The Dancing Bird Goddess picture was drawn in 1994. A bunch of artist had shown up and began strumming their instruments while others sat and drew. So I got out my pencil, found a beautiful picture of an Eagle and began to draw it.. Right when I got to the end I realized it was head dress, so I began adding the Dancing Bird Goddess. My Native American bloodline carries the line of vision, and the next thing I know I am seeing the words to a book, “And at the end of the story the Dancing Bird Goddess steps from the edge of the precipice and begins her leap of faith..
When my Two Spirit Twin Spirit Twin Flame showed up in my life in 2011, everything about it was this leap of faith. We were talking when another girl decided, unbeknownst to me, that she would steal the moment from me. All of sudden the Earth screamed at me that I was to cut off my braid and send it to this Two Spirit. So I just did..
The medicine of hair is very very strong. It bound my medicine to my Twin Spirit (who I did not recognize) and took us on a journey.. There is just a part of me that has need to entertain so I began writing my Twin Spirit a book called My Life as a Fairy Tale, in which I took all the happenings of our journey and converted them into a Fairy Tale..
The clouds in the background of the picture is from a picture I took November 6, 2011. I had come out of Walmart’s and was walking across the parking lot when something called me to look up and 2 Eagles, in the most glorious dance racing to rise above and approaching storm…
In 2016, I had followed my Twin Spirit for long enough and had been so faithful to the medicine of the hair that we began to dream together, even though we had been dreaming together all along, the birth canal, and intense pain can take away a lot of memories. And it was inside our dreams where my Twin Spirit began to make the Two Spirit reveal..
There had been a vision I had been given in 2004. It had to do with a Ceremony the Earth was asking me to perform called, The Remnants of Past Wound Healing Ceremony. At a certain point in the Ceremony (that last 3 months long) I was told to drive an additional 250 miles to lay my heart upon the Earth at the foot of a Mountain.
When I asked why, I was given a vision of laying before a fire in fetal position, Before me Grandfather of the Wolf Clan began to dance and chant.. Behind him came the Eagle Dancer and behind the Eagle Dancer came the Star Dancer. She was incredible tall, with very think long legs.. She was dressed in white, and everywhere she danced a train of stardust followed her…
When my Twin Spirit was making her reveal, she kept sending me pictures of who she feels inside her…
All inside the dance of Love with a Two Spirit.. I find myself reflecting now of another place in which the vision was revealed that she would be a Two Spirit…
Just before I met her in this life, when I thought she was a he.. I had been driving down the road when a portal opened and I saw a Rainbow Flame,.. I went WOW, and then a second portal opened and another Rainbow Flame appeared.. on the eve of Thanksgiving..
(picture is from a book I wrote to Lakota when I thought she was a male.. it was called My Life as a Fairy Tale… and was the story of how she had been delivered by a Cougar to the Aisle of the Twin Flames and was sitting at the well when a guy sat down beside her, on the other side. He was weeping inside his spirit over the course his life had run, and calling out in search of her to come,
his one true love..
(Her one True love…)
I don’t know that I will find time to complete this, but I have to make my honoring by attempting to draw it out… and it also seems to fall in line with the dream of the green sun with its 3 moons… It is the continuation from a story that began in 2004 with my Twin Flame.. It was a vision that lasted 6 weeks or so and involved me seeing a Eagle Dancer and a Star Dancer (in 2004) Following behind Grandfather of the Wolf Clan who apparently it was important that the Dragon show up for this particular picture I tried to draw this weekend..
I don’t have time write it out but as I look at this picture it appears to be a continuation from the dream of the green sun with the 3 moons.. As the story of my life goes I was walking along, from the time I was 12 thinking that my love was with a man… and discovering that my one true love is a Two Spirit took me to a new dimension of thinking… a New World has opened up before me…. and all my drawing should begin to reflect this new world…
I have a lot on my mind right now, with looking the ethers to peer down upon Standing Rock and the Sioux Nation… Calling out to the Star people, “This is what is needed” but I wanted to make certain I took a moment to attempt to draw this honoring song for my Love, she is the Star Dancer from my 2004 vision… My heart holds her close again… She has returned from her journey…
This vision is much longer than I imagine. As I look down this portal through time I remember when the story of the Eagle dancer was given to me in a vision in 1994. A bunch of Artist had showed up at my house and were sitting around drawing.. so I had joined them and was sitting drawing a picture of an Eagle when suddenly I realized that I had drawn a head dress.. and as I was drawing her face within the head dress I saw the words, “And at the end of the Story the Dancing Bird Goddess makes her leap of faith from the Edge of the Precipice and is transformed into an Eagle….
My story with my Rainbow Twin Flame Two Spirit is a love story that began before she appeared..
In my Twin Flame journey I believe I have arrived at the place where I have undergone the transition so I can see who people are on the inside.
Having never been attracted to females and then falling in love with the girl on the inside has been my journey this year. It is my Spirit Bear who has guided this journey, instructing me to look back into my dreams with this new information and I would see Lakota was always there inside my dreams..
I recently had a dream that this girl walked past me as I was singing, “She keeps me warm” by Mary Lambert. The girl stops and demands to know why I am singing that song. Then she rattles off a bunch of singers names which baffle me as I only really listen to Native American Music. With this she turns on her heels and stomps off saying, “You don’t belong here. You are definitely not one of us.” To which I respond, “No but my girlfriend is.”
In this year of re-examination of my dreams, (of which there are several) one of the dreams that foretold a transition that would take place within me had to do with a dream from the early 2000’s in which in my dream I was walking with Lakota, only seeing the male energy, when suddenly Lakota does this 2 steps back and off to the side zig zag motion and disappears into another dimension… so of course I follow what I believe is the man of my dreams into this other dimension, but upon arriving I cannot see ‘him’ and simply awaken..
There was another dream in which I came to a river and a stone appeared so I leapt onto it… then another and another until I found myself in the middle of the River standing on the edge of a great beam. Lakota was there too, not recognizing me, not noticing me. We were both being required to make a leap of faith, when Lakota simply stepped back off the ledge and disappeared into the water.. so there again I followed suite and we swam down to the bottom of the River where we found a building and went inside.
My perception of the male Lakota disappeared into a back room but I was completely fascinated by the furniture in the room, a chaise lounge stood back by the door.. it had really pretty feet. And there was a computer desk there that had the same feet.. As I was standing there memorizing the furniture Lakota came back into the room.
Then the Earth began to shake so fiercely that the furniture picked up its feet and ran away..
Outside the picture window there appeared a girl. She was struggling hard as she swam back and forth until the pressure imploded the picture window. Standing in the room now was a beam of light. She immediately swam to it, dived into it, and metamorphosed into a light being.
Lakota followed her, diving into the light beam and metamorphosed into a light being.. And I thinking this was also what I was being called to do stepped into the light beam and meta-morphed into a light being..
This is not the only dream, but one of many. Recently I was at the used store and to my amazement, I came across the Chaise Lounge from my dream.. calling me to remember this dream… calling me to look with different eyes into where I am at in my journey with my Two Spirit Love…
How many years has Snowy White Owl woman been walking with me? This thought has made its way into my consciousness.. Looking back there is a memory from when I was a child. My dad had bought a bike for all 4 of us children, but for some reason I simply could not figure out how to make it stay up. Everyone else learned how to ride it but me. As soon as my dad would let go I would just fall over.
Then one night, I woke up dreaming I was riding the bike. I could tell someone was holding me up. I thought it was my dad but when I turned to look at him I saw that there was a woman, dressed in white, her silken clothes flowing in the wind. There was no movement on her feet to indicate she was running. She simply glided beside me in her pure white dress.. Then she reaches over and whispers in my ear, “the balance of the bike is in the front wheel” Then she showed me how if I turned the wheel one direction I would begin to fall one way and if I turned the wheel the other direction I would fall the other way..
She was the reason, years later, when I was in my 20’s that I began doing a series of dream exercises to become conscious in my dream. She even shaped my journey when I did the dream exercises because everywhere I looked inside my dream world I was looking for her.. by looking for her I found multiple worlds existed within the dream scape.
When I finally found her we were in a room standing next to an old fashioned washing machine. She was teaching me how to do the laundry.. how to make myself pure…
Purity has been a big part of my journey, holding the innocence to be a creator who creates from a pure spirit has always been her gift to me, in all of her whispering’s I would find myself being guided to find myself holding pure energy..
She would explain to me how to make what seemed like a large obstacle shrink in size until it would appear as merely a pebble upon a path.. She would say that how we did this by making offerings of gratitude in tobacco to that which seemed like a large obstacle, that when we gave thanks for every part of our journey, the reward would be found in why the obstacle had been put on our path, and when we found that, the obstacle would shrink and become smaller.. and smaller until it would be a pebble upon our path that we would regard as holy and give thanks for..
I have never really thought of myself as a teacher but some time back I had a dream in which she showed up and at the end of the dream I received the words, “With this the change from student to teacher”
I had to ponder that for a moment before arriving at this place where I am now sharing the knowledge that was given to me on how to be a conscious creator. I am doing it by making cards that anyone can share with the words of how different situations would be resolved in my own personal life…
If you would like to read the cards I will be sharing, they can be found here:
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