Archive for the ‘Dreams’ Category

Water is life, journey of awakening
August 17, 2017

I got the neatest compliment from my Cranial Sacral therapist yesterday.. I have been sharing my painting journey with her so I was showing her the Galactic Soul lesson… I was like, “Look, here is my Whale and my Mermaid”… and she was like, “that is the thing about your paintings, one always has to ponder your pictures for what you have hidden within them.” … It is true.. Painted in the Whale is a man.. the mermaid is looking at him, talking to him, and the man is looking at her… they both have one arm forward in their swim…

Galactic Soul painting lesson..
with thanks #theartsherpa

I had this whole journey with a whale that dreamed me for 3 months. Every night I would fly up out of my body and go in search of the Whale song I could hear.. Swimming through the great sea, passing galaxy after galaxy.. The Whale had a message for me that the water on Planet Earth was in trouble and many creatures of the sea were dying..

In the dream/vision I did not know who was calling me to come.. I only knew that I could hear someone calling to me, and I was following the sound of the call..

Even when we connected I could not see who the person was, but we began to swim back through the great sea to Earth.. Once we arrived this person took me all across the ocean to show me how poisons were leeching up, how the ocean was being used like a trash can, and battle ships and planes and other things were being discarded there… that with time had decayed and were now leeching poisons into the ocean and many of the ocean guest were dying over it..

So what I was receiving was a distress signal….

At the end of the journey which lasted for 3 months, I found myself swimming in the ocean pondering all I had just been shown. When I turned to look back at the one who had just made the reveal I saw a Whale…..

And my heart jumped for such joy.. such love did I feel, that I began racing towards him, swimming, my heart brimming with such joy to know who had brought this message to me… then the dream went into this slow motion as I turned onto my back to circle the whale, and the space between our bellies I could feel the movement of the water…. It was so beautiful, like a feeling you never ever forget…

Magic of the Unicorn and this Two Spirit Love
July 26, 2017

MAGIC OF THE UNICORN (while some would say they don’t exist, I say they are merely living on a different dimension and these dimensions overlap.)
 
 
My Two Spirit love has returned to me. I can again feel her sweet embrace. can go to bed and feel her presence laying with me in our long nights without the human touch touching us, I can feel her..
 
She disappeared about 2 months ago, slipping back and being hidden behind her male energy, and he would not speak with me..
 
WIth silent heart moving forward I grieved the journey of her loss, for I would not, could not turn this into a dishonoring song so I followed my dreams to tell me what was going on.. and in one dream I was shown this was a journey he needed to take.. and another dream I was told that in this journey he again would find his heart..
 
 
He had lost his heart some years ago.. His (her, their) father woke up one day, walked out the door and never ever returned. It made the journey of my Two Spirit love one in which the male energy protects the divine feminine so that he takes her and hides her away when unexplained emotions come along.. and just disappearing on people has long been the song..
 
So I bent,
I twisted,
I carried on..
and poured all my heart into my painting song..
 
Tried to paint a Unicorn, and while it came out magical, I felt I was lacking in my ability to paint the Unicorn, so I began to paint one more…
 
And while it was better, and magical, I did not feel it was good enough.. so I painted another… and it was better than the others, so I began painting one to hang on my wall (and began the background to 2 more, for I have a quest to paint the Unicorn who came to me for 3 months back in 2008 and sang to me the “Remember when?” song…..

Then my love, she shows up.. and sings to me, “A Unicorn came to me in my dream, nudged me on my face, made me laugh, and woke me up. .  . Let’s Dance”…
 
and then like water that has gone away causing the land to wither and dry up, softly so softly her love poured down upon me again…
 
Always changing.. every evolving, we become more…

Water is life, manifesting a picture to go with the dream and vision of 2007
July 16, 2017

In person it is even more magical… It is an expression from vision and dream journey 2007 2008… I was down at the river when the river began to sing a song of “Are you lonely, yes I am” … Upon walking away from the song I heard another song calling to my heart. . That night in my dreams I heard the song again and coming up out of my body I swam for days, through my dreams in the direction of the song..
 
When I arrived I realized I at the galaxy from when come the Whale Tribe, and the on who dreamed me, began swimming with me across the great deep back towards the Earth. It took several days of dreaming to get to the Earth…
 
In the meantime another singer had begun to sing me a song of “Remember when? In the end of that vision, when I saw the singer of the song (which will manifest in this next great circle around the central sun that began 2012) I saw the singer of the song of Remember when? (my creation song) was a Unicorn..
 
When the Whale dreamed me, he brought me to planet Earth and took me swimming all across the ocean to show me the poisoned waters and to tell me the Water Tribes were dying at an alarming rate…
 
This is the moment I began to sing my prayers for the Water….
 
I am glad to finally have put a face to that journey… All who knew me back then heard me sing the song…

Twin Flames ~journey to a higher love
June 18, 2017

I could write a thousand words
while endlessly trying to make certain I protected your heart
I had a dream that I was standing at the waters edge
staring down at the water,
watching the lights sparkle and dance
I saw 3 of the most beautiful, magical orange scales
laying there beneath the surface.
The lights of the water danced upon them
then as I watched
the lights of the water was dancing upon the 2
as they danced together
and looked like a butterfly in flight
I do not have the words to explain to you what was shown to me in that moment
as the universe opened in that moment and reminded me of what we feel like when we are spirit
And in the place where we are spirit, it all made perfect sense..
Then I heard the words, Let them go, he has a journey he needs to make…
With that I turned and was driving down a country road, when suddenly swooping in over the top of me, and guiding my path the largest bird I have ever seen.   with a wingspan that stretched across both lanes of the road and color so dark I could not translate what kind of bird was now being given to me as a spirit guide..  This spirit bird guided me down the road then disappeared for a moment, and as I looked around trying to see where it had gone, its shadow came across my truck and guided me down the road…
all my love,
Destiny
I will see you again when the blue butterfly asks me to come sing to you…  All my love…

Mermaid Island, a spiritual retreat,
June 6, 2017

 

I have gone to Mermaid Island on a spiritual journey, spiritual retreat… It is the place where I lived in our passage through Lemuria.. I will be searching through time for my memories from that life…

Once we set our mind on something, it will cause the path to open before us..

and thus through my dreams and ‘seeings’ I will be be able to access memories from there…

I found myself in a dream from there this morning, but I was not able to bring it out with me…

but the thought is crossing my mind, as I swan down the corridor that we lived in the caves.. that was as much of the dream as I was able to bring out

I have a feeling the Hawk.. and the Blue Butterfly will both have appearances on this journey…. along with the water dragon with golden light in its hair…

Honoring the Star Dancer.. journey with my Cheyenne Two Spirit love
October 31, 2016

I don’t know that I will find time to complete this, but I have to make my honoring by attempting to draw it out… and it also seems to fall in line with the dream of the green sun with its 3 moons… It is the continuation from a story that began in 2004 with my Twin Flame.. It was a vision that lasted 6 weeks or so and involved me seeing a Eagle Dancer and a Star Dancer (in 2004) Following behind Grandfather of the Wolf Clan who apparently it was important that the Dragon show up for this particular picture I tried to draw this weekend..

I don’t have time write it out but as I look at this picture it appears to be a continuation from the dream of the green sun with the 3 moons.. As the story of my life goes I was walking along, from the time I was 12 thinking that my love was with a man… and discovering that my one true love is a Two Spirit took me to a new dimension of thinking… a New World has opened up before me…. and all my drawing should begin to reflect this new world…

 

I have a lot on my mind right now, with looking the ethers to peer down upon Standing Rock and the Sioux Nation… Calling out to the Star people, “This is what is needed” but I wanted to make certain I took a moment to attempt to draw this honoring song for my Love, she is the Star Dancer from my 2004 vision… My heart holds her close again… She has returned from her journey…

 

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This vision is much longer than I imagine.  As I look down this portal through time I remember when the story of the Eagle dancer was given to me in a vision in 1994.  A bunch of Artist had showed up at my house and were sitting around drawing..  so I had joined them and was sitting drawing a picture of an Eagle when suddenly I realized that I had drawn a head dress.. and as I was drawing her face within the head dress I saw the words, “And at the end of the Story the Dancing Bird Goddess makes her leap  of faith from the Edge of the Precipice and is transformed into an Eagle….

My story with my Rainbow Twin Flame Two Spirit is a love story that began before she appeared..

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Making the transition to see who people are on the inside ~Two Spirit Twin Flame journey
October 30, 2016

In my Twin Flame journey I believe I have arrived at the place where I have undergone the transition so I can see who people are on the inside.

Having never been attracted to females and then falling in love with the girl on the inside has been my journey this year.  It is my Spirit Bear who has guided this journey, instructing me to look back into my dreams with this new information and I would see Lakota was always there inside my dreams..

I recently had a dream that this girl walked past me as I was singing, “She keeps me warm” by Mary Lambert.  The girl stops and demands to know why I am singing that song.  Then she rattles off a bunch of singers names which baffle me as I only really listen to Native American Music.  With this she turns on her heels and stomps off saying, “You don’t belong here.  You are definitely not one of us.”  To which I respond, “No but my girlfriend is.”

In this year of re-examination of my dreams, (of which there are several) one of the dreams that foretold a transition that would take place within me had to do with a dream from the early 2000’s in which in my dream I was walking with Lakota, only seeing the male energy, when suddenly Lakota does this 2 steps back and off to the side zig zag motion  and disappears into another dimension…  so of course I follow what I believe is the man of my dreams into this other dimension, but upon arriving I cannot see ‘him’ and simply awaken..

metamorhis-1There was another dream in which I came to a river and a stone appeared so I leapt onto it… then another and another until I found myself in the middle of the River standing on the edge of a great beam.  Lakota was there too, not recognizing me, not noticing me.  We were both being required to make a leap of faith, when Lakota simply stepped back off the ledge and disappeared into the water..  so there again I followed suite and we swam down to the bottom of the River where we found a building and went inside.

My perception of the male Lakota disappeared into a back room but I was completely fascinated bymetamorphis the furniture in the room, a chaise lounge stood back by the door..  it had really pretty feet.  And there was a computer desk there that had the same feet..  As I was standing there  memorizing the furniture Lakota came back into the room.

Then the Earth began to shake so fiercely that the furniture picked up its feet and ran away..

metamorhis-2Outside the picture window there appeared a girl.  She was struggling hard as she swam back and forth until the pressure imploded the picture window.  Standing in the room now was a beam of light.  She immediately swam to it, dived into it, and metamorphosed into a light being.

Lakota followed her, diving into the light beam and metamorphosed into a light being..  And I thinking this was also what I was being called to do stepped into the light beam and meta-morphed into a light being..

This is not the only dream, but one of many.  Recently I was at the used store and to my amazement, I came across the Chaise Lounge from my dream.. calling me to remember this dream…  calling me to look with different eyes into where I am at in my journey with my Two Spirit Love…

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Twin Flames ~forced to the next level of growth
September 6, 2016

Love dances and pulls me close

Love dances and pushes me apart

And forces me into our next level of growth

But when she does that thing

That only she would take the time to do

A dance so sacred

In one swift move

I look down to see

She is all inside my heart..

Walking her friend home

Walking her friend home

I needed to come back and share the twists and turns of this journey with my Twin Flame..  Life is a growing process.. we have to keep moving forward.  The work of opening a path is of great importance, so even if I should happen to experience moments when it feels like I am fighting against all odds as my world is being shaken and torn apart, and rebuilt into something different, I still feel compelled to share the journey.

There are twists in this journey since last May that I have only now come to a place where I have a glimmer of retrospection.

Before then, we were traveling along, her spirit body came into my dreams and slept with me there.  I could feel her every second of the day.  Through vibrational changes I could tell when she was thinking of me.  I could feel her so close.  It was there I fell in love with the soft soft of her Two Spirit divine feminine for she is a Cheyenne Two Spirit, and in my current life I have never loved a woman like that..

Last May she took a journey that she was all excited to take as she prepared to take it.  Then she left for the weekend and when she came back her whole world had been shattered and torn apart.  Inside of her head she was screaming.   Then she put on a goodbye song to me and told me that she was leaving and that I would be ok…

Then she left…  and while I could still feel the remnants of her sweet fragrance, the one who held me so softly in the night was gone, and she now stood hidden behind her male energy..  (When she told me she was leaving she said that if she did not grow from this..well she had to leave because she had to grow from this.)

For me there was no disconnect button.  I held onto her even though my heart felt like it was breaking.  I transformed myself into a River Song and followed the Blue Butterfly who was determined that I was going to continue my journey with her sister..

I drifted along with her until one day I discovered that there was a girl inside my heart weeping, and that girl was me.  So I just went to my Twin Flame and said, “I have to go away now.”  So I hit the ‘disconnect’ button..  and went away to weep..

She followed me, arriving in another place where she sang her song until I quit weeping and hit the ‘reconnect’ button..

After that I could feel her move close and pull apart, move close and pull apart.

I found this to be difficult and disheartening, as the days stretched out between ‘move close and pull apart’ I began to grow weary and longed for the Great Bear who guides me through my Winters sleep to show up and just let me dream into the next year.

I had been singing her my River Song, through pictures, without words…  and when I arrived at some of the pictures she would make them her Icon too… so we would share heart pictures.. and then when I arrived at Lion Pictures, well, she pretty well stayed connected to me there..

but still there was no meaningful exchange.  She did not return to me the love I felt.  And the one sidedness of my connection to her began to feel like a wound upon my heart as she was caught in a loop pulling me close and pushing me away.  I could not strike out at her.  She is ultra sensitive when someone strikes out at her, but inside my spirit I was thinking, “People are always thinking I am unbreakable, but they are are wrong.  I am breakable, and I feel broken here in this place.  So now I just need to go find the Bear (even though it is months before he will show up) and find my medicine in my dreams.”

So I went to her, and as beautifully and as elegantly as I could put it I told her, “You are all inside my heart and I can’t stop that…  I am going to the Bears cave to await the journey..  If you should happen to miss me, I am but a click away..  Going to explore the dream time”

Then without disconnecting from her I left.  I did not look her way, in the way that she could see I was looking, but I still watched her from a distance to see if she continued to keep our matching Lion pictures up..

I left, went to dream and awoke to find myself staring at a Green Sun with 3 Moons…  It was a picture that I knew I had to get down on paper..  and that day, when I went to see if she was still carrying the our Lion picture I saw that she had changed her picture to another girls picture..

My first reaction was “she is telling me that she found somebody new” that when she said she was leaving she was already gone…  but there was this dream that was calling to me, one that I knew I had to paint, so I knew that I should just watch and see where the story traveled to next.  I needed to stay in my medicine and continue painting the picture from the dream..  so I changed my icon to the unfinished picture from the dream..

The next day sh comes back with another picture of the girl and says that her friend passed away yesterday…

There has been this underlying thought within me all along, ever since she left, but Blue Butterfly told me not to leave (regardless of the struggle against what feels like pain) I have had this feeling that the transformation of the Twin Flame journey requires a devotion of friendship to each other.

In the beginning, when she left so abruptly, it was clear to me that friendship was being required of me, but it is with this last event that I can see that in the same way she is learning about how to hold a friendship with me..

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It is like my lesson in friendship is to have the faith to let go when she says she needs to tend to something…

and her lesson in friendship with me is ‘this is how to tell her you have something you need to tend to so that her heart will not feel broken when you are gone..

 

We are Divine
June 28, 2016

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We are so much more than we remember

I have this place where I dream. I don’t know if I am a Star or a Galaxy, but I remember, in my dreams, I travel there with frequency..

In my dream this morning I was standing in my yard watching the goings on around me. I could see that I had this place where I parked my vehicle that was actually in the driveway of my neighbors yard.

I could see the comings and going of my neighbor. One of my neighbors was standing in my yard, in the place where I park my vehicle. He was standing there, without moving staring into space.

Then as I am watching the ghost man passes through my yard, and when I look back over to the man who was staring out into space another man was standing there with the space man. He appeared to be doing something equivalent to rubbing after shave on the the spacemans face.

Then the spaceman faded and the man began rubbing the ‘after shave’ on his own face. He did it in very slow circular movement. Inside his movements I could see a galaxy spinning… When he saw me staring at him, “It feels very good you know” I told I could sense that in his movements..

Then when I walked back over to my house to go back inside I glanced back at the path the Ghost Man had taken through my yard and saw, off in the distance, a cluster of children, of various ages coming towards us..

It was when I saw the children coming, in the cluster of stars shining bright in my sky that I realized I was in the place where I am a Galaxy, alive and living a life very much like a human does.. only time is different…

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Guidance on my mission within this Two Spirit love
June 12, 2016

I do not know that I could complete this mission without the Earth guiding my steps and my reactions.  The human part of me would react in a way to push any discomfort out of my being, but in this new world I have found myself in the rules are so different here.  They call for a higher love  than I have experienced in my current human expression.

Butterfly Blue lead me into a place I call the Dark Forest.  It it the place inside my Two Spirit where she holds such rage for all that has happened in her world with the constant reminder that she is not like everyone else.  From the moment I entered there I got a tummy ache.  Then it felt like my head exploded (I am an empath, I think I am walking inside of her now).  I have had an Amethyst on my head all weekend because anywhere I tried to focus made me feel overwhelmed.

In the place of this rage, it is without love.  Love has no place here.  It is the total and complete emotion of protecting oneself from annihilation.   It is the Dark forest that has been built upon for all the generations that the Two Spirits have been traveling through the Time of Chaos.  The emotional body carries the signature of all the love that they have seen murdered through time, which makes it unsafe to love, all the disrespect that they have been shown because they translate the world through different eyes than most people.  It is the place inside where the rage is so strong it makes her tremble.  As I looked around there, there was no love for me there.  I could be there or I could leave.  It did not matter.  The only thing that mattered to her was to get through the rage to the other side so she could grow through the experience.  Where ever it lead her, that is the place she would go.  I could be nothing more than a song bird she once heard singing, or I could be whatever I chose to be.  There was no love inside her like we think of love and relationships growing through time..

It was difficult being there, stomach hurting, and my head feeling like it was going to explode (I never have headaches, but I got a headache) ..

Finally I decided I needed to change into something more comfortable for my passage through the Dark Forest, so I transformed into a River Song so that I could watch the energies of the collective Dark Forest from inside the Water Spirit.

We have been walking in silence for 22 days now but we have still been touching in that one place where we meet, even though there are no words spoken out loud, just tiny pictures that dance between us.  I was not going to tell her why I changed my name from Destiny loves Lakota to River Song.  I was just going to let it go where ever it went.  The Earth has already told me that she has bound me to Lakota for her healing, no matter whether we walk inside a relationship or not. (Did I tell you the Earth had me cut off my braid and send it to Lakota in 2011?  I did as I was told and the Earth said that she bound me to Lakota because I am a notorious run away when it comes to love.)

So I was not going to tell Lakota why I transformed myself into a River Song..  But then the Butterfly Blue showed up.  She danced upon my waters and bid me to say hello to Lakota and tell her why I transformed myself into River Song..  so I did..

After that I was laying in bed, with my Amethyst on my head, drifting in River Songs body when I saw a cloud formation in the sky.  It was in the shape of a Tree, and the top of the tree had been swirled to look like a crescent moon, with swirls that came out and disappeared into the blueness of the sky.  Behind the  trunk of the tree cloud a bright sun, complete with Sun rays reaching out, and evenly dispensed on both sides.. all against a blue sky.

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I Dream in Tarot Cards, art by Destiny

My first thought was, I don’t think I can paint that picture out…  so I drifted on, and looking into the Dark Forest I saw a Black Tree…  bent in a swirl, just like the Cloud…  so I drew it out…

 

This Two Spirit mission is really important..  and sacred..  But I do not think that I could complete it if I was not divinely guided by the Earth to come into this higher love..

It is so easy to get lost in the Ego, thinking it has to go one way or another.  The Ego could say well, “You tried and she broke your heart anyway.  The Ego would have me to contemplate a thousand excuses to travel on and go someplace else, and if it was up to me I would have left.

But it is the Earth who guides my steps, and she sends animal messengers to tell me what direction she needs me to travel next.

Since this new phase of the journey began 22 days ago, a blue butterfly keeps showing up to guide my journey and tell me what to do..

And 2 days ago, I was driving to work when an Eagle flew over my path.  I drove further, and in my sky I beheld a cloud in the shape of an Eagle…

I have come into a New World, into a higher form of love.  The Earth holds me and keeps me safe on this journey and keeps Lakota safe too, in this special place that the Earth has made for her healing.. and for the healing of the Two Spirits.

all my love,

a River Song