured from my view.  I was taken inside, but can barely remember what I saw as far as how the panels were laid out or anything like that.

Then we were back in the house and a man was talking to me across the table when he said,  “here, let me give the codes.”  then he takes out 2 pieces of paper when he lays down very specifically as if to indicate which codes go to which panels.. the codes looked something like this… but that is all I can remember as I did not want to wake up and write out the codes right then.. and then I fell back asleep..  It is interesting because I fell asleep holding a piece of Labradorite next to my heart..


Labradorite ~stone people
October 27, 2013

102713I am sleeping with Labradorite now and dreaming of space ships and activation codes so I thought, before I share the dream I would do a search and see what other people say about this stone..  I have loved this stone for many years now, wear it on one of my necklaces, love its feel.  It is such a stone of comfort.. that is why I wanted to sleep with a larger piece a my necklace does not give me recognizable dreams like my larger pieces are doing..

Here are a few things I read that resonate:

♥ Transformation ♥ Promotes psychic abilities ♥ Strengthens our will ♥ Stimulates imagination ♥ Calming

Labradorite, also known as Spectrolite, is a Feldspar mineral.  Labradorite in a white matrix is often called “Rainbow Moonstone“.

Chakras – Base Chakra Zodiac – Leo, Scorpio, Sagittarius Planet – Uranus Element – Water Typical colours – Pale green, blue, colourless, grey-white: with iridescent blue or gold   flashes

A stone of transformation, Labradorite is a useful companion through change, imparting strength   and perseverance.  It balances and protects the aura, raises consciousness and grounds spiritual energies.  Excellent for strengthening intuition-promoting psychic abilities.  Powerful in revealing the truth behind illusions, Labradorite banishes fears and insecurities, and strengthens faith in the self and trust in the universe.  It stimulates the imagination and calms an overactive mind, developing enthusiasm and new ideas.

It is interesting reading this.  It is very appropriate at this time that this stone should instruct me as it feels like my trust in the Universe has been shattered by the mind bend that has taken place with the event of the 2 rainbow twin flames showing up in 2010 right after my heart chakra activated and instigated my Kundalini activation …

and then all the journey since then, word games that have been played as if I was only an instrument that played a song someone once wanted to hear and then laid it down to move on to the next song while I thought I heard him say it was more, but his actions said it was less, almost nothing really..  A story line that began when I was 12 with a vision that I held sacred for 44 years before I gave it to him and he said he was the one.  I did not ask him to tell me that.  I was only sharing from my journey…  and now I feel like I have been played, like my faith in the universe has been shattered…  so this stone, comforting me, and instructing me to put pieces under all 4 corners of my bed to make a portal seems so what I am supposed to do…  destination unknown… “stimulating the imagination and calming an overactive mind, developing enthusiasm and new ideas”  I can understand why it is felt that I need that…

You are the Rain ~by Bill Miller
October 25, 2013

For some reason this morning this song will not be denied…  I woke up this morning inside my crystal dream and began gathering the pictures for it..  and then this song begins mysteriously playing on my phone..  so I listened to it and thought of him… like I always do still.. and wondered if he had dreamed me..

Then I was going to share this song for the honoring, but came upon another song by Bill Miller which began with a beautiful flute playing Reservation Road, so I thought I would share it…  Put it over here, hit ‘publish’ and “you are the rain” showed up….


Crystal dreams me
October 25, 2013

There is a place I travel to in my dreams with some frequency, enough that I am able to recognize the place, and for long enough now that I have come to recognize it as the home of the Crystal people.


This morning I woke up in a dream in which we were traveling in that regionlabadorite dreams looking for our ‘Home’  (I am sleeping with many crystals now that I like to place on shelves so that they are above my body as I sleep, plus I still have the ones over my head  (side note:  this one told me to get 4 of it and place it under the 4 corners of my bed for a portal)  …. and I also view the crystals as people ….


So this morning we were driving around looking for ‘Home’ and while I don’t remember all of the dream, I remember finding one, an older one that felt familiar, and they were explaining to me how the newer generation was —-> that direction…   A little more time passed and I found myself in a room, and all’s I remember was someone was telling me something so I said, “Show me”  Then the person gets out a huge crystal, a little larger than a cantaloupe,  large enough they held it in the palm of 2 hands.  They sat it on a base and when they did, it activated and I was transported somewhere else, to some place that felt and looked futuristic and like another planet…

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New Single: Amber – Heaven
October 23, 2013

New Single: Amber – Heaven.

Lovely song

Here is a link to them on SoundCloud

Hold back the dawn ~ Robbie Robertson
October 23, 2013