Archive for January, 2016

Dream Journey’s of the Twin Flame kind from before we met.
January 28, 2016

I have written more books on line than I can remember now.  It is my belief that this is the Native American Way..  My words are Medicine for those who need it along their path and we don’t sell our Medicine, that is what I believe, so that is how I walk.  There are those others think differently and I am okay with that..  the first one was called Journey to the Edge of the Precipice..  Most of them are about my Twin Flame Journey..  Another was called “the Prayer”  I wrote it as a former husband was dumping me beside the road after 10 years of marriage.  He was a cruel man, abusive, set on breaking peoples spirits to get his way.  He threw me out of his life after I no longer spent all my time being his pedestal girl (arm candy).  Got up from that thinking, “I need to re-write my life”  so I did it in a series of poems of how the perfect love would feel when it came my way.  I put it between 2 ballerina slippers and called it “the Prayer”  Another book I wrote on line was called “Sacred Journeys”  It was my prayer song for my people (Indigenous Nations) to rise again..  Another was called “Thunderstruck”  It was a series of poems to the Thunder Nation..

After something like 22 chapters on Transcendence, love letters to my Twin Flame, I realized I have come to a new book…  Sacred Bear has been really active this Winters Sleep, speaking to me and guiding me.  He showed up and told me that my Twin Flame was all over my writings from my past (during my dark days when I didn’t know if I would ever be reunited with my Twin Flame in this life.)  And of course, the writings were the Book of Dreams, the journal I faithfully wrote out.  So I am trying to figure out a name for the book..  With each book I feel like I am being given new eyes with which to view the world around me.

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11-17-2000

Cha Chee To Wah, the Rite of Passage Dream

I was dreaming that in the mail I received my renewal sticker for my vehicle and in it there was 2 pictures of me.  One was the picture from when I was 17… and the other was a picture 11 years later when I was 28, in which I was sitting on the balcony high above everyone.    They were both rather sensual picture, and made me feel like whoever sent the renewal sticker had been watching me for along time.  Off in the distance I could see a man smiling with glee as if he was the one who sent me the pictures.

With this I became quite alarmed and the dream split into 2 dreams.  In one I walked over to the couch, turned on the TV and found a horror movie was playing on TV.  In the second one I was the girl in the movie only it was really happening to me.  I had gone into the forest to hide from the man who was apparently stalking me and had taken the memory of my ex junkie boyfriend with me.  The me watching the movie saw him fall on an ax and get back up with it sticking out of his head.  So the me living the movie called out a warning for him to stay away from that spot, but it was too late.  He fell on the ax and when he got up the ax was sticking out of his head so I went to him and pulled it out.  He seemed to be in a daze and I was feeling very frightened because of the pictures I had received from the man who seemed to be watching me.

The part of me that was watching the movie was thinking I needed to get up and turn off the TV while the part of me that was living the movie was helping my ex into the ditch so I could hide myself as I was feeling quite frightened by the man who had sent me the pictures.

As I was doing this, an old woman and a young sappling appeared.  She was an Ancient One, large and dressed in a gray streaked dress.  I instantly recognized her as a Tree I had once hugged and felt relieved to see her.  I ran to her and hugged her while trying to explain to her that I was being chased by a man I didn’t know who was watching me while I was not looking.  I was shaking in fear as I stood there.

As she hugged me she began to tell me that all was not as it was appearing in my dream.  She said that the dream was about me and my Chacheetowah, that this was my Rite of Passage that I had to pass through to get to the place where I was meant to be.  She told me that I was interpreting it, and (apparently,) my whole life wrong.  That no one was trying to kill me as I always seemed to interpret the happenings in my life that way.  She told me that I had come to Earth as a part of my chacheetowah, my Rite of Passage.  She held out her arm and pointed down a path the looked gray and bleak as I walked down it.  At the end of the path there was a place for me that felt like Home, only it was veiled and I could not see inside.   All I knew was that when I got there it would feel like I was home.

About this time I heard a motorcycle coming.  I was still in fear mode so I ran back over and threw myself  back into the ditch with the memory of my ex, who still had the ax in his head.  I was certain the guy on the motorcycle was the one who coming to kill me, and that when he arrived I would be slain by him.  As he got to me I could see that he was a long haired dark skinned man.  He smiled at me really big, as if glad to see me, but I was still in fear mode and threw myself back into the ditch.  Then he began to circle around as to make another pass at me..

As he drove past the Ancient Tree I could see her still standing there looking at me.  I looked to her and asked again, “So you are saying this in not about someone trying to kill me, that I am interpreting this, and my whole life all wrong?”  And she said, “Yes, this is your Rite of Passage.  This is the journey you accepted to take for your ChaCheToWah.  It is about what you must overcome to get back Home.”

With that I found myself standing in front of my bed of water.  I was in a purification mode, cleansing the items around me.  In front of me stood an Indian Woman figurine which I began washing her off.  The more I cleansed and purified her the more pliable she became until at last she was very humbly down on all 4s with her head bowed down and naked.

Then I heard a loud noise, snap crackle and pop. and Eagles came out of her back.  As soon as she had her wings she began to rise to stand up.

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Inside the bed of water my ex struggled and as he struggled against what I was doing I could hear a song being sung to him as if they were trying to put the memories of him to sleep.

Dream Journeys, seeing with eyes anew
January 21, 2016

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Yesterday when I wrote out the Snake Dreams (Twin Flames, pre Kundalini Snake dream) I left out a key component.  That is the fact that I am now looking at my dreams through the eyes of a girl who found her Twin Flame in the body of a man who is all woman inside..  So in reality I am now in love with the Divine Feminine and I have a girlfriend who feels very soft and feminine.  She is completely woman and that changes all the meaning from the dreams before I knew my Twin Flame was embodied in a woman and that I would adore the feeling of her sweet caresses.

My second thought is, “I am a Medicine Woman, how can this be used as Medicine? ..  How many people are on a Twin Flame reuniting journey now who haven’t met them yet, but are dreaming them? … and how many Twin Flame Unions involve loving a person of the same sex?”   And so I share my journey from the depths of my soul for those that will find it to be Medicine..

The dream I shared yesterday was from the year 2000, 11 years before I physically met my Twin Flame.. and 15 years before I touched his heart and saw a woman looking back at me..

When I was reviewing my dream yesterday I was not looking at it from this angle..  so I wanted to share the parts I left out thinking they were were not pertinent to this Kundalini Twin Flame journey.

In the dream, there was a woman I was hanging out with like we were friends.  There were things that she was saying that I felt like were not true so I kept feeling resistant in my dream against the actions of what she was doing.  As we were running around we went through a building and a song came on so her and I danced together and it felt good but I still did not feel like I was impressed with what she was saying because the song that was playing was, “That don’t impress me much.” by Shania Twain.

After that me and the girl found ourselves in the rest room and we were talking.  As we talked I looked down on the floor and saw a ball of snakes so I jumped up onto the edge of the bath tub.  By now I noticed 2 balls of snakes, plus in the bath tub was a ball of baby snakes.  I quickly jumped onto the counter and slipped out the door.

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Twin Flame, my Sweet Love,

Looking back I am thinking how now it looks like the path was being prepared before me so that I would be able to surrender my love to the Divine Feminine that lives inside you.

I know that in each mission we accept we take on ‘roles’ that fit our profiles, and in this life it seemed that my profile was designed to love a man.  The first time I saw you, when I was 12, inside my vision, I saw a man standing there whose smile was so full of love and dancing circles around me he told me how his mission to Earth had been accepted and showed me the place where our journeys were going to touch while we were here.  So I set my eyes to find him.

But now, as I see where you are on your mission of removing the walls of prejudice against a breed of people who walk different than others, it now appears that the dream was to prepare me for the path and new role I would take on once our paths came back together.

You see, in my writings from the year 2000, I have already glanced at the next dream and know where I am going to next…  and it makes it all make sense..

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…  I have told you before, and have shouted it from the roof time.  It was in the year 2000 that I surrendered to the Earth, surrendered to allowing her to lead me to my destiny, to the mission for which I was sent.  It was at that time that I said, “I will follow every instruction you give me, I will go where you lead me to, and do as you ask” …  Looking back from 2016 makes these dreams look so different.  I am thankful for the recording of the dreams along my path.

 

Twin Flames, pre Kundalini Snake dream
January 19, 2016

468741_320This is the path the Sacred Bear has brought me down, to revisit my writings from the past..  This sharing involves snakes (pre Kundalini purification) ..  

Every since I did the exercises to become conscious as I was walking through my dream world dancing with the snakeI would dream of snakes.  At the time I didn’t know what it meant or how to interpret the dreams that involved snakes..  In a dream I found from 11-09-2000 I heard the word Tonga Wah Kee..  Interestingly, in the dream there was a girl I thought was working against me, changing the energy of the words I was speaking was what she was doing when I went into the restroom.  There, on the floor was a ball of snakes so I jumped up on the edge of the bath tub where I noticed there were 2 balls of snakes.  And in the bathtub there were another ball of baby snakes so I jumped onto the counter and slipped out the door..  I find it interesting now, in looking back to discover that my Kundalini journey has been all about purification through the sacred Kundalini snake and now I can easily see that the path was being prepared before me within the dream.

This is not the only snake dream I had.  I remember at least 2 others.  One was from the time I decided to face my fear of the dark (in the 1980’s)  In one of the dreams there was the appearance of a snake.  I liked the snake being around me and did not feel any fear of the snake.  The actual dream is faint within my memory.  I remember feeling very comfortable with the snake..  then it did this thing where it attached itself to my lower tummy and made a spiral of energy begin to flow out of my tummy  (At the time it kind of freaked me out and I quickly shook myself from the dream, but looking back now, the Kundalini spinning in my tummy was wow, a sacred galaxy of fireworks.  It was really beautiful.

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There was another snake dream in the days of overcoming my fear of the dark (the exercise involved me going into every place that was pitch dark to see what was in the dark)

Down from the house I was living in there was a half circle barn that was used for storing tractors.  The doors were usually left open so that when night would descend the light against the silver metal would make the open doorway pitch black.  And it would frighten me to worry what was inside that darkness..

I was a moon goddess, even then, traveling out into the night of the full moon to bear my naked breast to my Moon in Leo…  even though I lived in the country, it made the darkness of that doorway stand out and I would fear the darkness inside of there.  So when I did the exercises to overcome my fear of the darkness, I definitely had to go in there and see what could be seen within that darkness.

What I discovered was there is light inside the darkness.  When I would go stand in the darkness long enough it takes on a soft glow.  It is like there is this shield of blackness that protects the true secrets that live in the darkness, and by snake arm cufftraveling through that protective veil I could see more.

After I faced this room there came the appearance of the Snake.  She was quite lovely, a green coiled snake that bounced around with me everywhere I went.  She would travel down with me into the darkness of that half moon barn and bounce around me like an affectionate pet.  Then one day, there was a movement and she just jumped up and coiled herself around my arm… and took me to the place where I had a life in Egypt..

 

Twin Flame: before I knew you I dreamed you
January 18, 2016

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In my dream this winter, Sacred Bear said to revisit my writings of old, that you would be all over them..  so I pulled out the box, and this is the first one it opened up to…

Nov 15, 2000

 Dreamed I had to travel 3 days to get some place.  When I get there it was like a huge building.  The room we were in was large and comfortable.  There were at least 20 people in our room. 

I was sitting there watching the people leave.  They would go out the door and up some stairs to a shower.  As I was watching I saw Madonna taking a shower.  After she finished I was trying to figure out where she went when someone said, “You look like her.  Here put on this Madonna wig.”

They put it on me and as soon as they put it on my a dark skinned man with long hair appeared.  A piece of hair hung down over my eyes.  I had this funky hat on also.  As the man stood there smiling at me I reached up to move the hair out of my eyes.  From then on it seem as though we had connected.

Indian Spirit Man, are you going to fall in love with my Madonna, with the part of me that is wild and free and daring?

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Mermaid Angel by Josephine Wall

 

((((( PS..  as I was looking though my paperwork I found my astrological reading from back then…  Here stand I..  Taurus.. Sun in Taurus…  Moon in Leo… how perfect is that?))))

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Hero.. re dedicated to my Rainbow Twin Flame
January 12, 2016

Nearly 4 years ago I gave this song to you..
The Earth had told me that the day would come when you would love me…  she did not tell me how it was that it would happen only that I should honor the dance from the moment she had me to cut off my braid and give it to you as medicine.
So I did.  I didn’t really know how to get from point A to point B so I did what I know, I gave you songs and I wrote you a book called My Life as a Fairy Tale, in which I translated all of our journey into the story of a girl who went looking for her Rainbow Twin Flame and the boy she met while sitting next to the fire.
There was something inside of me that could feel that I had your attention despite the fact that I continually ran away from your lions roar..  The Kundalini journey had to purify me before I could know your love, and know what your love felt like..
And now that I have reached the place where I can feel your love..
It is like in the dream, where I would find myself in the attic where all the magical items would reactivate as I would walk past them.  There was a picture in the room of us that I could always see us out of the corner of my eye, but every time I would turn to look at the picture it would turn into a mirror and all I could see was myself.
Here in this place where we are now
watching you reveal to me
the depths of your beauty
for the longest time you let this crazy Kundalini dancer dance with you in her pretend story.  In my Kundalini story the book I wrote for you, it was the Earth who told me what was required, how she needed me to not let go of what was happening inside my body, but instead I was to lift off, head for the stars and pull her to a higher vibration..
So in my story to you, as I was leaving, I got onto my ship and set sail out into the great vastness of space.
Oh how I loved writing that book to you and dancing in that place..
I remember always this feel of you watching me
I remember, after the Earth explained to me that I was on a Kundalini journey, the sacred snake revealed its bite upon my lips, revealed why I was doing the crazy dance.  I remember the medicine of the cut off braid calling to me again to speak to you.. to honor the song the Earth had given me.. I remember you telling me that there was something in my song that called to your heart and you did not know why..
And that is where I am now
with you
I touched your heart
and when I looked inside
I saw a female staring back at me
Here you stand
in your love
a flower unfolding before me
like looking in the mirror
and seeing myself
slowly and steadily
this flower unfolding
revealing the depths of her beauty
..
and here stand I
mesmerized
There is something in your song
that calls to my heart
..
I dedicate this song to you
again my love
in your beauty
unfolding.
A Destiny ol Love

Twin Flame Dreams from before we met, another dream of the sacred 3
January 8, 2016

Our lives found this way of connecting in 2011.  Now Sacred Bear has told me how you stayed with me in my Dream world as I incarnated into the human body before you.. and he said that every morning you would walk me home and erase my memories of us together..

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Way back in the 80’s when I conceived that I wanted to travel with consciousness into my dream world in search of a woman I had met there I had no concept of finding you there.  There were instructions I received from books on what had to happen.  One of the instructions dealt with the Gate Keepers of the different realms, how the in order to pass with full consciousness into the first realm one must travel all the way through their nightmare to see what it transformed into..  so I did that.  For a long time I would enter the nightmare and work my way a little bit further through it until at last the energy of my long standing nightmare transformed into something incredibly beautiful.

After that I was granted access into the various realms of my dream world.  One of the instructions were that even in the dream world there were Gate Keepers guarding the gates to other realms, so when passing through the Gate Keepers the dreams also would tend to distort out and appear to be nightmares that one would need to pass all the way through to get to the true heart of that realm.  To truly see what was meant to be shown one had to pass all the way through the nightmare.

The dream journey was fabulous as I searched for her, the one who appeared in my dream when I was 11 or 12 years old.  It was just so amazing as I would travel to the same place again and again until I could get all the way through.

One day I arrived at a place that when I woke up inside the dream we had just arrived at the Gate Keepers space into another realm.  It was not easy to remember this about the Gate Keepers because in the dream news had spread of my arrival and they looked like cops patrolling the area and searching for me, so I spent many of the dreams running away in fear of them until at last I was inside the dream and I remembered that I might be looking at this all wrong and wondered what would happen if I just surrendered to them..

The Prince of Persia-The Sands of Time-Gemma Arterton-Tamina-wetSo I came out of my hiding place behind the vehicle, held up my hands and said, “Here I am, I am the one you are looking for.”  I was immediately surrounded by the Troupe who grabbed me by each elbow as they told me how long they had been looking for me.  They said something about the Man in the High Place had heard that I was coming and had sent them out to find me and they had been searching for me everywhere since they heard I was coming.

They took me to this building in which we had to travel up the stairs to several floor (like to a pent house to the Royal Suite) And the more stairs I walked up the thinner and taller I became until at last it seemed like I was 7 feet tall and thin as a rail and my clothes also changed form  (I draw pictures from those dreams of us)

When they open the door to the Royal Suite, it is lavishly decorated like something one might expect from Princess il_fullxfull_352139535Tamina in the Prince of Persia movie.  Where sheer silk blows in the breeze over a bed.

When the man who lives there sees me his eyes light up and he immediately comes to me and explains how as soon as he heard I was coming he had sent his sentries out to pick me up and immediately bring me to him.  There was the presence of a woman there.  I could see her, hovering, in the room and thought she and he were bonded.

Then he did something I was not expecting.  He began making all these movements with his hands until I stood naked in front of him.  He put his kisses upon me as he swept me across the room tossing my clothes as he went and laid me naked upon his silken bed where he made wild passionate love to me..  I had to keep wondering who I was to this man of royalty that he immediately thought he should disarm me by removing all my clothes…  and who was the woman who hovered near but did not offer an objection within her spirit..

 

 

Rainbow Twin Flames, Kundalini Love, being given new eyes, a new view of Love
January 7, 2016

I am on this amazing journey with my Twin Flame.

The Kundalini purifies us so that we can travel to higher levels of existence.  Before the Kundalini purifies us we are impure vessels and can only see with limited vision.

With the Kundalini the more it burns through you the more it purifies you.  For me, when it got to the heart chakra and I discovered this love without expectation, this love that does not mold or bend another to our will, but accepts our place, each inside our journey, accepts that we are divinely lead to travel to the place where we can accomplish what we came to do even if it means being apart from each other.  When I arrived there, at the Well of Love without Conditions I felt like I had been given new eyes with which to view the world.

It was not that I felt like I had to look at the whole of the Earth this way, just my Rainbow Twin Flame.  Before the purification of the Heart Chakra I was possessive.. and impatient.. thinking if he was indeed my Twin Flame (since he was the only one who showed up once I arrived at the Flame of the Twin Flames Fire)  I was thinking he should recognize me and I him, and we should live happily ever after already.  But instead we kept bouncing off each other, and there was no real way to know if he was actually my Twin Rainbow Flame, just because he was the only one holding me while I was delirious with this Kundalini desire.

He and he alone was the place where the purification happened within my heart, the place that made it all right for him to just be him (even though I share a lot of this journey I don’t share everything)  It was just that, even though he was gone from my presence when the Heart Chakra was purified, after that I felt as though I had been given new eyes through which to view our journey..

My Love is a Lion.. but when he was gone (as he had something pressing he had to do)  I had gone back to the Cougar (who those who have read most of this journey know about already) and began journeying with him.  It was while I was with the Cougar that I learned, in the next  part of my purification process that even though my Twin Rainbow Flames had left and had a journey he had to take, and his mission was in another country, and my mission was here, so that even though it appeared in our current life would we not be missioning together..  what I discovered was it did not matter.  What mattered was that we learn the lessons in the place where we are standing.

And with this I let go of my Rainbow Twin Flame.  I let go of everything, all the visions of a life time I had held onto, the belief that one day him and I would share a life in this current life.  I let go of the vision of the Rainbow Twin Flames.  I let go of the vision I seen that day when I was coming out Walmarts of the 2 Eagles dancing across the sky as they rose above an approaching storm.

I surrendered and let go of it all, and came into the lesson that the lessons are in the place where we are standing.  and my lesson was with a Cougar who had been part of my journey for 10 years who I could never quite give my love to.  So I decided I would give him my love and learn the lesson in the place where I was standing.

I am a galaxy spinning across the universe.  It is a lot for me to turn my energy from one direction, (from the girl of 12 who saw her one true love in a vision and headed for it) to the place where she was going to learn the lesson of love with another man, who she knew was not the one she saw when she was 12, but had discovered that the lessons were in the place where we were standing.  So I let go of everything and began heading towards the Cougar Spirited Man.

In letting go it seemed like I changed the Fates… and the next thing I know the Cougar is pushing me away.  It was like he picked up a foot and just propelled me in a  somewhat different direction..  and I felt like, Me, a Galaxy having to gather her skirt to see where she ended up..

And it was while I was there that I looked around and saw my Rainbow Twin Flame dressed as a woman and I became curious to see him up there dressed as a woman..  so I think, “Well I will just watch him now as he dances in his feminine through my sky.”

Now I am a girl of vision and when the little blue butterfly dances at my feet I must go to my Twin Rainbow Flame and tell him hello, and this is where I am on my journey.. so I did..

And he responded by coming into the space where I sing and dancing with me..  as a she .. so I danced back ..

My love is a LION, and the next thing I know he comes in there and he ROARS..  And for the first time I did not run away but followed him out of the room into a place where our love began to mate..

Then in the beauty that follow, my guardian Bear came and told me that my love had walked with me for the whole of this whole life, that he was all over the dreams I had been writing out for all these years…

And the next thing I know I have come into the presence of his Divine Feminine who had also been inside my dreams..

And again I was given new eyes with which to view a deeper love..

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