Archive for July, 2018

The healing path, journey to being a conscious creator
July 28, 2018

One of the greatest medicines I found in my youth: After the rape of my soul they tried to exorcise the Indian out of me. It hit me hard, like a bomb going off inside of my stomach.. They thought their victory came when I blacked out. They did not know that when I blacked out it was because my Indian Kacheena, she came and grabbed my hand and took me to a safe place deep down inside far away from the pain that was outside.. When I awoke I was full of rage and hatred against them, and the emptiness inside of me felt like a bomb had exploded inside my tummy… and rocking and holding my stomach like that I began to weep..

And weeping I looked around and saw a great psychic war was taking place across the Earth, to the children of the Earth..

There was a girl, and to most she appeared hardened of heart, and bitterness had come upon her… but when she told me the story of her soul, of the rape that had come upon her and changed her whole world and how nothing looked the same after that I turned my tears away from weeping for me, to weeping for her…

And looking around I saw so many wounded inside the psychic battle of innocence stolen at the hands of another and upon waking inside the dark cold reality the rage and hatred kicking in protecting them from the pain they felt of having the innocence stolen from their hearts… In my brokenness I found myself walking around weeping for all the others as I listened to their stories inside a room that was full of rage and hatred….

and by weeping for others more than myself.. this is what I believe was the medicine that guided the path to my healing..

I really believe that Love could not have found me if all I did was wallow in despair for myself (or I could not have seen love standing there as long as I only felt and embraced the rage only within myself in self pity… I really believe that there is healing medicine in weeping for all the same or similar stories.. that this act enables one to see that hand of love has come to lift them from their misery..

and from this point I began my journey to become a conscious creator…… All my love… Destiny