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Sometimes Love is a Butterfly, lessons from a Two Spirit Journey
April 18, 2017

This Two Spirit love.. pictures from the journey

This is from last summer when she came home traumatized and said she had to leave, that what she once believed was no longer true and she had to go find herself.. and grow

I had responded with I will leave also, and thinking that I would go somewhere else I found myself in a sea of clover with a blue butterfly dancing at my feet. The Blue Butterfly showed a Y in the path and said, “you can go right and there will be food there, or left and there will be food there also”

So I left the path where I was going to leave her, changed my name to River Song and told her the Blue Butterfly was the path I would follow in a sing a long…

Two Spirits are amazing. She disappeared behind her masculine energy and her gentle feminine would not touch me from inside the place she had gone to heal…

She sent me pictures from inside the forest where she had gone to heal..  And I sent her pictures of the butterfly traveling along the River Song… There were mermaids in that river, and fairies and magical trees, and a dark forest where one could get lost endlessly..

Then I dreamed she was returning… though she still was holding herself so far from me…. so I rejoiced in the knowing and sang exuberantly… while she pretended not to notice I was dancing by myself waiting for her to step back out of the forest where she had gone to find herself…

That moment, when she came back and found me still sitting there waiting for her…. I believe it was the moment love was reborn in her heart…

Sometimes things happen in life that can tear us apart, leave us shattered and torn… and sometimes it takes a butterfly to heal that pain….

Honoring the Star Dancer.. journey with my Cheyenne Two Spirit love
October 31, 2016

I don’t know that I will find time to complete this, but I have to make my honoring by attempting to draw it out… and it also seems to fall in line with the dream of the green sun with its 3 moons… It is the continuation from a story that began in 2004 with my Twin Flame.. It was a vision that lasted 6 weeks or so and involved me seeing a Eagle Dancer and a Star Dancer (in 2004) Following behind Grandfather of the Wolf Clan who apparently it was important that the Dragon show up for this particular picture I tried to draw this weekend..

I don’t have time write it out but as I look at this picture it appears to be a continuation from the dream of the green sun with the 3 moons.. As the story of my life goes I was walking along, from the time I was 12 thinking that my love was with a man… and discovering that my one true love is a Two Spirit took me to a new dimension of thinking… a New World has opened up before me…. and all my drawing should begin to reflect this new world…

 

I have a lot on my mind right now, with looking the ethers to peer down upon Standing Rock and the Sioux Nation… Calling out to the Star people, “This is what is needed” but I wanted to make certain I took a moment to attempt to draw this honoring song for my Love, she is the Star Dancer from my 2004 vision… My heart holds her close again… She has returned from her journey…

 

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This vision is much longer than I imagine.  As I look down this portal through time I remember when the story of the Eagle dancer was given to me in a vision in 1994.  A bunch of Artist had showed up at my house and were sitting around drawing..  so I had joined them and was sitting drawing a picture of an Eagle when suddenly I realized that I had drawn a head dress.. and as I was drawing her face within the head dress I saw the words, “And at the end of the Story the Dancing Bird Goddess makes her leap  of faith from the Edge of the Precipice and is transformed into an Eagle….

My story with my Rainbow Twin Flame Two Spirit is a love story that began before she appeared..

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Making the transition to see who people are on the inside ~Two Spirit Twin Flame journey
October 30, 2016

In my Twin Flame journey I believe I have arrived at the place where I have undergone the transition so I can see who people are on the inside.

Having never been attracted to females and then falling in love with the girl on the inside has been my journey this year.  It is my Spirit Bear who has guided this journey, instructing me to look back into my dreams with this new information and I would see Lakota was always there inside my dreams..

I recently had a dream that this girl walked past me as I was singing, “She keeps me warm” by Mary Lambert.  The girl stops and demands to know why I am singing that song.  Then she rattles off a bunch of singers names which baffle me as I only really listen to Native American Music.  With this she turns on her heels and stomps off saying, “You don’t belong here.  You are definitely not one of us.”  To which I respond, “No but my girlfriend is.”

In this year of re-examination of my dreams, (of which there are several) one of the dreams that foretold a transition that would take place within me had to do with a dream from the early 2000’s in which in my dream I was walking with Lakota, only seeing the male energy, when suddenly Lakota does this 2 steps back and off to the side zig zag motion  and disappears into another dimension…  so of course I follow what I believe is the man of my dreams into this other dimension, but upon arriving I cannot see ‘him’ and simply awaken..

metamorhis-1There was another dream in which I came to a river and a stone appeared so I leapt onto it… then another and another until I found myself in the middle of the River standing on the edge of a great beam.  Lakota was there too, not recognizing me, not noticing me.  We were both being required to make a leap of faith, when Lakota simply stepped back off the ledge and disappeared into the water..  so there again I followed suite and we swam down to the bottom of the River where we found a building and went inside.

My perception of the male Lakota disappeared into a back room but I was completely fascinated bymetamorphis the furniture in the room, a chaise lounge stood back by the door..  it had really pretty feet.  And there was a computer desk there that had the same feet..  As I was standing there  memorizing the furniture Lakota came back into the room.

Then the Earth began to shake so fiercely that the furniture picked up its feet and ran away..

metamorhis-2Outside the picture window there appeared a girl.  She was struggling hard as she swam back and forth until the pressure imploded the picture window.  Standing in the room now was a beam of light.  She immediately swam to it, dived into it, and metamorphosed into a light being.

Lakota followed her, diving into the light beam and metamorphosed into a light being..  And I thinking this was also what I was being called to do stepped into the light beam and meta-morphed into a light being..

This is not the only dream, but one of many.  Recently I was at the used store and to my amazement, I came across the Chaise Lounge from my dream.. calling me to remember this dream…  calling me to look with different eyes into where I am at in my journey with my Two Spirit Love…

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Twin Flames ~forced to the next level of growth
September 6, 2016

Love dances and pulls me close

Love dances and pushes me apart

And forces me into our next level of growth

But when she does that thing

That only she would take the time to do

A dance so sacred

In one swift move

I look down to see

She is all inside my heart..

Walking her friend home

Walking her friend home

I needed to come back and share the twists and turns of this journey with my Twin Flame..  Life is a growing process.. we have to keep moving forward.  The work of opening a path is of great importance, so even if I should happen to experience moments when it feels like I am fighting against all odds as my world is being shaken and torn apart, and rebuilt into something different, I still feel compelled to share the journey.

There are twists in this journey since last May that I have only now come to a place where I have a glimmer of retrospection.

Before then, we were traveling along, her spirit body came into my dreams and slept with me there.  I could feel her every second of the day.  Through vibrational changes I could tell when she was thinking of me.  I could feel her so close.  It was there I fell in love with the soft soft of her Two Spirit divine feminine for she is a Cheyenne Two Spirit, and in my current life I have never loved a woman like that..

Last May she took a journey that she was all excited to take as she prepared to take it.  Then she left for the weekend and when she came back her whole world had been shattered and torn apart.  Inside of her head she was screaming.   Then she put on a goodbye song to me and told me that she was leaving and that I would be ok…

Then she left…  and while I could still feel the remnants of her sweet fragrance, the one who held me so softly in the night was gone, and she now stood hidden behind her male energy..  (When she told me she was leaving she said that if she did not grow from this..well she had to leave because she had to grow from this.)

For me there was no disconnect button.  I held onto her even though my heart felt like it was breaking.  I transformed myself into a River Song and followed the Blue Butterfly who was determined that I was going to continue my journey with her sister..

I drifted along with her until one day I discovered that there was a girl inside my heart weeping, and that girl was me.  So I just went to my Twin Flame and said, “I have to go away now.”  So I hit the ‘disconnect’ button..  and went away to weep..

She followed me, arriving in another place where she sang her song until I quit weeping and hit the ‘reconnect’ button..

After that I could feel her move close and pull apart, move close and pull apart.

I found this to be difficult and disheartening, as the days stretched out between ‘move close and pull apart’ I began to grow weary and longed for the Great Bear who guides me through my Winters sleep to show up and just let me dream into the next year.

I had been singing her my River Song, through pictures, without words…  and when I arrived at some of the pictures she would make them her Icon too… so we would share heart pictures.. and then when I arrived at Lion Pictures, well, she pretty well stayed connected to me there..

but still there was no meaningful exchange.  She did not return to me the love I felt.  And the one sidedness of my connection to her began to feel like a wound upon my heart as she was caught in a loop pulling me close and pushing me away.  I could not strike out at her.  She is ultra sensitive when someone strikes out at her, but inside my spirit I was thinking, “People are always thinking I am unbreakable, but they are are wrong.  I am breakable, and I feel broken here in this place.  So now I just need to go find the Bear (even though it is months before he will show up) and find my medicine in my dreams.”

So I went to her, and as beautifully and as elegantly as I could put it I told her, “You are all inside my heart and I can’t stop that…  I am going to the Bears cave to await the journey..  If you should happen to miss me, I am but a click away..  Going to explore the dream time”

Then without disconnecting from her I left.  I did not look her way, in the way that she could see I was looking, but I still watched her from a distance to see if she continued to keep our matching Lion pictures up..

I left, went to dream and awoke to find myself staring at a Green Sun with 3 Moons…  It was a picture that I knew I had to get down on paper..  and that day, when I went to see if she was still carrying the our Lion picture I saw that she had changed her picture to another girls picture..

My first reaction was “she is telling me that she found somebody new” that when she said she was leaving she was already gone…  but there was this dream that was calling to me, one that I knew I had to paint, so I knew that I should just watch and see where the story traveled to next.  I needed to stay in my medicine and continue painting the picture from the dream..  so I changed my icon to the unfinished picture from the dream..

The next day sh comes back with another picture of the girl and says that her friend passed away yesterday…

There has been this underlying thought within me all along, ever since she left, but Blue Butterfly told me not to leave (regardless of the struggle against what feels like pain) I have had this feeling that the transformation of the Twin Flame journey requires a devotion of friendship to each other.

In the beginning, when she left so abruptly, it was clear to me that friendship was being required of me, but it is with this last event that I can see that in the same way she is learning about how to hold a friendship with me..

Inside my dream

 

It is like my lesson in friendship is to have the faith to let go when she says she needs to tend to something…

and her lesson in friendship with me is ‘this is how to tell her you have something you need to tend to so that her heart will not feel broken when you are gone..

 

Guidance on my mission within this Two Spirit love
June 12, 2016

I do not know that I could complete this mission without the Earth guiding my steps and my reactions.  The human part of me would react in a way to push any discomfort out of my being, but in this new world I have found myself in the rules are so different here.  They call for a higher love  than I have experienced in my current human expression.

Butterfly Blue lead me into a place I call the Dark Forest.  It it the place inside my Two Spirit where she holds such rage for all that has happened in her world with the constant reminder that she is not like everyone else.  From the moment I entered there I got a tummy ache.  Then it felt like my head exploded (I am an empath, I think I am walking inside of her now).  I have had an Amethyst on my head all weekend because anywhere I tried to focus made me feel overwhelmed.

In the place of this rage, it is without love.  Love has no place here.  It is the total and complete emotion of protecting oneself from annihilation.   It is the Dark forest that has been built upon for all the generations that the Two Spirits have been traveling through the Time of Chaos.  The emotional body carries the signature of all the love that they have seen murdered through time, which makes it unsafe to love, all the disrespect that they have been shown because they translate the world through different eyes than most people.  It is the place inside where the rage is so strong it makes her tremble.  As I looked around there, there was no love for me there.  I could be there or I could leave.  It did not matter.  The only thing that mattered to her was to get through the rage to the other side so she could grow through the experience.  Where ever it lead her, that is the place she would go.  I could be nothing more than a song bird she once heard singing, or I could be whatever I chose to be.  There was no love inside her like we think of love and relationships growing through time..

It was difficult being there, stomach hurting, and my head feeling like it was going to explode (I never have headaches, but I got a headache) ..

Finally I decided I needed to change into something more comfortable for my passage through the Dark Forest, so I transformed into a River Song so that I could watch the energies of the collective Dark Forest from inside the Water Spirit.

We have been walking in silence for 22 days now but we have still been touching in that one place where we meet, even though there are no words spoken out loud, just tiny pictures that dance between us.  I was not going to tell her why I changed my name from Destiny loves Lakota to River Song.  I was just going to let it go where ever it went.  The Earth has already told me that she has bound me to Lakota for her healing, no matter whether we walk inside a relationship or not. (Did I tell you the Earth had me cut off my braid and send it to Lakota in 2011?  I did as I was told and the Earth said that she bound me to Lakota because I am a notorious run away when it comes to love.)

So I was not going to tell Lakota why I transformed myself into a River Song..  But then the Butterfly Blue showed up.  She danced upon my waters and bid me to say hello to Lakota and tell her why I transformed myself into River Song..  so I did..

After that I was laying in bed, with my Amethyst on my head, drifting in River Songs body when I saw a cloud formation in the sky.  It was in the shape of a Tree, and the top of the tree had been swirled to look like a crescent moon, with swirls that came out and disappeared into the blueness of the sky.  Behind the  trunk of the tree cloud a bright sun, complete with Sun rays reaching out, and evenly dispensed on both sides.. all against a blue sky.

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I Dream in Tarot Cards, art by Destiny

My first thought was, I don’t think I can paint that picture out…  so I drifted on, and looking into the Dark Forest I saw a Black Tree…  bent in a swirl, just like the Cloud…  so I drew it out…

 

This Two Spirit mission is really important..  and sacred..  But I do not think that I could complete it if I was not divinely guided by the Earth to come into this higher love..

It is so easy to get lost in the Ego, thinking it has to go one way or another.  The Ego could say well, “You tried and she broke your heart anyway.  The Ego would have me to contemplate a thousand excuses to travel on and go someplace else, and if it was up to me I would have left.

But it is the Earth who guides my steps, and she sends animal messengers to tell me what direction she needs me to travel next.

Since this new phase of the journey began 22 days ago, a blue butterfly keeps showing up to guide my journey and tell me what to do..

And 2 days ago, I was driving to work when an Eagle flew over my path.  I drove further, and in my sky I beheld a cloud in the shape of an Eagle…

I have come into a New World, into a higher form of love.  The Earth holds me and keeps me safe on this journey and keeps Lakota safe too, in this special place that the Earth has made for her healing.. and for the healing of the Two Spirits.

all my love,

a River Song

Living within a spiral world, loving a Two Spirit
June 7, 2016

I will tell you something that ringing its song inside my heart right now..  Life is a circle, a spiral really..  visions from the age of 12, when I come to understand why I discover it is a circle.. and a spiral all at once for now I am 60 years old and the world has spun itself into a new world for me.

I always wondered why I was given 2 visions when I was 12 years old.  In one, my mother from 13 generations ago came to instruct me on how to walk through a world that was solid.  She said in all ways I was to merge with the Earth.  From there I spread my wings and stretching out across the land, through time, I became a warrior opening up the path for the Indigenous Peoples of the Earth for they are the Keepers of the Planets that support Life.  So I sang my songs and made my prayers and watched through Time as the People again began to rise.

In the second vision I was taken to my Home world and saw that my mission to the Earth had been accepted by the Elder Council.  Then my husband sweeps in like Sun standing over me holding me as a planet while I dance around him.  He is saying that his mission too to Earth has been accepted and is showing me where our paths will join in mission…  then the door closed…  and it felt like I was forever in search of why I was given the second vision.

Inside my dreams there was always someone walking with me, sometimes I could see it was a man, sometimes it would be a girl and she would be telling me where we were going and what it would look like.. and feel like.  In my dreams I fought against loving her.  My earthly body had been programmed to believe that as a girl my destiny could only be matched with a boy..

and yet now here stand I, dancing sacred around my Sun.. my love ..  Two Spirits .. discovering that in the completion of the circle, which in reality is a spiral, I have come to a second mission..

To sing my song, my creation song, to sing a new world into being, within the Heavenly Host of Singers who have come to sing the new world into being.  I must walk into the new world to open the open the path..

and now I can see why the Ancients changed my name to Destiny

once I had come into the time of the Second Mission..

the mission of singing into being

a world that embraces

Two Spirits

who walk as One.

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To my Cheyenne Two Spirit
May 2, 2016

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I think of you all the time.  This Winters past the Great Spirit Bear who guides me explained to me how all my life after I set out from our Home World you came to me every night and walked with me through my dream time and as I journey through my dreamworld and look within my dreams there is always the presence of you even to the point of me seeing you as a male and seeing you as a female opening the path to our love story on this planet today, you were there guiding my steps to awaken our mission of Oneness in this life before we arrived at it.

When I was 12 I was instructed from an Indian within me to merge with the Earth in all ways..  so I did.. (It was also the first time I saw you in vision)  In 2007 I had a merging with a River who once upon a time rang strong underneath its lover a Mountain.  When the River Ouachita merged with me it touched the place where I was lonely and called up in me to sing a song I called, “Are you Lonely, yes I am”

In 2011, when we first touched in this physical life I shared that poem and it made you weep.  Back then I did not remember why the Earth was calling me to journey with you by bidding me to cut off my braid and offer my medicine to you.  I did not remember why she showed me a picture of us in the heavens, Star People holding hands.  All I knew was this was the journey I was given to walk and so I had to honor it, no matter how long the path was or how long it took you to want to hold my hand in the heavens (even as I admit I was afraid to hold you too, as every time your Lion roared I ran away, until this last time when I simply followed you) I still knew I must honor the path I was given to take to get to my mission be that whatever it was.

Even when I surrendered to the roar of the Lion this time there was still a great journey to take.  It is all very sacred to me the way it happened, the way that we were dreaming together when I just happened to mention that your body parts did not seem to line up the way I thought and you told me it was because you had been born with the divine feminine living inside you..

Over these last months you have lifted the veil of your protection to reveal to me that you are a Two Spirit..  and for that honoring I have taken a journey into the world of the Two Spirits and have discovered the many flavors of the Two Spirit world.

There is a commonality that runs between you all, that this is a world that is filled with pain and hearts that hurt that long for understanding and acceptance, to not be taunted as freaks.

In my journey into this new world I have have been watching movies.  The theme of not being accepted runs through them all.  The theme of the path needing to be opened runs through them all.  The pain hidden, but felt runs through them all.

There are things I remember in my journey with you in this life, the suicide..  the longing for the pain to end..  I remember..

I remember seeing you torn to pieces, time and time again, remember laying witness to your gentle spirit getting up and never speaking ill of anyone who ripped your heart to shreds .  I remember you trying again and again to find a love that would not tear your heart apart…

And now, every day I pray that you will know the love that is inside my heart for you walks with you through out your day, and I pray that you will not be made to suffer as this world has been so horribly cruel to the people of the Two Spirits.  Every day I pray that your spirit can feel the love inside my heart for you even though we are on separate continents..

There was a dream I was given many years before we met.  In it I found myself on the dark side of the moon, in  an observatory.  We were in a classroom and the teacher (a Maya Indian) was in front of the classroom instructing us on how to teleport.  She was instructing us to push white light out our meridian points, and then she said that at the point where our bodies became engulfed in light we were to will ourselves to the location we desired and we would appear.  With this she pushed the white light out her meridian points and when her body became engulfed in the light she disappeared and then reappeared back behind me off my shoulder..

I have never forgotten this dream.  There were others in the classroom learning the same lesson.  I watch for them to appear in this human world so that we can use the strength of each other to achieve this…

 

In this long Winters sleep
March 7, 2016

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In this long Winters sleep

I have traveled along unfamiliar highways

finding new truths

and new ways of seeing.

I began by drawing pictures

of you as a man

but now I can see

you are fully woman.

I was drawing and drawing

then came to a pause

while you unfolded for me

the wonders of who you are

Your love engulfing me like a flame

Twin Flames

Dancing as women

heart to heart

I will never be the same

and the Artist in me will change.

It has been a Long Winters Sleeping

As I am being Transformed.

Galina Egorenkova

the New World ~lessons within a Two Spirit journey
March 6, 2016

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Sometimes life puts us on unexpected new and wondrous paths..  I know nothing of this world.. hardly, but what my Twin Flame shares with me in her unfolding…  I would not go out looking for a woman to love, but my Twin Flame, she feels so soft and lovely and looks so beautiful in her revealing. It is my honor to honor our journey.  Many lives we incarnate into, and many roles we have shared while working to open paths that have been closed…
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There are many paths that need to be opened again within the next great circle around the Central Sun..  When I told my son of my new journey he told me “Congratulations” on your life change, and told me I should watch the show “Transparent”
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After my Twin Flame began her revealing I dreamed that I woke up and standing at the foot of my bed was a Cheyenne Chief (I do not know what time period I was looking into) He had his ‘Troupe” with him and he stepped forward and said that they were looking for their Two Spirits who got lost during the Time of Chaos..
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This planted a seed in me (from my research too) that this was carried through the blood line..  and when I got to the end of the show Transparent, that is the same thing they were saying, that it runs through the blood line
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Dedicated to the Cheyenne Chief who showed up in my dream..  all of my love for opening this path

 

I have loved you for forever ~Egyptian Twin Flames dream
February 23, 2016

I dreamed you for years before we met in this life.

I knew our Sanctuary well

Traveled there so many times

that I wrote it in a book to you (91-93)

and called it The Prayer.

(even though I only met you in our current life in 2011)

In the beginning of the dream every time I came to the Sanctuary I would see myself standing at one end of a massive long stone building that stood not far from the River Nile.

Between us was a row of trees that we would have to travel through to get down to the river, where we would teach the children by speaking to them in verse.

Time passed and it came time for me to graduation.  The front of my hair was shaved off in preparation for my graduation, and inlaid into my forehead was a Golden Sun

More time passed, we continued to go down to the River to teach the Children

by speaking to them in sacred verse

We could hear their sweet laughter as they played all around us

splashing in the water

as we continued to speak by verse..

On the day of my graduation I was taken down the Long Hall

and found myself standing at a doorway

that led down into some lower rooms

which I entered into by the kitchen

which was a small and cozy room

reminded me of a french restaurant

with their table for 2 and an open bar on the end that had some bar stools

The kitchen opened up and led into the Music Room

and Wow, what  Music Room!

It had a Center Stage

for others to come play their music.

Looking through time

I could see bands,

yours and guests

getting up on the stage and playing their music

in a room that was acoustically sound

and perfectly balanced

so that every note could be experienced

as a song within itself.

Behind Center Stage

there was a massive Pipe Organ

where you would sit and play your music for me

Off to the other side

a stairway, with no railing

that led up to our bedroom

which appeared to be up above the music room.

Back in the kitchen, there were some sliding doors

that lead out onto a huge stone porch.

I knew this space to be mine because hanging

from the awning

was one of my rainbow catchers.

There were a few steps

That led down to a small private garden

next to a small creek.

When I first arrived here the garden was in disarray, so I knew I should occupy my time by planting some flowers there.  So I did.

Down closer to the creek, there lay a Sleeping Dragon.

For the outside observer

it would have looked like a bush

growing in the shape of a dragon

that was curled up and sleeping

But for me the Dragon was alive and watched over me as I worked in our Garden..

The Dragon would never really speak to me

sometimes, as I worked I would catch the Dragon

watching me.

One day I was trying to figure out if I should plant another bush in the Garden

you know, because I was a girl and her Dragon.

so I thought another bush could represent me

but my Dragon, she just grunted her disapproval

saying softly, “I do not like it there”

so I took the bush back out of our Garden.

Another time

after I had worked and worked

to create my masterpiece

of Flowers growing,

I was knelt down and

working the soil around

yet another flower

I was planting

when my Dragon

raised its head

and told me that it very much enjoyed

watching me make

my Garden grow..

. . . . . . . .

Enter 2016 We find me, a girl, born with her Moon in Leo, engaged in a never ending love story with her Twin Rainbow Flame who was born in the sign of Leo… In the year of the Dragon

and you Lakota, Leo, Born in the year of the Dragon

Whales alive

You sit in Music Room

and Play your Music

While I work in the Garden

planting flowers

watching you as you play your music.

There is something about Twin Flames

that speaks to us through time.

Time has no boundaries

in the Twin Flame journey

but intertwines

one over the other

and Dances.