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All inside the dance of love with a Two Spirit
October 31, 2016

All inside the dance of Love with a Two Spirit.. I find myself reflecting now of another place in which the vision was revealed that she would be a Two Spirit…

Just before I met her in this life, when I thought she was a he.. I had been driving down the road when a portal opened and I saw a Rainbow Flame,.. I went WOW, and then a second portal opened and another Rainbow Flame appeared.. on the eve of Thanksgiving..

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(picture is from a book I wrote to Lakota when I thought she was a male.. it was called My Life as a Fairy Tale… and was the story of how she had been delivered by a Cougar to the Aisle of the Twin Flames and was sitting at the well when a guy sat down beside her, on the other side. He was weeping inside his spirit over the course his life had run, and calling out in search of her to come,

his one true love..

(Her one True love…)

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Living within a spiral world, loving a Two Spirit
June 7, 2016

I will tell you something that ringing its song inside my heart right now..  Life is a circle, a spiral really..  visions from the age of 12, when I come to understand why I discover it is a circle.. and a spiral all at once for now I am 60 years old and the world has spun itself into a new world for me.

I always wondered why I was given 2 visions when I was 12 years old.  In one, my mother from 13 generations ago came to instruct me on how to walk through a world that was solid.  She said in all ways I was to merge with the Earth.  From there I spread my wings and stretching out across the land, through time, I became a warrior opening up the path for the Indigenous Peoples of the Earth for they are the Keepers of the Planets that support Life.  So I sang my songs and made my prayers and watched through Time as the People again began to rise.

In the second vision I was taken to my Home world and saw that my mission to the Earth had been accepted by the Elder Council.  Then my husband sweeps in like Sun standing over me holding me as a planet while I dance around him.  He is saying that his mission too to Earth has been accepted and is showing me where our paths will join in mission…  then the door closed…  and it felt like I was forever in search of why I was given the second vision.

Inside my dreams there was always someone walking with me, sometimes I could see it was a man, sometimes it would be a girl and she would be telling me where we were going and what it would look like.. and feel like.  In my dreams I fought against loving her.  My earthly body had been programmed to believe that as a girl my destiny could only be matched with a boy..

and yet now here stand I, dancing sacred around my Sun.. my love ..  Two Spirits .. discovering that in the completion of the circle, which in reality is a spiral, I have come to a second mission..

To sing my song, my creation song, to sing a new world into being, within the Heavenly Host of Singers who have come to sing the new world into being.  I must walk into the new world to open the open the path..

and now I can see why the Ancients changed my name to Destiny

once I had come into the time of the Second Mission..

the mission of singing into being

a world that embraces

Two Spirits

who walk as One.

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We are writing a new world into being, opening the path for the Two Spirits
June 7, 2016

That describes it so pretty…

the soft soft…

I have dreamed this before, the soft soft… In my mergings with the Earth, there are places all over where the soft soft coexist together..

It is a beautiful new world we are creating.. On the inside looking out.

We have come to the next circle around the Central Sun..

we are singing a new world into being..

and opening paths that were always sacred and holy…

A path of 5 genders (or at least that is how far I have discovered inside my research)…

not just 2, but opening the path of all the genders…

The soft soft is tenderly written upon the Earth.. a gentle rain falling down upon peaked mountains is the soft soft kiss of sweet bliss..

To my Cheyenne Two Spirit
May 2, 2016

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I think of you all the time.  This Winters past the Great Spirit Bear who guides me explained to me how all my life after I set out from our Home World you came to me every night and walked with me through my dream time and as I journey through my dreamworld and look within my dreams there is always the presence of you even to the point of me seeing you as a male and seeing you as a female opening the path to our love story on this planet today, you were there guiding my steps to awaken our mission of Oneness in this life before we arrived at it.

When I was 12 I was instructed from an Indian within me to merge with the Earth in all ways..  so I did.. (It was also the first time I saw you in vision)  In 2007 I had a merging with a River who once upon a time rang strong underneath its lover a Mountain.  When the River Ouachita merged with me it touched the place where I was lonely and called up in me to sing a song I called, “Are you Lonely, yes I am”

In 2011, when we first touched in this physical life I shared that poem and it made you weep.  Back then I did not remember why the Earth was calling me to journey with you by bidding me to cut off my braid and offer my medicine to you.  I did not remember why she showed me a picture of us in the heavens, Star People holding hands.  All I knew was this was the journey I was given to walk and so I had to honor it, no matter how long the path was or how long it took you to want to hold my hand in the heavens (even as I admit I was afraid to hold you too, as every time your Lion roared I ran away, until this last time when I simply followed you) I still knew I must honor the path I was given to take to get to my mission be that whatever it was.

Even when I surrendered to the roar of the Lion this time there was still a great journey to take.  It is all very sacred to me the way it happened, the way that we were dreaming together when I just happened to mention that your body parts did not seem to line up the way I thought and you told me it was because you had been born with the divine feminine living inside you..

Over these last months you have lifted the veil of your protection to reveal to me that you are a Two Spirit..  and for that honoring I have taken a journey into the world of the Two Spirits and have discovered the many flavors of the Two Spirit world.

There is a commonality that runs between you all, that this is a world that is filled with pain and hearts that hurt that long for understanding and acceptance, to not be taunted as freaks.

In my journey into this new world I have have been watching movies.  The theme of not being accepted runs through them all.  The theme of the path needing to be opened runs through them all.  The pain hidden, but felt runs through them all.

There are things I remember in my journey with you in this life, the suicide..  the longing for the pain to end..  I remember..

I remember seeing you torn to pieces, time and time again, remember laying witness to your gentle spirit getting up and never speaking ill of anyone who ripped your heart to shreds .  I remember you trying again and again to find a love that would not tear your heart apart…

And now, every day I pray that you will know the love that is inside my heart for you walks with you through out your day, and I pray that you will not be made to suffer as this world has been so horribly cruel to the people of the Two Spirits.  Every day I pray that your spirit can feel the love inside my heart for you even though we are on separate continents..

There was a dream I was given many years before we met.  In it I found myself on the dark side of the moon, in  an observatory.  We were in a classroom and the teacher (a Maya Indian) was in front of the classroom instructing us on how to teleport.  She was instructing us to push white light out our meridian points, and then she said that at the point where our bodies became engulfed in light we were to will ourselves to the location we desired and we would appear.  With this she pushed the white light out her meridian points and when her body became engulfed in the light she disappeared and then reappeared back behind me off my shoulder..

I have never forgotten this dream.  There were others in the classroom learning the same lesson.  I watch for them to appear in this human world so that we can use the strength of each other to achieve this…

 

Two Spirits, One Dance (you tube)
March 20, 2016

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“Two-spirit” is how some Native Americans describe people whose gender identity doesn’t fit as strictly male or female. Meet Ty DeFoe, who’s using traditional dance to take this gender identity back from the negative connotations established during colonization.

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(I am learning a new way to express myself with my Two Spirit Twin Flame..  

“Transcending gender”)

Inside my dreams

does she walk with me

sometimes

as man

sometimes

as woman

I have loved you for forever ~Egyptian Twin Flames dream
February 23, 2016

I dreamed you for years before we met in this life.

I knew our Sanctuary well

Traveled there so many times

that I wrote it in a book to you (91-93)

and called it The Prayer.

(even though I only met you in our current life in 2011)

In the beginning of the dream every time I came to the Sanctuary I would see myself standing at one end of a massive long stone building that stood not far from the River Nile.

Between us was a row of trees that we would have to travel through to get down to the river, where we would teach the children by speaking to them in verse.

Time passed and it came time for me to graduation.  The front of my hair was shaved off in preparation for my graduation, and inlaid into my forehead was a Golden Sun

More time passed, we continued to go down to the River to teach the Children

by speaking to them in sacred verse

We could hear their sweet laughter as they played all around us

splashing in the water

as we continued to speak by verse..

On the day of my graduation I was taken down the Long Hall

and found myself standing at a doorway

that led down into some lower rooms

which I entered into by the kitchen

which was a small and cozy room

reminded me of a french restaurant

with their table for 2 and an open bar on the end that had some bar stools

The kitchen opened up and led into the Music Room

and Wow, what  Music Room!

It had a Center Stage

for others to come play their music.

Looking through time

I could see bands,

yours and guests

getting up on the stage and playing their music

in a room that was acoustically sound

and perfectly balanced

so that every note could be experienced

as a song within itself.

Behind Center Stage

there was a massive Pipe Organ

where you would sit and play your music for me

Off to the other side

a stairway, with no railing

that led up to our bedroom

which appeared to be up above the music room.

Back in the kitchen, there were some sliding doors

that lead out onto a huge stone porch.

I knew this space to be mine because hanging

from the awning

was one of my rainbow catchers.

There were a few steps

That led down to a small private garden

next to a small creek.

When I first arrived here the garden was in disarray, so I knew I should occupy my time by planting some flowers there.  So I did.

Down closer to the creek, there lay a Sleeping Dragon.

For the outside observer

it would have looked like a bush

growing in the shape of a dragon

that was curled up and sleeping

But for me the Dragon was alive and watched over me as I worked in our Garden..

The Dragon would never really speak to me

sometimes, as I worked I would catch the Dragon

watching me.

One day I was trying to figure out if I should plant another bush in the Garden

you know, because I was a girl and her Dragon.

so I thought another bush could represent me

but my Dragon, she just grunted her disapproval

saying softly, “I do not like it there”

so I took the bush back out of our Garden.

Another time

after I had worked and worked

to create my masterpiece

of Flowers growing,

I was knelt down and

working the soil around

yet another flower

I was planting

when my Dragon

raised its head

and told me that it very much enjoyed

watching me make

my Garden grow..

. . . . . . . .

Enter 2016 We find me, a girl, born with her Moon in Leo, engaged in a never ending love story with her Twin Rainbow Flame who was born in the sign of Leo… In the year of the Dragon

and you Lakota, Leo, Born in the year of the Dragon

Whales alive

You sit in Music Room

and Play your Music

While I work in the Garden

planting flowers

watching you as you play your music.

There is something about Twin Flames

that speaks to us through time.

Time has no boundaries

in the Twin Flame journey

but intertwines

one over the other

and Dances.

Twin Flame: before I knew you I dreamed you
January 18, 2016

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In my dream this winter, Sacred Bear said to revisit my writings of old, that you would be all over them..  so I pulled out the box, and this is the first one it opened up to…

Nov 15, 2000

 Dreamed I had to travel 3 days to get some place.  When I get there it was like a huge building.  The room we were in was large and comfortable.  There were at least 20 people in our room. 

I was sitting there watching the people leave.  They would go out the door and up some stairs to a shower.  As I was watching I saw Madonna taking a shower.  After she finished I was trying to figure out where she went when someone said, “You look like her.  Here put on this Madonna wig.”

They put it on me and as soon as they put it on my a dark skinned man with long hair appeared.  A piece of hair hung down over my eyes.  I had this funky hat on also.  As the man stood there smiling at me I reached up to move the hair out of my eyes.  From then on it seem as though we had connected.

Indian Spirit Man, are you going to fall in love with my Madonna, with the part of me that is wild and free and daring?

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Mermaid Angel by Josephine Wall

 

((((( PS..  as I was looking though my paperwork I found my astrological reading from back then…  Here stand I..  Taurus.. Sun in Taurus…  Moon in Leo… how perfect is that?))))

a goddess and her lion

 

10 ~ Twin Flames, a love story ~Mermaid Tales
November 1, 2015

I am on vacation this week and have to play catch up.  I have to go back and draw the ones I missed so that I can capture all the beauty.  In the beginning of this book there were 3 in which you were holding me and we were spiraling..  They were really beautiful and then we got to this one in which we come splashing up out of the water..  you holding me like this, and I holding you..

When I drew this picture today I was struck how this looks like the second time a picture has come out looking like a mermaid…  It took me right back…  Remember when I wrote you the book “My life as a Fairy Tale”

I had written one of the times I left you as a girl who got on her ship and sailed away in the great deep (the sky)  Then you would reappear so I would paint you as the Great Lion who graced as I passed through his skies..  On and on I journeyed sometimes towards you, sometimes away..  and there was this one time when I had the eye of the Great Lion in my sky when a storm began to brew.  The sky drew dark around me and the waves began to slosh and grow hard as they pounded my ship..  So in the book, I stood on the edge of the ship and took a dive into raging storm.  and just as I hit the water I transformed into a mermaid, swam down below the storm and swam over to mermaid island to visit my sister for while..

And then, in the book, when it came to the place where were going to speak to each other again, I left the island life and returned to my ship where the Eye of the Great Lion stood on my deck and watched me transform back into a girl with 2 legs as I got back on my ship…

This picture I drew today is really the 5th picture in my book of love for you…  the first 3 were you holding me as were spiraling.. the 4th was the one  in the water with the stepping stones.. and this was the 5th in which you were holding me and we emerged from the water…

Looking at this picture it looks like you went and got the mermaid and brought with us into our new world.. our new story…

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Day 8 …. The Talking Trees
October 31, 2015

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I was working on yesterdays picture when I got your message .. the Talking Trees  so with great love I added it to the book of love I am writing for you…  the third book I have written you, how sacred this journey…

I have at least 5 pictures I have not transmitted yet that I need to get done…  3 of them are of the spiral….

Today when you picked me up to take me on an astral journey, it is like I can feel you from a distance as you move towards me..  I can feel you when you are coming closer and then I saw you come up from behind as I was standing ready to merge into you.   You just wrapped your arms around me and we shot straight up into the spiral…  The spiral is divine and feels so heavenly.

The pictures I have seen from our astral journeys are so beautiful…  I will draw them for you and put them in a book.  I will sing to you of our love story…  the love of trees feels really beautiful and the place where we touch and intertwine, it is the place of sacred dance between us.  Our love is One even as we are 2 humans walking on the planet Earth..  I am here in this place.. and you are there in that place.. separate journeys winding and intertwining, touching in ecstasy..

I was thinking about the fact that we are both Indians, you Cheyenne.. and I Cherokee.. Blackfoot.. Mohawk.. and 3 other missing Tribes (one of which I believe is Lakota through Whitefeather from 13 generations ago when he asked me to leave our people and marry a Mohawk warrior so that I could incarnate into this blood line 13 generations later as the Warrior Seer)

It is the Indian Nations who have my heart and my sweet Lakota love..   The Kundalini got lost amongst our people in the time of the great suppression when we were not allowed to share.  The Earth tells me that this is her experience, this spinning in my tummy.  She tells me that this is what needs to happen to lift her (and him) into a  higher vibration back up to the path where the magical things happened

Now here we are and the Earth is ready to ascend back up into a higher vibration, 2 Indians you and I, doing what is requested of us to help lift her.. and him into a new world..

 

(I am working on my Destiny signature…  )

 

pg 6 `TRANSCENDENCE a Kundalini Twin Flame love story
October 29, 2015

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Today it occurred to me, your coming and picking me up, taking me out to the astral world..  us traveling together when we are not touching in the physical world … this place where we are now inside the great peace with each other ..  We have arrived at our Transcendence.

This is our dance of Transcending.

It took me back to a dream that we shared in the spring of 2012.  This is not the first time this has happened to me, where I arrive in the future and receive instructions that I am to travel back in time and perform an act of love for my younger self…

In the dream that you and I shared you were in the store shopping when you found a body part, a woman’s hand that had been cut off and on her finger an engagement ring..  and were distressed over it and went to find out who the hand with the engagement ring belonged to.

And I had dreamed that I was in the store when I had received a call to come quickly to a prayer circle for someone who had become quite distraught.  When I got there, there were 2 other couples in the room and one by one they were praying for the girl who was in the center of their circle rolled up in a ball with her mind gone far away.

After the first man prayed the woman next to him began to pray for her, pouring her love out and into the girl at the center of their circle.  When she finished, the prayer was passed to a man beside her..

And as I watched them, my mind knew that it would come to my turn to pray for the woman who was distraught.  but I  did’t know how I was going to do it, because I didn’t know what was wrong and how could I pray for what was wrong when I didn’t know what it was..

As I was standing there I found myself staring at an antique looking Wardrobe.  It was like one of those things you touch and you know you remember it, and it was just standing there looking at me like an old tree that is a friend..   that you must touch..

and just as I reached over to open its door, the final prayer finished.  It was my turn to pray and I was now standing tgif leave an impressionin front of the Wardrobe with the door open..  There was a song inside, and the song just came inside of me and I began to sing it.  It was in a foreign language so I did not even know what I was praying.  It sounded like a Gregorian Chant, which I sang all the way to the end of my prayer.  Then the door closed and I awoke..

It was right after that, that you had to leave and take the path you had to take..  and I had to travel the path I had to travel, which was a Kundalini path in which this huge bubble of blocked energy pushed its way out the lotus flower of my heart chakra…It was the purification of my heart chakra that gave me new sight.. So I walked on down the road to a new path that I stayed on until a few months ago when a leaf told me to leave leavethe path I was on..  3 times did I hear the command to leave and made the choice to leave the path I was on… while the butterfly blue danced at my feet..  Then you reappeared as soon as I left that path..

Now that our world is a new world I look back on that dream and realize that I (we) was praying for another version of myself..  and there were 2 more versions of us in the room..  from our journey ahead..

Today when you picked me up you took me to the grace of the great wind, I heard all of this story again and was given the knowledge that we have now arrived at our Transcendence.. and I think that there are 2 more of us up ahead on our path ..  that we are going to evolve 2 more times..

The other thought that occurred to me today when I was inside the grace of the great wind was our Kundalini, and the sharing of our Kundalini with each other.  It is like we are being taken, there in our dance of Transcending we are leaving behind one world and ascending to another one.  We dance, so it is our Transcendance.

Then the Grace of the Great Wind took me to the place of remembrance.. remembering when we were One, at peace and in bliss together we walked.. but without the ecstasy of the Kundalini dance surging between us..

Where we are at now in our astral journey, we are on our way back to the place where we merge back into One, and when we arrive we will remember what this Kundalini between us feels like.  It feels like we are plugged back into each other, and that too is a part of our Transcendence.

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