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She adds our hearts radiating love and light the doorway bright
May 8, 2018

Two Heart apart but touch through the portal she adds our hearts of radiating love

The positioning of her divine feminine in the picture comes from a dream I had during the time of great sleep (last winter 2017) when I was being brought into the understanding that I had been dreaming them all my life.

In the dream I could see I was in my Home world as all of my animals began to congregate a party began to form and grow through time until the party spilled over to the front yard, but still more people kept coming to the party and after a time the animals all turned into people but I could still tell who they were.

From the clan of the ancient deer people by destiny

down the hill stood the Clan of Ancient Deer People who, it seemed had migrated across the river to my side, and were standing at the edge of the party.  Then comes one of them walking past me, and this time I could see their features up close, her softly flattened nose.  and her dress of deer skin.  She had 2 braids hanging down in front and on her chest she wore her crest, the emblem of the Ancient Deer People.  She was long and graceful and after she passed me, upon her back I could see she wore her emblem there too and she had another 2 braids hanging down.

She was headed back towards her clan, and she reminded me of  the way a comet shoots off to seed new worlds and then comes back home to their clan..

ancient chinese knight picture3b59092b1b5d994e3c467948b54e455cwith this I realize that all along a man and a woman have been standing there with with me along (as the Deer Woman had passed between us and caused me to look towards her and see them.)

The man was very very tall and larger than life.  His attire was quite elegant and at the same time he was an Ancient one.  The woman was a lot shorter than him and was dressed only slightly like the pic above.

There was another woman there and she was talking to him about her art, asking him if he wanted to see her art, so I asked him if he would like to see my art, and we took off to the front of the house.  The passage up the stairs was like jumping from stone to stone up a waterfall stairway..  He took the lead and his woman ran danced skipped beside me..  then as we neared the top she ran on up the steps in front of him..  and that was when I recognized my love as she looked over the top of his head and smiled so bright back at me..  (I have seen us in this same position many times inside my dreams..)

When she gets to the top of stairs she makes this odd movement, lays down and slips through the opening..  Then he does the same, so I do the same thing and walk into an alternate world, where we are standing up..

I am looking around for my art to show him so I take him into my glow in the dark room..  in the sky up above I have stars and clouds….  and he is getting romantically distracted by it to the point where he goes, “I wish you hadn’t painted those stars in the sky for they are distracting me from my mission,” and pulling me close (as my human form was quite sick at the time) he was asking me if maybe I could ask someone to turn on the music so we could dance…

 

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This was one of the dreams from before I realized they always were with me in my dreams…  so when I sketched out the picture of the mirror portal with my hand reaching through and touching their heart.. and their hand reaching though and touching my heart I put my loves divine feminine in the position from the dream, from when she ran up the stairs ahead of him.. and looking back she smiled at me….  ♥♥♥

 

 

 

Magic of the Unicorn and this Two Spirit Love
July 26, 2017

MAGIC OF THE UNICORN (while some would say they don’t exist, I say they are merely living on a different dimension and these dimensions overlap.)
 
 
My Two Spirit love has returned to me. I can again feel her sweet embrace. can go to bed and feel her presence laying with me in our long nights without the human touch touching us, I can feel her..
 
She disappeared about 2 months ago, slipping back and being hidden behind her male energy, and he would not speak with me..
 
WIth silent heart moving forward I grieved the journey of her loss, for I would not, could not turn this into a dishonoring song so I followed my dreams to tell me what was going on.. and in one dream I was shown this was a journey he needed to take.. and another dream I was told that in this journey he again would find his heart..
 
 
He had lost his heart some years ago.. His (her, their) father woke up one day, walked out the door and never ever returned. It made the journey of my Two Spirit love one in which the male energy protects the divine feminine so that he takes her and hides her away when unexplained emotions come along.. and just disappearing on people has long been the song..
 
So I bent,
I twisted,
I carried on..
and poured all my heart into my painting song..
 
Tried to paint a Unicorn, and while it came out magical, I felt I was lacking in my ability to paint the Unicorn, so I began to paint one more…
 
And while it was better, and magical, I did not feel it was good enough.. so I painted another… and it was better than the others, so I began painting one to hang on my wall (and began the background to 2 more, for I have a quest to paint the Unicorn who came to me for 3 months back in 2008 and sang to me the “Remember when?” song…..

Then my love, she shows up.. and sings to me, “A Unicorn came to me in my dream, nudged me on my face, made me laugh, and woke me up. .  . Let’s Dance”…
 
and then like water that has gone away causing the land to wither and dry up, softly so softly her love poured down upon me again…
 
Always changing.. every evolving, we become more…

Mermaid Island, a spiritual retreat,
June 6, 2017

 

I have gone to Mermaid Island on a spiritual journey, spiritual retreat… It is the place where I lived in our passage through Lemuria.. I will be searching through time for my memories from that life…

Once we set our mind on something, it will cause the path to open before us..

and thus through my dreams and ‘seeings’ I will be be able to access memories from there…

I found myself in a dream from there this morning, but I was not able to bring it out with me…

but the thought is crossing my mind, as I swan down the corridor that we lived in the caves.. that was as much of the dream as I was able to bring out

I have a feeling the Hawk.. and the Blue Butterfly will both have appearances on this journey…. along with the water dragon with golden light in its hair…

Journey to Mermaid Island ~A Two Spirit Journey
June 4, 2017

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Life happens… changes happen .. it is very important that we honor the changes..
 
the painting of this picture was a journey of discovery that all began with a mistake.. this was a mermaid lesson on line that I was painting and after getting the sun, sky and dragon stone painted I drew in the rainbow haired mermaid.. Then I noticed it was all blank to the right of her and thought, ‘well I will just add a second mermaid. Got her all outlined and I still had a 1/4th of the canvas to fill… so I thought I will put a flower in the second mermaids hair and have the limbs of a tree coming down to fill the rest of the space…
 
As this happened a book begin to form in my mind and the pictures I could paint in this book so I began to have a look see at the symbols the Earth was giving presently around me and saw the Honey Suckle in the Tree who came to visit me and share her message with me…..
 
So then I knew that in the next picture the water dragon will appear with me.. and with my love, an amazing Star Fish in her hand that she is showing me…
 
In the course of painting this picture I did some research to look at various mermaid head dresses and discovered that there are a multitude of Two Spirit who are Mermaids… (and they need to be part of this honoring song also)
 
and then today I did some research to see what a group of mermaids is called… I found, to my amazement a passage that one in 3 mermaids is infertile and will spend her life running with her sister.. or friend… or lover such as I and my Two Spirit Love who happens to be my Twin Spirit (according to the Eagles in my dream) making us born in the Womb of Creation together as Twins…
 
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Sometimes Love is a Butterfly, lessons from a Two Spirit Journey
April 18, 2017

This Two Spirit love.. pictures from the journey

This is from last summer when she came home traumatized and said she had to leave, that what she once believed was no longer true and she had to go find herself.. and grow

I had responded with I will leave also, and thinking that I would go somewhere else I found myself in a sea of clover with a blue butterfly dancing at my feet. The Blue Butterfly showed a Y in the path and said, “you can go right and there will be food there, or left and there will be food there also”

So I left the path where I was going to leave her, changed my name to River Song and told her the Blue Butterfly was the path I would follow in a sing a long…

Two Spirits are amazing. She disappeared behind her masculine energy and her gentle feminine would not touch me from inside the place she had gone to heal…

She sent me pictures from inside the forest where she had gone to heal..  And I sent her pictures of the butterfly traveling along the River Song… There were mermaids in that river, and fairies and magical trees, and a dark forest where one could get lost endlessly..

Then I dreamed she was returning… though she still was holding herself so far from me…. so I rejoiced in the knowing and sang exuberantly… while she pretended not to notice I was dancing by myself waiting for her to step back out of the forest where she had gone to find herself…

That moment, when she came back and found me still sitting there waiting for her…. I believe it was the moment love was reborn in her heart…

Sometimes things happen in life that can tear us apart, leave us shattered and torn… and sometimes it takes a butterfly to heal that pain….

Two Spirit Love, divine unveiling
March 20, 2017

This human mind is a virgin to the Two Spirit world. In ways I cannot define I accepted the belief reality of this world, even while other parts of myself could see through the prejudice, the hate, the fear, I could see easily see there and know my calling was to choose the path that led to love.

A world beyond 2 sexes never crossed my mind to question it reality, and its legitimacy as reality.

Now here I am having completed one whole puzzle (why the spirit Indians began walking with me in the 4th grade) I have now been given a second one to put together. This beautiful puzzle who we call Two Spirit Love in her divine unfolding.

One of my observations in this great unfolding, especially in the last year is the fact that when she feels less than safe in her divine feminine, or when she feels she needs some special protection she will step behind the essence of her male energy and allow him to protect her while she tries to find a way to heal.

So I now understand that the reason I met my Two Spirit Love walking fully in her male energy was because her heart had been shattered and broken and at a loss to know what to do or how to carry on without the safety of her comfort zone she had slipped behind the veil into the safety zone of her male energy to allow him to protect her..

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Every day I allowed the honor of walking with her it becomes more and more clear what medicine Two Spirit people brought to our Tribes..  They teach us how to walk in balance within ourselves.  So often we think we are only one sex, or the other, and we do not see that we are both, all of us.  We all have the feminine nurturer and the masculine protector within all of us.  It is the medicine of the Two Spirit to remind us of how to find balance inside of ourselves.


All inside the dance of love with a Two Spirit
October 31, 2016

All inside the dance of Love with a Two Spirit.. I find myself reflecting now of another place in which the vision was revealed that she would be a Two Spirit…

Just before I met her in this life, when I thought she was a he.. I had been driving down the road when a portal opened and I saw a Rainbow Flame,.. I went WOW, and then a second portal opened and another Rainbow Flame appeared.. on the eve of Thanksgiving..

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(picture is from a book I wrote to Lakota when I thought she was a male.. it was called My Life as a Fairy Tale… and was the story of how she had been delivered by a Cougar to the Aisle of the Twin Flames and was sitting at the well when a guy sat down beside her, on the other side. He was weeping inside his spirit over the course his life had run, and calling out in search of her to come,

his one true love..

(Her one True love…)

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Honoring the Star Dancer.. journey with my Cheyenne Two Spirit love
October 31, 2016

I don’t know that I will find time to complete this, but I have to make my honoring by attempting to draw it out… and it also seems to fall in line with the dream of the green sun with its 3 moons… It is the continuation from a story that began in 2004 with my Twin Flame.. It was a vision that lasted 6 weeks or so and involved me seeing a Eagle Dancer and a Star Dancer (in 2004) Following behind Grandfather of the Wolf Clan who apparently it was important that the Dragon show up for this particular picture I tried to draw this weekend..

I don’t have time write it out but as I look at this picture it appears to be a continuation from the dream of the green sun with the 3 moons.. As the story of my life goes I was walking along, from the time I was 12 thinking that my love was with a man… and discovering that my one true love is a Two Spirit took me to a new dimension of thinking… a New World has opened up before me…. and all my drawing should begin to reflect this new world…

 

I have a lot on my mind right now, with looking the ethers to peer down upon Standing Rock and the Sioux Nation… Calling out to the Star people, “This is what is needed” but I wanted to make certain I took a moment to attempt to draw this honoring song for my Love, she is the Star Dancer from my 2004 vision… My heart holds her close again… She has returned from her journey…

 

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This vision is much longer than I imagine.  As I look down this portal through time I remember when the story of the Eagle dancer was given to me in a vision in 1994.  A bunch of Artist had showed up at my house and were sitting around drawing..  so I had joined them and was sitting drawing a picture of an Eagle when suddenly I realized that I had drawn a head dress.. and as I was drawing her face within the head dress I saw the words, “And at the end of the Story the Dancing Bird Goddess makes her leap  of faith from the Edge of the Precipice and is transformed into an Eagle….

My story with my Rainbow Twin Flame Two Spirit is a love story that began before she appeared..

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Making the transition to see who people are on the inside ~Two Spirit Twin Flame journey
October 30, 2016

In my Twin Flame journey I believe I have arrived at the place where I have undergone the transition so I can see who people are on the inside.

Having never been attracted to females and then falling in love with the girl on the inside has been my journey this year.  It is my Spirit Bear who has guided this journey, instructing me to look back into my dreams with this new information and I would see Lakota was always there inside my dreams..

I recently had a dream that this girl walked past me as I was singing, “She keeps me warm” by Mary Lambert.  The girl stops and demands to know why I am singing that song.  Then she rattles off a bunch of singers names which baffle me as I only really listen to Native American Music.  With this she turns on her heels and stomps off saying, “You don’t belong here.  You are definitely not one of us.”  To which I respond, “No but my girlfriend is.”

In this year of re-examination of my dreams, (of which there are several) one of the dreams that foretold a transition that would take place within me had to do with a dream from the early 2000’s in which in my dream I was walking with Lakota, only seeing the male energy, when suddenly Lakota does this 2 steps back and off to the side zig zag motion  and disappears into another dimension…  so of course I follow what I believe is the man of my dreams into this other dimension, but upon arriving I cannot see ‘him’ and simply awaken..

metamorhis-1There was another dream in which I came to a river and a stone appeared so I leapt onto it… then another and another until I found myself in the middle of the River standing on the edge of a great beam.  Lakota was there too, not recognizing me, not noticing me.  We were both being required to make a leap of faith, when Lakota simply stepped back off the ledge and disappeared into the water..  so there again I followed suite and we swam down to the bottom of the River where we found a building and went inside.

My perception of the male Lakota disappeared into a back room but I was completely fascinated bymetamorphis the furniture in the room, a chaise lounge stood back by the door..  it had really pretty feet.  And there was a computer desk there that had the same feet..  As I was standing there  memorizing the furniture Lakota came back into the room.

Then the Earth began to shake so fiercely that the furniture picked up its feet and ran away..

metamorhis-2Outside the picture window there appeared a girl.  She was struggling hard as she swam back and forth until the pressure imploded the picture window.  Standing in the room now was a beam of light.  She immediately swam to it, dived into it, and metamorphosed into a light being.

Lakota followed her, diving into the light beam and metamorphosed into a light being..  And I thinking this was also what I was being called to do stepped into the light beam and meta-morphed into a light being..

This is not the only dream, but one of many.  Recently I was at the used store and to my amazement, I came across the Chaise Lounge from my dream.. calling me to remember this dream…  calling me to look with different eyes into where I am at in my journey with my Two Spirit Love…

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Love with a Two Spirit
October 19, 2016

Love with a Two Spirit
Her love make me feel like the Earth… and her love makes me feel crazy all at once.
I have found myself feeling the highest high and the lowest low with her and then she comes back and I realize we are standing in the ebb and flow of high tide and low tide… And I think one of these days I will no longer freak out when she leaves and will spread my legs in joyous anticipation when she returns to my naked land to again feel her naked waters running over me again in Heavenly Perceptions..
My love (who is a Cheyenne Two Spirit) has returned to me again. It can be a hard cold bitter world being a Two Spirit, with every thing that must be faced. while the newer generation has worked hard to reopen the path, for the older ones there is much pain to heal.
We were journeying together when she went back to a place that she had traveled to many times. when she came back she did not tell me what happened, she just place me some songs from hell and told me that she had to leave right then and there.
I was hurt and going to leave also, but a butterfly blue showed up and talk to me and told me to follow my Two Spirit.. So I did, even though, in my heart, I felt again as though I had lost hope, for she, my soft on soft had disappeared into her male energy. So I changed my name to River Song and followed them on their journey of silence and words unspoken.
Eventually I moved and began a new journey into the life of carbon monoxide poisoning (though I did not know that was happening until I became really ill) I didn’t know what was wrong but my River Song to her, as I waited for her, began to stop flowing.. and my status magically changed to Sleeping, and I began to sing songs of longing for her to come back.. and entertained her with many Leo pictures.. which began to fall off with the carbon monoxide poisoning when I could no longer hold my focus..
Somewhere inside the dream of this sleep I saw the first movement of her energy changing. she sent me a picture that had some words that said, “When you find someone who makes you feel magical every time they touch you, you should cherish them.”
She did not just suddenly reappear with those words, but they were like the moment she let me know I made her feel magical.. Of course after that I began fading because I was becoming more deeply affected by the carbon monoxide poisoning. It was all I could do to hold my jobs #1 holding prayer for the Lakota Nation, and #2 holding the job that supports me financially. Beyond that I could not hold my focus. And it was not until after I figure out what was making my brain to swell so big that I could not get my neutrons to fire properly that I was able to find my way back to again feeling like a River Song singing to her…
she has this way about her. She does not speak with spoken words to say what is going on but instead she sends pictures to speak for her. she sent me a picture representing her and in her hand was a bubble. In the bubble was I. In another of the group a woman had gone into the forest… and in another a woman sitting at the edge of the forest, waiting… so in her way she told me that she saw me sitting there the whole time waiting for her to find herself and return and that I had traveled with her as she made her journey..
Then in the moments just before her return to me I found myself in the memory of a vision I was given in 2004… when I was 13 (in 1969) I got molested by a family member. In that moment my innocence was stolen and in years ahead I had to take a journey to have a seed from the Tree of Forgiveness be emplanted into my heart for I simply could not forgive the man who did that to me.
In time he had grown old, but he seemed to be afraid to pass from this world and regressed back to his childhood..
In the meantime I was a girl of vision, trying to follow the visions, trying to follow the instructions I was given. til at last I arrived at the age of 48 to have my dad call one day and say the relative had been found in a coma lying on the floor…
In that moment I went into vision. I began walking through 3 dimensions all at once.. Now is not the time to write that story out for the vision lasted about 6 weeks and had many details, one of which involved a Ceremony for Healing the last remnants of Past Wounds. I was to take to the man who molested me in my youth the bridge he needed to cross to pass from this world to the next, then I was to travel to the place of my molestation and travel back through time to whisper to my younger self to find my focus in the flower so I could walk away, as I was frozen with what was happeneing,and after that the instructions were that I was to travel to a Sacred Mountain called Manataka and lay my heart upon my Mother.
I was very questioning of why I should do this, (go to Manataka) so I was praying for an answer when a portal opened up and I saw my 13 year old self curled up in fetal position.
In front of me I could see Grandfather of the Wolf Clan. His regalia was the skin of a Wolf, that covered his body with the wolfs head coming over the top of his head. In his hand he held his staff of power which he brought down to the Earth with a power so loud it shook the Earth and sounded like Thunder.
With this, even as he circled me clockwise, he swung his staff and danced counterclockwise as if to say, “Moving forward we will now heal your wounds from the past..
Behind Grandfather of the Wolf Clan came the Eagle Dancer.. and behind the Eagle Dance came the Star Dancer. She was the tallest woman I have seen, very very thin, with long long legs and behind her a trail of Stardust that was the Train of her sparkling white dress. Her hair was braided up in such a way that it had the appearance of a Constellation surrounding her head..
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seeing-the-star-dancerIt was in one of the pictures that Lakota sent me that I saw her, the Star Dancer with the long long legs (Lakota is 6’2″ and I am 5’3) and realized the immensity of this journey we are taking.
It is easy to get swept away in feelings of heart break and sadness. Easy to allow ourselves to leave and not continue down the path of the Twins who came to heal a planet and escort it to the 5th dimension.
In love with a Two Spirit I have found myself traveling to the highest highs and the lowest lows.. We try to run away from each other, but I am bound by my contract with the Earth by which if I follow the path she tells me to take I will feel the least amount of pain or discomfort and will achieve the reason for which I was sent, so when she sends her butterfly to guide down the path with my Two Spirit, I am bound by a leap of faith that where she is leading me to is the place where I am being sent.
The life of the Two Spirits, at this time, is mostly torture for their spirits have been torn to shreds and to walk with dignity many times means traveling against the grain of who they are, and trying to find comfort in others who are like them… but they too have been torn to shreds.. so it can be a bit vicious just trying to find some peace in this world..
 
Somewhere in this last journey of being separated from her I came into the knowledge that, no matter how sexually attracted I am to her soft on soft skin on skin I have to give birth to her and I being friends.
 
It may seem that this should have been the logical conclusion all along but there are parts within me that the Earth continues to purify. I have a possessive nature about me, and while some couples hold the same value, Two Spirits think different then non Two Spirits. So anytime my possessive nature has come up she will simply say, “My body is mine to show who I chose to show.”
 
So inside myself I am giving birth to a higher love. Friendship is being required of me even as she has now returned to stand so close I can feel her soft on soft.. whispering
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