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Year in review, a Dancing Bird Goddess Fairy Tale Twin Flame journey
December 26, 2015

As I work on my year in review it has been an unbelievable year of journeying.  I thought I was headed in one direction, away from all that I believed could be true.  I spent the year letting go of everything, every part of me who had built this hope on the man of my dreams that I saw when I was 12 and saw that at some point our missions were supposed to join

When you are a person who walks out of sync with Time it is a very hard journey.  It is like walking in 2 worlds at once, one with each foot in a different world and each world feels so completely different than the other that the space between is dark and without hope. It is like a living hell, and yet you know that by walking in these 2 worlds at once you are supposed to be the bridge that mends the crack and brings them back together before you are through.

You look out into the one world and there is no hope.  All the people you meet are lost and without hope.  They are a people who are lead by fear to do awful things to each other, doing all they can to exterminate the indigenous Tribes who are the natural born protectors of the planet, doing all that they can to exterminate each other.  They are lead by fear and everywhere you look there is chaos, that is being feed by prejudice against all that is different.

You look into the other world and alls you can do is grab and hold tightly to the glimmers of hope that are revealed..  being lead by a beautiful Indian woman whose instructions were that in all ways I should merge with the Earth and follow the rules that were written upon the Earths body.   Then a second glimmer of hope appeared in a glimpse through time of a man I knew to be my one and only love.  He was showing me the contract he was signing to, come to Earth on a mission, showing me that place where our missions were going to touch.

So I did as I was instructed.  I remained diligent in merging with the Earth and held onto the glimmer of hope that this man, whose presence made my heart sparkle and dance and I were going to reconnect one day and walk together in our mission.

We did not meet in the physical until 2011.  He could remember that he was looking for me but he could not remember that I was the one he was looking for..  And I could not remember him as we sat together that day trying to find our Twin Flames.  The Earth gave me this picture that one day this man would hold my hand in the stars and she bound me to him by having me to cut off my braid and toss it into his dark waters as he was currently walking through the Dark Night of the Soul.  She bound me to him and made me to be his medicine.  And every time she needed me to be the light upon his path she would have the mark left in my hair from cutting off the braid, it would act out and have a mind of its own.

In the meantime she had me on this Kundalini journey telling me she needed me to get lit, that she needed me to head towards my Light Body.  Kundalini is a journey of purification.  It can be very intense having all darkness, all impure ways of believing burned out of you.  It is like being at the black hole at the center of a galaxy watching parts of your belief system, you way of being being sucked into the black hole, to be transformed into something new.  It is very intense.

In the years before 2015 my Twin Flame and I had reconnected, had touched our love again, and just as we began to dance he got word that there was something he had to go do.  We dreamed it together, and even though it tortured him he disappeared into that which he had to go do…

And I was left alone on my Kundalini journey, weeping as the Kundalini was about to burn through my Heart Chakra (for those who have followed my Kundalini journey probably remember)

After that I found myself on a different path, the one that lead to 2015 which was the year of letting go.  I had briefly retouched my Twin Flame after that but again I just bounced off of him and back into another place where I seemed to be learning another lesson.  This lesson of 2015 was about the total and complete letting go of him, letting go of the glimmer of hope I had been holding onto since I was 12 years old that the one who made me sparkle and dance was destined to make me sparkle and dance here on planet Earth.

In  reality we lived on separate continents and each of us had a mission to do that each of us was bound to fulfill.  My mission was to the Lakota Nation, to uplift their prayer, “We shall live again”  .. and his mission to the planet Earth was on the continent he was living on, and honoring that mission was very important to him.  So I had to take a long hard look on it could be that we could both be on the same planet at the same time and not get to be together as lover and friend..

I looked through time and saw there was no time, that time was just an illusion we wore to keep our focus within the realm of a 3 dimensional world where we did our work.  The reality was him and I had loved each other since we were created in the great womb of the great Mother/Father.  There was never a moment that I did not love him, nor a moment that he did not love me.  We had gone on multiple missions together in which we shared the same space, created beautiful stories that were passed from generation to generation.  And we had gone on missions that required that we part, like the one I had gone on 13 generations ago to merge the seer bloodline with the warrior bloodline so that I could incarnate into this time.

Time was just the illusion we had created so that we could experience more with each other, but many got lost in the illusion and believed that this was all there was, so we who did not get caught in the illusion were always accepting missions to go in and build the bridges needed to bring the ones who had gotten lost back.

And in that sense I came to realize that the lesson is in where a person is at in their current moment.  It does not matter where it is at or who it is with.  The lesson is where you are at in the moment you are in.

So I let go.  I let go of any hope that he and I were meant to dance together in sacred union in this life.  I let go to let him be him.  I let go to embrace the life I was in, and the lesson was learning.  And after I completely and totally let go of any glimmer of hope, in the Eagle, in the visions and dreams of him.  All of it.  I let go of it and turned to the learning of the lesson I was in in the moment..  That was the journey of 2015… Letting go..

Then I let go of the lesson of 2015 and that journey came to an end.  It left me free and clear.. unbound ..

Unbound, on day I looked, and there dancing at my feet a little blue butterfly who told me it was time to softly check in with my Twin Flame..  So I jotted him a little note…  and the rest of the story is sheer magic..

In the year 1984, a troupe of Artist had appeared, minstrels and singers strumming their guitars softly.. others playing rock and roll..  Everyone sat around, a little high, it might be said, but all were sacred guest and many got out their pencils and begin to draw so I thought I would join in.


Years earlier I had tried to draw a picture of Isis, and for some reason, that I could not understand I had dressed her with an Eagle on her head.  I could not get the Eagle to come our right so as I sat contemplating what I should draw, I went to the library and got some books with Eagle pictures.  Found one I like and sat down to draw.


by the time I was almost done I realized that I had just draw a Ceremonial Headdress..  So it was time to put her body underneath her head dress..  and as I drew her I heard the words:

And at the end of the story


the Dancing Bird Goddess
stretches out her
wings and begins her
mating song.
She soars high above
the clouds,
aware that the
whose eye she has
caught is close
behind her, but she
is oblivious to 
anything else.

This is her dance. 
This is her song,
the battle she
fought to take
this leap of faith,
the love and laughter
of the lesson, 
the sorrow of so 
long walking alone, 
of never feeling mated,
the innocence of the
search, lost once,
but regained when
she played with the
boys, the dance
that pleased them,
and caught their
attention.  The
connection for the
pleasure that came
with them,
always raising her
head towards the
heavens, divine kiss
from above.

This and more
she sang as she 
danced her mating
song, ever aware
of the 
who so awed her
with his 
gentleness and
his grace
that she made a
come to life
and fly up there
to meet him.


She rolls over 
onto her back and
reaches out 
with her talons
to greet him.
His talons
lock onto hers.
She embraces him
and with
wings spread wide
they tumble towards
the Earth in the
most glorious free-
fall.  And
every time she 
tumbled over onto
her back,
with him on top,
she experienced
inside her body
which made her
dance over
him again.


(((((((  Guess what? )))))))


Twin Flames, sacred Medicine
October 14, 2015

Here is my practice drawing for today.. Still working on views that are not straight on with the face..

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This picture reminds me of an amazing happening with my Twin Flame journey in 2011.. One day the Earth screamed at me “Cut off your braid and send it to him right now!!!!”  This was right after I had just met him, and we were sort of flirting.. So in one swift move I cut off my braid and sent it to him.. Talk about some strong medicine..

Twin Flame journeys are intense.. Being purified by Kundalini.. And bouncing all over the place… Close to him.. Away from him..

LoL but when the hair is cut next to the head when it is growing out it stands straight up.. Obvious signs time to sing to sing to a Twin Flame.

In the Indian Way, your hair is one of the strongest medicines you can give a person..  I cut my braid straight off from the top and then forgot..  Twin Flame journeys are difficult, to say the least.  Mix it with Kundalini and there is a bouncing hard off of each other, to learn a lesson and have an emotion become purified in the process.  I bounced hard away from my Twin Flame and then the magic of the medicine of the hair began to show as one day I looked in the mirror and there it was poking straight up, reminding me to reach out to him.

My hair grows at the rate of 4 inches a year every time the hair would speak by showing itself to me I would write a ‘just reaching out to say hello’ message to my Twin Flame (who honestly at the time we did not even remember that we were Twin Flames..

It is a strong medicine, honoring the cutting of ones braid for another..  It is a medicine that reaches through time.. and heals..

Twin Flame journeys are long and we don’t spend every moment together (I am not saying there are not some who are on the same mission together, just not mine and my Twin Flames in this life)  My Twin Flame lives in another country, and we each have attachments to the work we are doing where we are at so we will not be physically together in this life.

But there is much growth also in walking this way.  Kundalini burning and purifying all that is jealous and possessive out of me so I can stand and love in purity, and honor each our paths we take..

With my Twin Flame I feel very much like an Earth who is held very much in the arms of her beloved Sun..  and just like in the rotation of Earth around the Sun..  sometimes it feels like the Sun is further way…  and then when he comes around again my heart quickens and in ecstasy it seems my Kundalini dances stronger..

It is possible we may not have continued this path if I had not been listening to the Earth and obeyed the call to give him my medicine…

Was practicing the eyes in this picture. I found them so alluring..  and in writing this I realize when I represent my Twin Flame in my art I can paint the necklace on his neck  of the symbols meant to represent….

Kundalini update
September 1, 2014

today I am contemplating Kundalini and the Twin Flame Journey… for those who know him I am back with Lakota who I do believe is my Twin Flame (despite the fact that I renounced that earlier and for all appearances walked away from my Twin Flame journey.) … anyway, as a person who see’s those who have already passed, Lakota’s sister showed up and kept fluttering around me.. In the beginning I didn’t think anything about someone showing up as I didn’t recognize her at first, but then one day I was cutting through a parking lot that I used to go to with him and she showed up and reminded me of our (his and mine) reminded me of the book I wrote him from 1981-1983, that I had printed off and sent to him before I knew that I was full fledged into my Kundalini journey.. anyway after that when she would show up I would recognize her, so finally I reached out to him and told him thatdestiny and lakota his sister said hi… a few weeks later he called and said he would like to rekindle the fire.. so he did rekindle the fire within me for him..

and in doing so I find that within my Kundalini I have achieved a higher love.. it is a different kind of love that I am now held within.. I can now so clearly see that part of the journey was needed within the Kundalini journey.. for myself there was a past love that I needed to make a journey with as it was he the Earth used to activate my Kundalini on the day he turned and sang a song to the Thunder Beings and love poured out of my heart for him.. and yet 4 years later when the opportunity presented itself to me to hold him as a boyfriend, I turned and discovered that in love with him I felt like I was suffocating…

within the realization that I needed to take that journey, I also realized that Lakota needed to take the journey he took..

On my Kundalini journey I am now up to my throat chakra.. I had a dream that I was over at Lakota’s and as I sat there with my Kundalini spinning and dancing I saw myself arriving at the day when I became completely lit.. and in that moment I knew that I was seeing into the future .. and I also realized that as I have more chakra’s to pass through … and who knows, maybe each one will have a ‘test’ that we have to pass through… maybe we will have moments again when we have to take separate journeys…

and its like I know in my heart, when the time to move back into his energy approaches his sister will come and lead me back to him.. no worries..

It has been a completely remarkable journey traveling with him from the root chakra, to the place where I am now at my throat chakra, 4 years later… my dreams say that when I get to the light of the crown chakra, there too my Twin Flame will be.. no worries…




the wonders of the Kundalini life
June 2, 2014

kundalini_energyThe timings of the Earth cannot be explained, the purification continues at a different level… waking up this morning, feeling my whole spine vibrating and buzzing in a 4 inch diameter…  I can still tell I am up to my heart chakra, even though I can feel it whole body the tube of energy that I can see fades off once it gets past my heart chakra.

spirit light

The other day I was having an episode of my kundalini spinning and it looked like an inner tube around my body at my heart…

Kundalini update
May 20, 2014

I saw this picture and my mind began to reflect upon this Kundalini journey.  Before the Earth brought sacred-temple-3me here to this place, there were signs that one day she would lead me here to tell me that she did this to raise my vibration to assist her ascension so that humanity could again travel by way of the place where a woman could love a Thunderbeing.. and he love her…

Years ago, when I was in my 30’s, I read an article, “Have you hugged a tree today?”  and after sacred Ceremony the tree called me to hug it.  In the exchange of energy between us, the tree download me with a great deal of information.  So much so that it was 4 days before I could sleep.

after that there came spinning between my legs one night as I lay spooned up next to my (then) husband, a small vortex of energy that plugged itself into his first chakra.  I myself enjoyed it tremendously, but he was very uncomfortable with it and would move away from me to unplug the energy..

when I look at this picture, I think of that moment, and think of this Kundalini energy spinning between my legs now which is a vortex that spins the full width of my body, and outward to plug itself into the Earth..  and I think of what it would feel like to be in a consensual way with a man and just explore that energy as most of the time I am in my Kundalini spinning now..

My Kundalini again is shifting, becoming stronger.  There for a while it was waning… and now as if excited with anticipation it is reawakening…


sacred holy is the rising…  I can still feel, through this journey the Kundalini has risen to my heart and is still working through issues there..


We take leaps of faith until we arrive…
March 31, 2014

.. my boyfriend reminded me of a dream I once had .. and as I have peered back some 30 years into that dream I realize I am still like that girl in that dream .. In the dream I came to a river and was going to cross it.As I stared into the water a stepping stone arose and so I stepped upon it. Then as I stood there staring into the water, another stepping stone appeared so I hopped over to it..4107-79295

this continued for so many steps and required many leaps of faith one stone after another would appear for me to hop upon.. (in the end of the dream it require that I surrender to water, entered a room, where the Earth began to shake and we morphed into our lightbodies)

I am still like that person in that dream. I have seen on the other side a day coming when a girl can love a Thunder Being and he love her.. I am crossing over to the other side even though I do not have my feet firmly planted on sure footing, I stand there watching and then another stepping stone appears to rise within the water.. enabling me to continue my journey..

to the place where a girl can love a thunder being and he love her..

Sacred Play, Kundalini, the heart chakra and love without conditions
March 20, 2014

(((( ….This is the first song that Rick gave me…)))


 Indian Spirit and her Invisible Cowboy,

 Mated life in the Kundalini journey is certainly not in anyway the usual way to do things.  In my journey I am here for the Indians so I proclaim ‘you never needed the Christian path.”  “That your spirituality  will lead you well, and the Earth is your teacher and you never needed to walk that path ever.”  And in Ricks journey he is totally Christian.  He is different, and yet in ways we are the same.  He has been following his vision since he was nine and it took him into deep into the Christian sector, where he does his work channeling the Akashic records striving to correct the ancient stories that got told wrong or lost, or discarded..  (like in one he piece he was writing on someone and said that this man took the bell off his Unicorns horn and placed it around his neck.) ..

 Him and I cannot be in an open relationship, because of his fame, because of his following by thousands of Christians, they cannot conceive beyond their Christian beliefs a girl who says we are gods and goddesses, creators singing a new world into being.  It is more then they can conceive so, with this Kundalini journey of mine arriving at the heart chakra and becoming about loving without conditions, I wound up opening a special place where I can speak freely to him and we can be in an open relationship on our private page.

When I opened it I put it private so only my friends could see it, and I opened as a married couple and that was my status, and he is my only friend there so he is the only one who can see onto the wall..  well with the passage of time and watching him in his actions of being tied to me in such a way only the Indians can see I found myself feeling a bit overwhelmed the other day when he was saying to his people how he sent a package to the children and left off that he was sending a package to my grandchildren…  so I went and I changed our status to “It’s Complicated”  and he came back with something about you are “an Indian Spirit with her Invisible Cowboy” and posted this song on our page..


so now I am working on a picture and when I get it done I will post it and change the status from “Its Complicated” to Engaged..  because I find him engaging..


Sacred play is a good way to be..

This kundalini journey calls me to be more.  It is very different for me to give my love this way, without conditions, and it seems to me that when I a doing it then my kundalini is spinning harder.  At this point I am having a sensitiveness to sound.  When I go into work it seems as if they are amplified.

here is a link to some of the ascension symptoms:

The Earth tells me that she brought me down this journey because when I vibrate higher it assists her in vibrating higher (so we can travel on to the place where a girl can love a thunder being and he love her) I am having the sudden ringing in the ears  which when it happens I try to look around to see if I can see into the dimension from which the sound is come (as if I am trying to look through a portal door) …  and another thing I am experiencing is something with my head and a feeling that someone is rubbing their hand over my head a few inches above it.  In that moment I almost go blank and then I come back to in the same dimension we are in..

Kundalini, in the heart spinning harder again, update
March 6, 2014

the Kundalini,

it will spin when it will spin,

and when it spins I feel like I am plugged into the Earth

doing the work that she needs me to do..

since it is she who told me this is the journey she needs me to take.

I have read that the Kundalini is uncontrollable, that the people who are having the Kundalini journey are just walking around having the sacred O all the time without any control.

It seems to me this is true..

There are people and places I would like it not to just open and spin full throttle while I am standing there,

kundalini ecstacybecause it is a very sensual feel

but it is a higher force than I controlling it..

as a matter of fact I do not think I am even controlling it

It feels like it is like being a portal that opens when the Earth decides to open it..

at least sometimes that is how it feels..

and yet at the same time it comes on like clockwork,

always at 5 am,

always at 7 pm

and there are other times too..

a 9 pm one..

and others still…

It pretty well doesn’t matter who is in the room when it happens,

it is like a geyser going off on clockwork only traveling up inside my body..

and iit feels so good…

It seems to require a certain balance within my psyche to remain strong within me.  As I said I am up to my heart chakra now and the Earth has told me this is a journey she brought me to because she needs me to vibrate at a higher level to assist her at vibrating on a higher vibration  (so that the energy on this planet can begin to move again to the place where a girl can love a Thunder Being and he her) So that she can get back into a body that is not so dense and heavy like this one is.kundalini to come

The heart chakra is where love takes on a different vibration than it took when I was younger.  It becomes a higher love that does not react in the same ways it once reacted but becomes about working with the energy as it presents itself.

For those who have follow my blogs for the longest, Rick (the one I have called “cougar”, “horse”, “the Dark One) has become the one I am making the journey of unconditional love with.  I don’t even think I can put into words all that has transpired inside this Kundalini journey that has made him and I one rocking couple.  In the place where I saw him as the Dark One a light has shown.  Before, I saw this place as a place of deception.  Now that a light has shown inside this place it feels like I have come inside his Holy of Holies..  when he was 9 (as his bloodline opens the path of vision) he saw the book that he is diligently transcribing now.  So all of what I saw before without understanding has come into a kundalini to come tooplace of honoring the man who came to sing this song.

Now, inside this place of unconditional love with him I find as I pass the tests of ‘can I hold this new form of love in such a way as to be unconditional’, it is like when I am being tested the Kundalini will spin less hard, less intense, just a soft gentle spin.  But when I pass a test and take our journey (his and mine) to a new level of unconditional love then the Kundalini will again begin spinning harder.

The Earth tells me that it is important that my vibration is raise because when my vibration is raised it allows hers to be raised higher also..

Another ‘side effect’ of the Kundalini Rising and holding a higher vibration is the fact that I ‘see’ more into the astral world then I used to see..  for example my grandson was over out of sight singing and it was coming out a little rough.  When I heard him consciously changing his vocal chord I found a part of my consciousness watching with interest and saw that he made his little throat into a perfect circle, like a wind tunnel and when he sang that way he sounded like a little angel in a boys choir.

It is the same with this feeling of finding my way into Ricks Holy of Holies..  I remember, the last time I left him, it was because the Kundalini allowed me to see further and I became furious with him when I saw him on the astral plane stepping into me.  I saw the way I was plugged into the Earth like a beam of light coming out of her and saw him making his daily journey to plug into me.  At the time I screamed holy carp and cussed him out as I was leaving because he did not have my permission to do that..  and yet now that I have achieved a higher love with him that molds itself to what is needed in the moment, I am finding that when he steps into me my Kundalini spins harder, and that is good because it is good for the Earth in assisting her in raising her vibration.

At this point it seems that when we come into an understanding that our vibration gets higher as we pass the test of the chakra the Kundalini is purifying and when that happens a good strong spin returns to continue moving the energy upward..

I do this journey for Love of Earth.  At the age of 12, in vision, I was told to merge with her, to not gain my understanding of how things work through  man but to go directly to the Earth for guidance in how to interpret the world.  In merging with her I talked to her and she would answer me back..  the very first time she sent a butterfly to land upon my nose and wipe away my tears.  But in time, as I continued to talk to her I began to hear her talking to me.  So I journeyed with her, listening to her, listening to the Animal Messengers that were sent to give me messages for her..  with my Kundalini spinning (as in my youth I do remember not knowing why it was spinning before I entered full fledge into this Kundalini Awakening it was already telling me that this was going to be the journey I was going to be taking as in my youth I had erratic Kundalini spinnings’ that I would not understand)..  so I listened to the Earth and followed all the instructions she gave me from the year 2000 on and was taken to this Kundalini Awakening June 17, 2010..  and as the spinning got harder and harder she told me that it was she who lead me here and she who needed me to be open to this Kundalini that was now burning through me, purifying me.  She said that she was using my body to release trapped energies (so she could vibrate higher) and showed me through the dream time that these energies were converting to places in the new circle around the central suns.  She showed me that these trapped energies that are being released from her body are being converted into places on life sustaining planets..  for instance, the 3 splattering brothers, the ghosts that was trying to break windshields on vehicles when they would drive through the mud, they were converted to 3 waterfalls..  and the energy of the thief that was stuck, his energy was converted to a place on a mountain that would steal your heart with its beauty..

All these trapped energies that are being released through the Kundalini are what the Earth needs so that she can achieve a higher vibration and not be so dense like she is now…  all so she can ascend..  all so we can get back to the place where  a girl can love a Thunder being, and he her..

In the place where I am, inside my Kundalini, it is very important that I give myself to the lesson of love unconditional for Rick (thankfully it is a kind of love the one you are with journey that does not require that I just give the whole world love unconditional all at once.  He is like my (must be an Indian word that has no translation) .. like a cat needs a scratching post kind of lesson..

From where I am with the Earth as my guide through this journey..  maintaining a level where my Kundalini is allowed to vibrate higher and higher is the exact place she needs me to be..

I am honored that Rick is the one she chose for me to walk through the heart chakra with into this flame of unconditional love..

and with him I am coming deeper into a place of love without conditions that as I allow it to grow within me seems to increase the strongness of the kundalini vibration.

I hope others who are on this Kundalini journey can understand and are helped by my sharings…

in love, Destiny Deela’ Cee

Kundalini `is up to my shoulders now
February 20, 2014

dream and deep space -kundalini 4 today up to shoulders

Here is a representation of what my Kundalini looked like this morning..  It is not completely accurate because one has to understand that the Kundalini is about being plugged into the Earth at the base of your spine and basically it is a shower of energy coming straight up the spine.. looking very much like stars like that but it is an energy that comes straight up the body…  The Kundalini is very consistent about spinning at the same time each day..  I love the early morning ones in the 5:00 hour as one of the best because in a state of laying in the bed all tucked and cozy beneath my blankets it is a very loving and sensual feel..

I began my full Kundalini Awakening in June of 2010, and almost 4 years now into the journey I noted this morning that the energy is up to my shoulders…..

I go through this alone and learn as I go.. most of them are beautiful to the feeling of being divine, but sometimes a person can experience a blow out of the energy…  this week I think I experienced a blow out in the top of my head area that kind of gave me a headache..  I find ice is very helpful for any location where one is experiencing a blow out and it also seems like it is required for that extra boost always make the kundalini have the ability to rise higher..

so before this morning my Kundalini  had been consistently rising to my heart and spinning like a many lotus flower all across my chest… but this morning (since the blow out this week) I observed that my kundalini was up to my shoulders and felt like it now cloaked me like a dress….  very lovely…

delacee and rick

Kundalini and a Higher Love
February 12, 2014


Sometimes it would feel like the Kundalini was burning through me and sometimes the feeling was of the Kundalini coming in through my base chakra and spinning, which in turn would activate another energy center upon my body and as if Time was standing still I would watch a second galaxy within my being spinning.  Every so often as I was watching a second galaxy spinning within my being, I would feel like this movement, this pull and then watch as the galaxy would be pulled down a black hole.


In time I came to recognize that these moments were for the transmutation of energy, that parts of my self that were no longer serving my higher good were being ‘shed’ so to speak so that my Kundalini could rise higher and higher until at last it arrived in my heart center and began to command of me that I release my old concepts of what love is and accept into my personality essence a higher form of love..

clouddancerCougar spirit mountain lion 

So I have been sharing my journey of 10 years with Rick here in my blog. He has been both the Cougar and the Dark One and  Rick is the Indian who turned and sang to the Thunderbeing June 17, 2010 and upon seeing that my heart chakra opened wide and my Kundalini began its sacred journey of spinning me into ecstasy while burning a purification through me..

Navajo Trail of Tears 

My journey with Rick was always kind of a rough tumultuous journey.  In the earlier years I would complain to him that he was like a bull in my china shop and when I would get mad at him I would just disappear for at least 3 months to a year.  It would take that long for my rage to calm down before I would wander on back to him (because, for one thing, when we were getting along we were best phone buddies, talking for hours, sharing our visions always endeared me to him,) so even though I would leave him in anger I would always wander back into his camp and feel him wrap his astral arms around me again until I would get mad and explode away from him again while he would yell at me how this came from our Trail of Tears and complaining, “You are leaving me again just like you did on the Trail of Tears.”


We traveled for many years in a love/hate relationship..  Even through my Kundalini journey it remained tumultuous for reasons that are hard to express.. like we are opposites, he believes in demons and evil.. and I don’t so it would be pretty consistent the times we would clash with each other and I would spiral away from him for a time.


The Kundalini calls us to a higher love.  It is not a speedy journey, this 3 years it spent purifying my lower regions, opening the energy field within me until at last it had burned all the way up to my heart chakra and called me into this feeling of unconditional love..


Yesterday morning when Rick and I were talking on the phone we had this moment of clash which in the past would more likely been an exit point with me storming one direction and him another..  I became very passionate, like a storm blowing a hard wind, unrelenting until he just kind of shut the door and said “I am going inside”


It was amazing because it was not anger that I felt but pure passion..  In the place where we love we are like 2 spirits in one tree, skin on skin and in the place where we clash we are like a porcupine flaring its needles to ward off a meat eating predator..  It is the natural order that the porcupine, once no longer feeling threatened by the meat eating predator, the porcupine continues foraging its way through the forest like nothing happened.  It does not hold bad feelings against the meat eating animal whose path crossed its path..


A short time later Rich approached me from a different direction and was telling me that I had gotten angry with him and attacked him. but I told him it was not anger, it was passion….  and then we journeyed to our rights to be different expressions within the same world..  until at last again we were snuggly close in our affections again.


This is a higher love that I am now expressing from this Kundalini journey.  I just discovered I have no desire to leave him again because of the place where we clashed… 

I see a higher love is coming through me in this Kundalini journey…


((((..  and I still have my throat chakra, my third eye and crown chakra for the Kundalini to journey through in the years ahead…))))