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Twin Flame Unions
May 23, 2018

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I am a 5th Dimensional dweller, keeper of the birth of a new way of thinking, new ways of perceiving, opening new paths I look out with new eyes.. and accept new concepts into my world view..

Long has this journey been (in my current life with this back having gotten injured in 1984, with the white dr saying “We will have to put you on pain pills for the rest of your life” … while I refused to surrender to that reality ..

Most of what I share it is inside me, through vision and dream I move forward and grow, but the time has come for me to look to others who understand more about where I have arrived (5th dimension) and then form my concepts from what I see as I explore concepts I have not focused on before.

The place where I have found myself deal with a world in which there are 12 different realities I am living in all at once, and the fact that reason I have not found true healing for my aches and pains has to do with the fact that the original injury took place in another me living on a separate time line.

Anyway I am willing to look in this direction for healing.. so there is a class, in Espavo, the Group that is designed to open the path to the other dimensions of me. Normally would not take these classes because they are expensive, but as I get older and find this human body feeling like it is in a rapid descendsion of decay, like my parts are breaking, I have decided that I am willing to pay this price (200.00) for these seed activation’s to open the path to so that I can look for healing in this direction…

So this morning I woke up inside my dream and I and my Twin Flame (who lives on a separate continent) were walking together down a path. Between us was the portal and I could see that within the portal we we were holding hands as we walked.

Then the Ancients who guide my path opened up an image within my mind of a poem I wrote to my Twin Flame in 2003 about how in the places where I am weaker they are strong and in the places where they are weak I am stronger, so that together we were stronger than we were when we were not together.

then the Ancients said that in taking this class that the healing would travel to both of us, not just me, but to both of us…  We both would benefit from my exploration into this new concept…

and with this I have realized that even though my Two Spirit love and I live on separate continents, and are currently making a silent passage through time, only touching in dreams and small moments of time in space between that it is possible to achieve  Twin Flame Union even when living on separate continents…  even if our missions placed us on separate planets we would still be able to achieve Twin Flame Union..  In our dreamtime we are always together…. always connected…

Mermaid Island, a spiritual retreat,
June 6, 2017


I have gone to Mermaid Island on a spiritual journey, spiritual retreat… It is the place where I lived in our passage through Lemuria.. I will be searching through time for my memories from that life…

Once we set our mind on something, it will cause the path to open before us..

and thus through my dreams and ‘seeings’ I will be be able to access memories from there…

I found myself in a dream from there this morning, but I was not able to bring it out with me…

but the thought is crossing my mind, as I swan down the corridor that we lived in the caves.. that was as much of the dream as I was able to bring out

I have a feeling the Hawk.. and the Blue Butterfly will both have appearances on this journey…. along with the water dragon with golden light in its hair…

Journey to Mermaid Island ~A Two Spirit Journey
June 4, 2017

by Destiny
Life happens… changes happen .. it is very important that we honor the changes..
the painting of this picture was a journey of discovery that all began with a mistake.. this was a mermaid lesson on line that I was painting and after getting the sun, sky and dragon stone painted I drew in the rainbow haired mermaid.. Then I noticed it was all blank to the right of her and thought, ‘well I will just add a second mermaid. Got her all outlined and I still had a 1/4th of the canvas to fill… so I thought I will put a flower in the second mermaids hair and have the limbs of a tree coming down to fill the rest of the space…
As this happened a book begin to form in my mind and the pictures I could paint in this book so I began to have a look see at the symbols the Earth was giving presently around me and saw the Honey Suckle in the Tree who came to visit me and share her message with me…..
So then I knew that in the next picture the water dragon will appear with me.. and with my love, an amazing Star Fish in her hand that she is showing me…
In the course of painting this picture I did some research to look at various mermaid head dresses and discovered that there are a multitude of Two Spirit who are Mermaids… (and they need to be part of this honoring song also)
and then today I did some research to see what a group of mermaids is called… I found, to my amazement a passage that one in 3 mermaids is infertile and will spend her life running with her sister.. or friend… or lover such as I and my Two Spirit Love who happens to be my Twin Spirit (according to the Eagles in my dream) making us born in the Womb of Creation together as Twins…
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Sometimes Love is a Butterfly, lessons from a Two Spirit Journey
April 18, 2017

This Two Spirit love.. pictures from the journey

This is from last summer when she came home traumatized and said she had to leave, that what she once believed was no longer true and she had to go find herself.. and grow

I had responded with I will leave also, and thinking that I would go somewhere else I found myself in a sea of clover with a blue butterfly dancing at my feet. The Blue Butterfly showed a Y in the path and said, “you can go right and there will be food there, or left and there will be food there also”

So I left the path where I was going to leave her, changed my name to River Song and told her the Blue Butterfly was the path I would follow in a sing a long…

Two Spirits are amazing. She disappeared behind her masculine energy and her gentle feminine would not touch me from inside the place she had gone to heal…

She sent me pictures from inside the forest where she had gone to heal..  And I sent her pictures of the butterfly traveling along the River Song… There were mermaids in that river, and fairies and magical trees, and a dark forest where one could get lost endlessly..

Then I dreamed she was returning… though she still was holding herself so far from me…. so I rejoiced in the knowing and sang exuberantly… while she pretended not to notice I was dancing by myself waiting for her to step back out of the forest where she had gone to find herself…

That moment, when she came back and found me still sitting there waiting for her…. I believe it was the moment love was reborn in her heart…

Sometimes things happen in life that can tear us apart, leave us shattered and torn… and sometimes it takes a butterfly to heal that pain….

Eagle and Star Dancer, a love story that transcends time, art expressed
January 10, 2017


The Dancing Bird Goddess picture was drawn in 1994. A bunch of artist had shown up and began strumming their instruments while others sat and drew. So I got out my pencil, found a beautiful picture of an Eagle and began to draw it.. Right when I got to the end I realized it was head dress, so I began adding the Dancing Bird Goddess. My Native American bloodline carries the line of vision, and the next thing I know I am seeing the words to a book, “And at the end of the story the Dancing Bird Goddess steps from the edge of the precipice and begins her leap of faith..


When my Two Spirit Twin Spirit Twin Flame showed up in my life in 2011, everything about it was this leap of faith.  We were talking when another girl decided, unbeknownst to me, that she would steal the moment from me.  All of sudden the Earth screamed at me that I was to cut off my braid and send it to this Two Spirit.  So I just did..

The medicine of hair is very very strong.   It bound my medicine to my Twin Spirit (who I did not recognize) and took us on a journey..  There is just a part of me that has need to entertain so I began writing my Twin Spirit a book called My Life as a Fairy Tale, in which I took all the happenings of our journey and converted them into a Fairy Tale..

The clouds in the background of the picture is from a picture I took November 6, 2011.  I had come out of Walmart’s and was walking across the parking lot when something called me to look up and 2 Eagles, in the most glorious dance racing to rise above and approaching storm…

In 2016, I had followed my Twin Spirit for long enough and had been so faithful to the medicine of the hair that we began to dream together, even though we had been dreaming together all along, the birth canal, and intense pain can take away a lot of memories.  And it was inside our dreams where my Twin Spirit began to make the Two Spirit reveal..

There had been a vision I had been given in 2004.  It had to do with a Ceremony the Earth was asking me to perform called, The Remnants of Past Wound Healing Ceremony.  At a certain point in the Ceremony (that last 3 months long) I was told to drive an additional 250 miles to lay my heart upon the Earth at the foot of a Mountain.

When I asked why, I was given a vision of laying before a fire in fetal position,  Before me Grandfather of the Wolf Clan began to dance and chant..  Behind him came the Eagle Dancer and behind the Eagle Dancer came the Star Dancer.  She was incredible tall, with very think long legs..  She was dressed in white, and everywhere she danced a train of stardust followed her…

When my Twin Spirit was making her reveal, she kept sending me pictures of who she feels inside her…



Honoring the Star Dancer.. journey with my Cheyenne Two Spirit love
October 31, 2016

I don’t know that I will find time to complete this, but I have to make my honoring by attempting to draw it out… and it also seems to fall in line with the dream of the green sun with its 3 moons… It is the continuation from a story that began in 2004 with my Twin Flame.. It was a vision that lasted 6 weeks or so and involved me seeing a Eagle Dancer and a Star Dancer (in 2004) Following behind Grandfather of the Wolf Clan who apparently it was important that the Dragon show up for this particular picture I tried to draw this weekend..

I don’t have time write it out but as I look at this picture it appears to be a continuation from the dream of the green sun with the 3 moons.. As the story of my life goes I was walking along, from the time I was 12 thinking that my love was with a man… and discovering that my one true love is a Two Spirit took me to a new dimension of thinking… a New World has opened up before me…. and all my drawing should begin to reflect this new world…


I have a lot on my mind right now, with looking the ethers to peer down upon Standing Rock and the Sioux Nation… Calling out to the Star people, “This is what is needed” but I wanted to make certain I took a moment to attempt to draw this honoring song for my Love, she is the Star Dancer from my 2004 vision… My heart holds her close again… She has returned from her journey…



This vision is much longer than I imagine.  As I look down this portal through time I remember when the story of the Eagle dancer was given to me in a vision in 1994.  A bunch of Artist had showed up at my house and were sitting around drawing..  so I had joined them and was sitting drawing a picture of an Eagle when suddenly I realized that I had drawn a head dress.. and as I was drawing her face within the head dress I saw the words, “And at the end of the Story the Dancing Bird Goddess makes her leap  of faith from the Edge of the Precipice and is transformed into an Eagle….

My story with my Rainbow Twin Flame Two Spirit is a love story that began before she appeared..


Living within a spiral world, loving a Two Spirit
June 7, 2016

I will tell you something that ringing its song inside my heart right now..  Life is a circle, a spiral really..  visions from the age of 12, when I come to understand why I discover it is a circle.. and a spiral all at once for now I am 60 years old and the world has spun itself into a new world for me.

I always wondered why I was given 2 visions when I was 12 years old.  In one, my mother from 13 generations ago came to instruct me on how to walk through a world that was solid.  She said in all ways I was to merge with the Earth.  From there I spread my wings and stretching out across the land, through time, I became a warrior opening up the path for the Indigenous Peoples of the Earth for they are the Keepers of the Planets that support Life.  So I sang my songs and made my prayers and watched through Time as the People again began to rise.

In the second vision I was taken to my Home world and saw that my mission to the Earth had been accepted by the Elder Council.  Then my husband sweeps in like Sun standing over me holding me as a planet while I dance around him.  He is saying that his mission too to Earth has been accepted and is showing me where our paths will join in mission…  then the door closed…  and it felt like I was forever in search of why I was given the second vision.

Inside my dreams there was always someone walking with me, sometimes I could see it was a man, sometimes it would be a girl and she would be telling me where we were going and what it would look like.. and feel like.  In my dreams I fought against loving her.  My earthly body had been programmed to believe that as a girl my destiny could only be matched with a boy..

and yet now here stand I, dancing sacred around my Sun.. my love ..  Two Spirits .. discovering that in the completion of the circle, which in reality is a spiral, I have come to a second mission..

To sing my song, my creation song, to sing a new world into being, within the Heavenly Host of Singers who have come to sing the new world into being.  I must walk into the new world to open the open the path..

and now I can see why the Ancients changed my name to Destiny

once I had come into the time of the Second Mission..

the mission of singing into being

a world that embraces

Two Spirits

who walk as One.

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Hero.. re dedicated to my Rainbow Twin Flame
January 12, 2016

Nearly 4 years ago I gave this song to you..
The Earth had told me that the day would come when you would love me…  she did not tell me how it was that it would happen only that I should honor the dance from the moment she had me to cut off my braid and give it to you as medicine.
So I did.  I didn’t really know how to get from point A to point B so I did what I know, I gave you songs and I wrote you a book called My Life as a Fairy Tale, in which I translated all of our journey into the story of a girl who went looking for her Rainbow Twin Flame and the boy she met while sitting next to the fire.
There was something inside of me that could feel that I had your attention despite the fact that I continually ran away from your lions roar..  The Kundalini journey had to purify me before I could know your love, and know what your love felt like..
And now that I have reached the place where I can feel your love..
It is like in the dream, where I would find myself in the attic where all the magical items would reactivate as I would walk past them.  There was a picture in the room of us that I could always see us out of the corner of my eye, but every time I would turn to look at the picture it would turn into a mirror and all I could see was myself.
Here in this place where we are now
watching you reveal to me
the depths of your beauty
for the longest time you let this crazy Kundalini dancer dance with you in her pretend story.  In my Kundalini story the book I wrote for you, it was the Earth who told me what was required, how she needed me to not let go of what was happening inside my body, but instead I was to lift off, head for the stars and pull her to a higher vibration..
So in my story to you, as I was leaving, I got onto my ship and set sail out into the great vastness of space.
Oh how I loved writing that book to you and dancing in that place..
I remember always this feel of you watching me
I remember, after the Earth explained to me that I was on a Kundalini journey, the sacred snake revealed its bite upon my lips, revealed why I was doing the crazy dance.  I remember the medicine of the cut off braid calling to me again to speak to you.. to honor the song the Earth had given me.. I remember you telling me that there was something in my song that called to your heart and you did not know why..
And that is where I am now
with you
I touched your heart
and when I looked inside
I saw a female staring back at me
Here you stand
in your love
a flower unfolding before me
like looking in the mirror
and seeing myself
slowly and steadily
this flower unfolding
revealing the depths of her beauty
and here stand I
There is something in your song
that calls to my heart
I dedicate this song to you
again my love
in your beauty
A Destiny ol Love

15 ~ NORTH OF THE RIVER dream series
November 25, 2015

For the longest time I would have these dreams with you that I would call the “North of the River” series…  and I would call you, “The Indian who walks with me through my dreams”.

These dreams would be marked by the loss of the memory of the dream.  I would have no problem getting to the dream location, but every time it was time for me to leave I would get lost trying to find my way back to my body and would have to drive around  looking for some land mark that was familiar just so that I could get to the road that lead to down town..  Once I would arrive Downtown I would then have to find the ramp that lead up and over, and down so that it would be a Uturn….  when I could come down the U and get onto the highway home, when I would blink, I would not be able to get my eyes to reopen and would then awaken back in my body with barely any memory of the dream other than I had gone and been with my Indian who walks with me through me dreams North of the River..

These dreams disappeared around the time you were preparing to come to Earth as a Walk In…  I did not know why back then that the dreams disappeared, and I would have to travel through some years on a great journey towards reconnecting with you…  and then, well I always had my River Song to call to your heart and the rest is all a part of the sacred dance with you having mastered out of body traveling and I having taken an extensive class on awakening inside my dreams..

This time when you showed up I began making conscious the knowledge that I wanted to see where you were taking me so I looked and looked and looked.. drew the pictures I could of what it looked like until at last I found you inside a dream North of the River…  Gleefully I got out of my vehicle and went to the door and knocked… then there you were standing at the door in your socked feet..  You took me in to the kitchen, to the place that I knew already and into your room that I already knew..

Finally you said, “It is time for you to get back to work..  and I laughed and said, “Will you ever bend your rules to accommodate my fancy free ways?  and you said, so seriously, “No” ….  so I just laughed and said “Ok” for how can one ask a Sun to change course for the planet he holds in such a loving embrace…

Then I asked you if you could look up the instructions for how for me to get to work, as every time I would try to find my way out of this place I would get lost.. and loose the dream..

so you go to your computer, do some typing..  Someone shows up, you walk out of the room and I go look at your computer to see something like  2YO8+3*LO4RU …. AND REALIZED NORTH OF THE RIVER WAS THE PLACE WHERE I HAD BEEN MEETING YOU ALL ALONG… when we came outside and the mated trees.. the mated Eagles..the mated little animals playing on the ground..  and the mated hummingbirds..  I began to see deeper into my trips North of the River

After that, one night you were late in picking me  so I went there by myself… and there were the shops that I already knew…. and the alley that lead to the shops, I had been there so many times before..


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Isle of the Twin Souls
November 18, 2015

Flame of the Twin Souls idea

When I met my Twin Flame in this current life, I had no memory that it was him, nor he that I was her.  We were both in a lot of pain over things that had happened in our lives that we were both self absorbed trying to muddle our way through it while obviously somewhat attracted to each other.

The attraction was not enough to hold us together.  We would have been long gone from each other if it had not been for the Earth having me to cut off my braid and give him my medicine that way.  The hair bound me to him in ways I cannot even explain, and since I didn’t really know what to do with that energy I decided to write him a book, which I called My Life as a Fairy Tale..  It was the story of a girl was was traveling down the road when a cougar picked her up and escorted her to the Isle of the Twin Flame Soul.  Then he left.

And as she was sitting there a man showed up bearing the name of her love and began to contemplate on where his Twin Flame was also…  and while he was there the girl was instructed to offer her braid to the strange man who had come to sit beside her, and even though he had seemingly rejected it the cutting off of the braid was a long journey that would not allow her to let go of him.. and so, she did what she does best.  She wrote him a book, translating every aspect of her journey into a story line..

The journey of the Twin Flame Souls is difficult one.  There is a constant bouncing away from each other while still not recognizing each other, and blended with the sweet bliss and intensity of the Kundalini Purification process,  it would be very easy to end up as saying, “He was just a guy I once knew for a moment.”

So intense was the purification process of the Kundalini bouncing away from my Twin Flame that many times the book I was writing him called “My life as a Fairy Tale” would get thrown in the electronic waste basket…  but I came across a piece of it today and when I saw the verbiage I used at the time (Isle of the Twin Souls) it brought to mind a picture I would like to draw of us sitting there…  

I wanted to verbalize this because of the intensity of the Twin Flame journey…  Coming close, then bouncing away hard…  then coming close and bouncing away hard.. over and over until at last both remember…  and in remembering and rejoining become more..