Archive for February, 2014

Kundalini `is up to my shoulders now
February 20, 2014

dream and deep space -kundalini 4 today up to shoulders

Here is a representation of what my Kundalini looked like this morning..  It is not completely accurate because one has to understand that the Kundalini is about being plugged into the Earth at the base of your spine and basically it is a shower of energy coming straight up the spine.. looking very much like stars like that but it is an energy that comes straight up the body…  The Kundalini is very consistent about spinning at the same time each day..  I love the early morning ones in the 5:00 hour as one of the best because in a state of laying in the bed all tucked and cozy beneath my blankets it is a very loving and sensual feel..

I began my full Kundalini Awakening in June of 2010, and almost 4 years now into the journey I noted this morning that the energy is up to my shoulders…..

I go through this alone and learn as I go.. most of them are beautiful to the feeling of being divine, but sometimes a person can experience a blow out of the energy…  this week I think I experienced a blow out in the top of my head area that kind of gave me a headache..  I find ice is very helpful for any location where one is experiencing a blow out and it also seems like it is required for that extra boost always make the kundalini have the ability to rise higher..

so before this morning my Kundalini  had been consistently rising to my heart and spinning like a many lotus flower all across my chest… but this morning (since the blow out this week) I observed that my kundalini was up to my shoulders and felt like it now cloaked me like a dress….  very lovely…

delacee and rick

Kundalini and a Higher Love
February 12, 2014


Sometimes it would feel like the Kundalini was burning through me and sometimes the feeling was of the Kundalini coming in through my base chakra and spinning, which in turn would activate another energy center upon my body and as if Time was standing still I would watch a second galaxy within my being spinning.  Every so often as I was watching a second galaxy spinning within my being, I would feel like this movement, this pull and then watch as the galaxy would be pulled down a black hole.


In time I came to recognize that these moments were for the transmutation of energy, that parts of my self that were no longer serving my higher good were being ‘shed’ so to speak so that my Kundalini could rise higher and higher until at last it arrived in my heart center and began to command of me that I release my old concepts of what love is and accept into my personality essence a higher form of love..

clouddancerCougar spirit mountain lion 

So I have been sharing my journey of 10 years with Rick here in my blog. He has been both the Cougar and the Dark One and  Rick is the Indian who turned and sang to the Thunderbeing June 17, 2010 and upon seeing that my heart chakra opened wide and my Kundalini began its sacred journey of spinning me into ecstasy while burning a purification through me..

Navajo Trail of Tears 

My journey with Rick was always kind of a rough tumultuous journey.  In the earlier years I would complain to him that he was like a bull in my china shop and when I would get mad at him I would just disappear for at least 3 months to a year.  It would take that long for my rage to calm down before I would wander on back to him (because, for one thing, when we were getting along we were best phone buddies, talking for hours, sharing our visions always endeared me to him,) so even though I would leave him in anger I would always wander back into his camp and feel him wrap his astral arms around me again until I would get mad and explode away from him again while he would yell at me how this came from our Trail of Tears and complaining, “You are leaving me again just like you did on the Trail of Tears.”


We traveled for many years in a love/hate relationship..  Even through my Kundalini journey it remained tumultuous for reasons that are hard to express.. like we are opposites, he believes in demons and evil.. and I don’t so it would be pretty consistent the times we would clash with each other and I would spiral away from him for a time.


The Kundalini calls us to a higher love.  It is not a speedy journey, this 3 years it spent purifying my lower regions, opening the energy field within me until at last it had burned all the way up to my heart chakra and called me into this feeling of unconditional love..


Yesterday morning when Rick and I were talking on the phone we had this moment of clash which in the past would more likely been an exit point with me storming one direction and him another..  I became very passionate, like a storm blowing a hard wind, unrelenting until he just kind of shut the door and said “I am going inside”


It was amazing because it was not anger that I felt but pure passion..  In the place where we love we are like 2 spirits in one tree, skin on skin and in the place where we clash we are like a porcupine flaring its needles to ward off a meat eating predator..  It is the natural order that the porcupine, once no longer feeling threatened by the meat eating predator, the porcupine continues foraging its way through the forest like nothing happened.  It does not hold bad feelings against the meat eating animal whose path crossed its path..


A short time later Rich approached me from a different direction and was telling me that I had gotten angry with him and attacked him. but I told him it was not anger, it was passion….  and then we journeyed to our rights to be different expressions within the same world..  until at last again we were snuggly close in our affections again.


This is a higher love that I am now expressing from this Kundalini journey.  I just discovered I have no desire to leave him again because of the place where we clashed… 

I see a higher love is coming through me in this Kundalini journey…


((((..  and I still have my throat chakra, my third eye and crown chakra for the Kundalini to journey through in the years ahead…))))

This Kundalini journey
February 10, 2014

kundalini flows through me


This is a very good representation of how how this Kundalini feels flowing through me..  The immense part of the Kundalini Awakening began on June 17, 2010 when a Native friend turned and sang a song to the Thunderbeings..  Then opened my heart chakra wide and love flowed out and poured into him..  After that it settled between my legs and began to work itself up, burning through me in sweet ecstacy (most of the time) activating my chakras as it would come to them, making them to spin like galaxies in the heavens that would dance with others.  Sometimes as I would watch a whole galaxy would be sucked down a black hole that would open up .. emotional baggage that would no longer serve me in this would be sent into another world to be transformed into something wonderful.. and after  three years of this spinning burning through me I am just now to my heart chakra..  It has the feeling of being this light that is plugged into the Earth coming up through my center, all the way up to my heart chakra now, with its natural course being that one day all of my chakras will have been cleansed and open..  and the way that it feels looks exactly like the light of this picture only it happens in whatever position I am in, like clockwork daily..  laying in the bed awakening to its spinnings can make me feel skin on skin, tummy to tummy Love moving through me..  or sitting at the computer, typing…  or watching TV while this love spins and burns through me in sheer delight most of the time..vibrating higher all working towards the day.. when a girl can love a Thunderbeing and he can love her

Bear dreams
February 7, 2014

golden bearBear dreams brings to mind how the animals that walk with us, guiding us, protecting us, being sign post and messengers show up over and over in our dreams..

for instance, in this world we are in now I have never came in contact with a life bear, and yet I know that this medicine is a part of me, so it seems that even though one of our animals is strong within us and cannot show up in the physical, it can still make it presence known and felt in the place where it can be seen..

for example I knew that the Bear was a part of what guides me for years before a lovely golden bear showed up in my dream, playfully throwing a chest upon its back and strapping it on, he told me that he was on my Totem Pole..

the Bear and the Honey Comb dream
February 6, 2014

duct tape and honeycomb
Wow what a dream. I was dreaming that I was the forest when we came upon a bear. He was lumbering along and went straight to a hollowed out tree that was laying on the ground. then he proceeded to reach into the tree and pull a naked man, who happened to be sleeping there, out. The bear put his whole mouth over the mans head (I was freaking out a little in the dream) but the man was fighting him and put his sharp knife into the bears mouth stung the inside of it so that the bear then dropped the man to the ground where he continued to defend himself.

then a strange thing happened, as if by some magical force it looked like the bear was being drug off by his tail.. and I was left pondering that fact that I had just seen the honeycomb inside the hollow tree as a man…


Journey to the Edge of the Precipice ~has been released
February 5, 2014

The journey of life can take us down many strange roads and lead us into places where everything is so different than where we thought we were going to….

There was this one path I was placed upon in 1993.. I called it Journey to the Edge of the Precipice. It began when a girl vision’ed an Indian man stepping out of the woods bearing a Peace Pipe for me. Then 2 weeks later another girl of vision saw the same Indian man in her dreams stepping out of the forest into a clearing. When she mentioned my name to him he told her that I was not seeking him that I was seeking power.. Between the 2 of them I found myself on a new journey and seeking this Indian man became the essence of what I was doing.

As a person who journals, of course I wrote it all out (as I had been journaling since 1983) and called this new journey I was on Journey to the Edge of the Precipice..

healers gift 

Life is strange and the course became warped and twisted, and that journey came to have a  life of its own beyond the 2 visions until within this last year it became all ripped away from me and completely unrecognizable as far as the original dream and vision goes..

So here I am on a snow day. My grand kids are moving in and I am packing up the vestiges of my life to make for this new path I shall travel on with them. Sitting in the bookcase I found the original 5 notebooks worth of writings called Journey to the Edge of the Precipice and seeing now that the road has become unrecognizable I decided to let them go. I took all of the writings out of the notebooks and put them in the recycling bin.. but it has brought me into this place of reflection about how going forward a path will look like it will lead in one direction only to discover that where we end up is totally not where we thought we had been told we were going..

This could be seen as sad, however as I look back on it I can see so much more.. When my dad was young his grandmother came to all of them and said, “We will no longer tell people we are Indian.” And my dad took it to heart so none of us children were ever told or even knew we were Indian..

Then when I was in 4th grade I got my first vision (my first seeing through time) while reading an American History book that said, “And the ones that were here before, they had to be relocated.” In that moment I found myself staring down upon the Trail of Tears my Cherokee people walked.. After that there were these Indians who walked with me, and when I would ask them why did they walk with me?” they would say, “You are a great Warrior.”

harvest moon Kopeli

From 1964 (4th grade) til 2004 I pondered why the Indians walked with me in vision. Then on my Harvest Moon of 2004 the Ancestors came and danced in the sky for me.

After they danced they came and told me that the reason they had been walking with me since the 4th grade was because I was Indian… and it is from there that my journey turned towards this Kundalini awakening and being told that I had now arrived at my destiny.. and the Earth telling me that she is the one who brought me to the Kundalini Journey because that is what she needs from me, to release energies that are blocked upon her body so that she can ascend to a body that is not so heavy and dense again.

Journey to the Edge of the Precipice has been released

So today as I silently pulled all pages from Journey to the Edge of the Precipice and placed them in the recycling bin I came to realize that it was not about me finding ‘Him”, the one they saw in their visions in 1993, it was about me coming back into the knowledge that I am Indian, and in coming into that knowledge I then was taken to my destiny, to this place where the Earth is able to use me as a vessel to release trapped energies so that her body can take on a higher vibration and we can travel again to the place where a girl and a Thunder Being can share their love..

In looking back through the writings of the book, Journey to the Edge of the Precipice I never would have imagined that this was where that path would lead.. It is like everything is different now and those words I wrote no longer make any sense in this new journey. It is like they do not translate to a Native American Kundalini experience.. and so today I release the book, Journey to the Edge of the Precipice… and give myself holy unto this new path…