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Sometimes Love is a Butterfly, lessons from a Two Spirit Journey
April 18, 2017

This Two Spirit love.. pictures from the journey

This is from last summer when she came home traumatized and said she had to leave, that what she once believed was no longer true and she had to go find herself.. and grow

I had responded with I will leave also, and thinking that I would go somewhere else I found myself in a sea of clover with a blue butterfly dancing at my feet. The Blue Butterfly showed a Y in the path and said, “you can go right and there will be food there, or left and there will be food there also”

So I left the path where I was going to leave her, changed my name to River Song and told her the Blue Butterfly was the path I would follow in a sing a long…

Two Spirits are amazing. She disappeared behind her masculine energy and her gentle feminine would not touch me from inside the place she had gone to heal…

She sent me pictures from inside the forest where she had gone to heal..  And I sent her pictures of the butterfly traveling along the River Song… There were mermaids in that river, and fairies and magical trees, and a dark forest where one could get lost endlessly..

Then I dreamed she was returning… though she still was holding herself so far from me…. so I rejoiced in the knowing and sang exuberantly… while she pretended not to notice I was dancing by myself waiting for her to step back out of the forest where she had gone to find herself…

That moment, when she came back and found me still sitting there waiting for her…. I believe it was the moment love was reborn in her heart…

Sometimes things happen in life that can tear us apart, leave us shattered and torn… and sometimes it takes a butterfly to heal that pain….

In the Womb of Creation, a Rainbow Twin Spirit Love song
April 3, 2017

Here is a love song I wrote.. to her.. to him.. to them..   to my Two Spirit Love recently… (not only is she my Two Spirit Love, she is also my Twin Spirit. That is what I heard in a dream this last January..)

In the womb of creation
we lie in in sacred dance
Our bodies yearning
and turning towards each other
with the knowing
in that moment
we had touched love
And that it was a divine energy
that would always flow between us

Oh we could come back
and be Twins again and again
or triplets with your divine
intertwining within me
But it is just so much fun
to come here and dance with you
outside the confines
of a bloodline twins
In this place where we
can be lovers true
and enjoy the pleasures
of Two Spirited you.
dancing with me
in eternal love..

while remembering
how beautiful it felt
when we danced in the
Womb of Creation
our bodies touching
in sacred bliss
knowing this was the first place
where we touched Love..
knowing that this is where
we experienced
our first kiss.

Love Destiny and Shining Star

In the place where we stand is the place where we should sing from

Two Spirit Love, divine unveiling
March 20, 2017

This human mind is a virgin to the Two Spirit world. In ways I cannot define I accepted the belief reality of this world, even while other parts of myself could see through the prejudice, the hate, the fear, I could see easily see there and know my calling was to choose the path that led to love.

A world beyond 2 sexes never crossed my mind to question it reality, and its legitimacy as reality.

Now here I am having completed one whole puzzle (why the spirit Indians began walking with me in the 4th grade) I have now been given a second one to put together. This beautiful puzzle who we call Two Spirit Love in her divine unfolding.

One of my observations in this great unfolding, especially in the last year is the fact that when she feels less than safe in her divine feminine, or when she feels she needs some special protection she will step behind the essence of her male energy and allow him to protect her while she tries to find a way to heal.

So I now understand that the reason I met my Two Spirit Love walking fully in her male energy was because her heart had been shattered and broken and at a loss to know what to do or how to carry on without the safety of her comfort zone she had slipped behind the veil into the safety zone of her male energy to allow him to protect her..

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Every day I allowed the honor of walking with her it becomes more and more clear what medicine Two Spirit people brought to our Tribes..  They teach us how to walk in balance within ourselves.  So often we think we are only one sex, or the other, and we do not see that we are both, all of us.  We all have the feminine nurturer and the masculine protector within all of us.  It is the medicine of the Two Spirit to remind us of how to find balance inside of ourselves.


Twin Flames update….
February 24, 2017

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This morning this beautiful knowledge lay like a gift at my feet, waiting for me to pick it up. It was a memory through time of Love and I’s journey since 2011.
 
It was the Earth who instructed me to make this journey towards her, way back when all I could see was him. The Earth asked (well screamed at me, “I need you to give ‘him’ your hair right now.” … As I surrendered and cut off my braid I knew nothing of the power of this medicine… I cut it right off the top, as close to the scalp as possible… Little did I know that this would bind me to the journey to find her.. The medicine of the hair, it does speak to you..
 
It is from here, that this mornings gift danced like a star fish at my feet calling me to investigate…
 
Dancing through our memories through time, I saw these moments when she would pull close, then in my unknowledge of who she was, she would see I could not see her and pull away.
 
Then I would keep going and keep singing like the Earth told me to and again, she would pull close, and still I could not see her and she would pull away..
 
And I would keep going, singing my magical song, writing our journey in a book I called, “My Life as a Fairy Tale” til again she could pull close.. and realizing I still could not see her, she would pull away.
 
Ever given this sacred song to sing, and my ability to write, translating our moments of speaking to each other into a story line she could not resist. Again she would pull close to stand right next to me and still I could not her so she would pull away.
 
the years flew by inside this sacred dance, the hair grew back and was replaced by a blue butterfly who began to dance around me and tell me when I should speak with ‘him’… Then again, she would draw so close, and realizing I still could not see her, she would pull away…
 
We carried on like this for such a long time. me with my blinders on, and her hidden from view..
 
All the while, the Earth had me on this journey of purification, facing various parts of myself that were no longer in line with the new me I was becoming…. until at last, one day I saw her and began my journey towards her..
 
And now she does not have to pull away..
 
and now I miss her, even when she goes to the store..

Eagle and Star Dancer, a love story that transcends time, art expressed
January 10, 2017

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The Dancing Bird Goddess picture was drawn in 1994. A bunch of artist had shown up and began strumming their instruments while others sat and drew. So I got out my pencil, found a beautiful picture of an Eagle and began to draw it.. Right when I got to the end I realized it was head dress, so I began adding the Dancing Bird Goddess. My Native American bloodline carries the line of vision, and the next thing I know I am seeing the words to a book, “And at the end of the story the Dancing Bird Goddess steps from the edge of the precipice and begins her leap of faith..

 

When my Two Spirit Twin Spirit Twin Flame showed up in my life in 2011, everything about it was this leap of faith.  We were talking when another girl decided, unbeknownst to me, that she would steal the moment from me.  All of sudden the Earth screamed at me that I was to cut off my braid and send it to this Two Spirit.  So I just did..

The medicine of hair is very very strong.   It bound my medicine to my Twin Spirit (who I did not recognize) and took us on a journey..  There is just a part of me that has need to entertain so I began writing my Twin Spirit a book called My Life as a Fairy Tale, in which I took all the happenings of our journey and converted them into a Fairy Tale..

The clouds in the background of the picture is from a picture I took November 6, 2011.  I had come out of Walmart’s and was walking across the parking lot when something called me to look up and 2 Eagles, in the most glorious dance racing to rise above and approaching storm…

In 2016, I had followed my Twin Spirit for long enough and had been so faithful to the medicine of the hair that we began to dream together, even though we had been dreaming together all along, the birth canal, and intense pain can take away a lot of memories.  And it was inside our dreams where my Twin Spirit began to make the Two Spirit reveal..

There had been a vision I had been given in 2004.  It had to do with a Ceremony the Earth was asking me to perform called, The Remnants of Past Wound Healing Ceremony.  At a certain point in the Ceremony (that last 3 months long) I was told to drive an additional 250 miles to lay my heart upon the Earth at the foot of a Mountain.

When I asked why, I was given a vision of laying before a fire in fetal position,  Before me Grandfather of the Wolf Clan began to dance and chant..  Behind him came the Eagle Dancer and behind the Eagle Dancer came the Star Dancer.  She was incredible tall, with very think long legs..  She was dressed in white, and everywhere she danced a train of stardust followed her…

When my Twin Spirit was making her reveal, she kept sending me pictures of who she feels inside her…

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All inside the dance of love with a Two Spirit
October 31, 2016

All inside the dance of Love with a Two Spirit.. I find myself reflecting now of another place in which the vision was revealed that she would be a Two Spirit…

Just before I met her in this life, when I thought she was a he.. I had been driving down the road when a portal opened and I saw a Rainbow Flame,.. I went WOW, and then a second portal opened and another Rainbow Flame appeared.. on the eve of Thanksgiving..

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(picture is from a book I wrote to Lakota when I thought she was a male.. it was called My Life as a Fairy Tale… and was the story of how she had been delivered by a Cougar to the Aisle of the Twin Flames and was sitting at the well when a guy sat down beside her, on the other side. He was weeping inside his spirit over the course his life had run, and calling out in search of her to come,

his one true love..

(Her one True love…)

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Honoring the Star Dancer.. journey with my Cheyenne Two Spirit love
October 31, 2016

I don’t know that I will find time to complete this, but I have to make my honoring by attempting to draw it out… and it also seems to fall in line with the dream of the green sun with its 3 moons… It is the continuation from a story that began in 2004 with my Twin Flame.. It was a vision that lasted 6 weeks or so and involved me seeing a Eagle Dancer and a Star Dancer (in 2004) Following behind Grandfather of the Wolf Clan who apparently it was important that the Dragon show up for this particular picture I tried to draw this weekend..

I don’t have time write it out but as I look at this picture it appears to be a continuation from the dream of the green sun with the 3 moons.. As the story of my life goes I was walking along, from the time I was 12 thinking that my love was with a man… and discovering that my one true love is a Two Spirit took me to a new dimension of thinking… a New World has opened up before me…. and all my drawing should begin to reflect this new world…

 

I have a lot on my mind right now, with looking the ethers to peer down upon Standing Rock and the Sioux Nation… Calling out to the Star people, “This is what is needed” but I wanted to make certain I took a moment to attempt to draw this honoring song for my Love, she is the Star Dancer from my 2004 vision… My heart holds her close again… She has returned from her journey…

 

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This vision is much longer than I imagine.  As I look down this portal through time I remember when the story of the Eagle dancer was given to me in a vision in 1994.  A bunch of Artist had showed up at my house and were sitting around drawing..  so I had joined them and was sitting drawing a picture of an Eagle when suddenly I realized that I had drawn a head dress.. and as I was drawing her face within the head dress I saw the words, “And at the end of the Story the Dancing Bird Goddess makes her leap  of faith from the Edge of the Precipice and is transformed into an Eagle….

My story with my Rainbow Twin Flame Two Spirit is a love story that began before she appeared..

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Making the transition to see who people are on the inside ~Two Spirit Twin Flame journey
October 30, 2016

In my Twin Flame journey I believe I have arrived at the place where I have undergone the transition so I can see who people are on the inside.

Having never been attracted to females and then falling in love with the girl on the inside has been my journey this year.  It is my Spirit Bear who has guided this journey, instructing me to look back into my dreams with this new information and I would see Lakota was always there inside my dreams..

I recently had a dream that this girl walked past me as I was singing, “She keeps me warm” by Mary Lambert.  The girl stops and demands to know why I am singing that song.  Then she rattles off a bunch of singers names which baffle me as I only really listen to Native American Music.  With this she turns on her heels and stomps off saying, “You don’t belong here.  You are definitely not one of us.”  To which I respond, “No but my girlfriend is.”

In this year of re-examination of my dreams, (of which there are several) one of the dreams that foretold a transition that would take place within me had to do with a dream from the early 2000’s in which in my dream I was walking with Lakota, only seeing the male energy, when suddenly Lakota does this 2 steps back and off to the side zig zag motion  and disappears into another dimension…  so of course I follow what I believe is the man of my dreams into this other dimension, but upon arriving I cannot see ‘him’ and simply awaken..

metamorhis-1There was another dream in which I came to a river and a stone appeared so I leapt onto it… then another and another until I found myself in the middle of the River standing on the edge of a great beam.  Lakota was there too, not recognizing me, not noticing me.  We were both being required to make a leap of faith, when Lakota simply stepped back off the ledge and disappeared into the water..  so there again I followed suite and we swam down to the bottom of the River where we found a building and went inside.

My perception of the male Lakota disappeared into a back room but I was completely fascinated bymetamorphis the furniture in the room, a chaise lounge stood back by the door..  it had really pretty feet.  And there was a computer desk there that had the same feet..  As I was standing there  memorizing the furniture Lakota came back into the room.

Then the Earth began to shake so fiercely that the furniture picked up its feet and ran away..

metamorhis-2Outside the picture window there appeared a girl.  She was struggling hard as she swam back and forth until the pressure imploded the picture window.  Standing in the room now was a beam of light.  She immediately swam to it, dived into it, and metamorphosed into a light being.

Lakota followed her, diving into the light beam and metamorphosed into a light being..  And I thinking this was also what I was being called to do stepped into the light beam and meta-morphed into a light being..

This is not the only dream, but one of many.  Recently I was at the used store and to my amazement, I came across the Chaise Lounge from my dream.. calling me to remember this dream…  calling me to look with different eyes into where I am at in my journey with my Two Spirit Love…

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Love with a Two Spirit
October 19, 2016

Love with a Two Spirit
Her love make me feel like the Earth… and her love makes me feel crazy all at once.
I have found myself feeling the highest high and the lowest low with her and then she comes back and I realize we are standing in the ebb and flow of high tide and low tide… And I think one of these days I will no longer freak out when she leaves and will spread my legs in joyous anticipation when she returns to my naked land to again feel her naked waters running over me again in Heavenly Perceptions..
My love (who is a Cheyenne Two Spirit) has returned to me again. It can be a hard cold bitter world being a Two Spirit, with every thing that must be faced. while the newer generation has worked hard to reopen the path, for the older ones there is much pain to heal.
We were journeying together when she went back to a place that she had traveled to many times. when she came back she did not tell me what happened, she just place me some songs from hell and told me that she had to leave right then and there.
I was hurt and going to leave also, but a butterfly blue showed up and talk to me and told me to follow my Two Spirit.. So I did, even though, in my heart, I felt again as though I had lost hope, for she, my soft on soft had disappeared into her male energy. So I changed my name to River Song and followed them on their journey of silence and words unspoken.
Eventually I moved and began a new journey into the life of carbon monoxide poisoning (though I did not know that was happening until I became really ill) I didn’t know what was wrong but my River Song to her, as I waited for her, began to stop flowing.. and my status magically changed to Sleeping, and I began to sing songs of longing for her to come back.. and entertained her with many Leo pictures.. which began to fall off with the carbon monoxide poisoning when I could no longer hold my focus..
Somewhere inside the dream of this sleep I saw the first movement of her energy changing. she sent me a picture that had some words that said, “When you find someone who makes you feel magical every time they touch you, you should cherish them.”
She did not just suddenly reappear with those words, but they were like the moment she let me know I made her feel magical.. Of course after that I began fading because I was becoming more deeply affected by the carbon monoxide poisoning. It was all I could do to hold my jobs #1 holding prayer for the Lakota Nation, and #2 holding the job that supports me financially. Beyond that I could not hold my focus. And it was not until after I figure out what was making my brain to swell so big that I could not get my neutrons to fire properly that I was able to find my way back to again feeling like a River Song singing to her…
she has this way about her. She does not speak with spoken words to say what is going on but instead she sends pictures to speak for her. she sent me a picture representing her and in her hand was a bubble. In the bubble was I. In another of the group a woman had gone into the forest… and in another a woman sitting at the edge of the forest, waiting… so in her way she told me that she saw me sitting there the whole time waiting for her to find herself and return and that I had traveled with her as she made her journey..
Then in the moments just before her return to me I found myself in the memory of a vision I was given in 2004… when I was 13 (in 1969) I got molested by a family member. In that moment my innocence was stolen and in years ahead I had to take a journey to have a seed from the Tree of Forgiveness be emplanted into my heart for I simply could not forgive the man who did that to me.
In time he had grown old, but he seemed to be afraid to pass from this world and regressed back to his childhood..
In the meantime I was a girl of vision, trying to follow the visions, trying to follow the instructions I was given. til at last I arrived at the age of 48 to have my dad call one day and say the relative had been found in a coma lying on the floor…
In that moment I went into vision. I began walking through 3 dimensions all at once.. Now is not the time to write that story out for the vision lasted about 6 weeks and had many details, one of which involved a Ceremony for Healing the last remnants of Past Wounds. I was to take to the man who molested me in my youth the bridge he needed to cross to pass from this world to the next, then I was to travel to the place of my molestation and travel back through time to whisper to my younger self to find my focus in the flower so I could walk away, as I was frozen with what was happeneing,and after that the instructions were that I was to travel to a Sacred Mountain called Manataka and lay my heart upon my Mother.
I was very questioning of why I should do this, (go to Manataka) so I was praying for an answer when a portal opened up and I saw my 13 year old self curled up in fetal position.
In front of me I could see Grandfather of the Wolf Clan. His regalia was the skin of a Wolf, that covered his body with the wolfs head coming over the top of his head. In his hand he held his staff of power which he brought down to the Earth with a power so loud it shook the Earth and sounded like Thunder.
With this, even as he circled me clockwise, he swung his staff and danced counterclockwise as if to say, “Moving forward we will now heal your wounds from the past..
Behind Grandfather of the Wolf Clan came the Eagle Dancer.. and behind the Eagle Dance came the Star Dancer. She was the tallest woman I have seen, very very thin, with long long legs and behind her a trail of Stardust that was the Train of her sparkling white dress. Her hair was braided up in such a way that it had the appearance of a Constellation surrounding her head..
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seeing-the-star-dancerIt was in one of the pictures that Lakota sent me that I saw her, the Star Dancer with the long long legs (Lakota is 6’2″ and I am 5’3) and realized the immensity of this journey we are taking.
It is easy to get swept away in feelings of heart break and sadness. Easy to allow ourselves to leave and not continue down the path of the Twins who came to heal a planet and escort it to the 5th dimension.
In love with a Two Spirit I have found myself traveling to the highest highs and the lowest lows.. We try to run away from each other, but I am bound by my contract with the Earth by which if I follow the path she tells me to take I will feel the least amount of pain or discomfort and will achieve the reason for which I was sent, so when she sends her butterfly to guide down the path with my Two Spirit, I am bound by a leap of faith that where she is leading me to is the place where I am being sent.
The life of the Two Spirits, at this time, is mostly torture for their spirits have been torn to shreds and to walk with dignity many times means traveling against the grain of who they are, and trying to find comfort in others who are like them… but they too have been torn to shreds.. so it can be a bit vicious just trying to find some peace in this world..
 
Somewhere in this last journey of being separated from her I came into the knowledge that, no matter how sexually attracted I am to her soft on soft skin on skin I have to give birth to her and I being friends.
 
It may seem that this should have been the logical conclusion all along but there are parts within me that the Earth continues to purify. I have a possessive nature about me, and while some couples hold the same value, Two Spirits think different then non Two Spirits. So anytime my possessive nature has come up she will simply say, “My body is mine to show who I chose to show.”
 
So inside myself I am giving birth to a higher love. Friendship is being required of me even as she has now returned to stand so close I can feel her soft on soft.. whispering
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love, Destiny

Magical Blessings ~life in love with a Cheyenne Two Spirit
September 10, 2016

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Love holds me tight and calls me to surrender

In her arms I am surrounded

by worlds that I cannot yet conceive exist

yet still she holds me safe

in a way so sacred

I can do nothing but surrender

to flying to where the wind leads

and live to grow another day..

by Destiny ♥