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Twin Flames, journey with my Two Spirit love.. Standing Rock and historical trauma
July 31, 2017

It must be really hard having both genders living inside you.. in a world that does not understand or live to support you..

Upon last count my love had returned and I could feel her soft softness inside my bed..  but inside him all I can feel is a wound..  a distance not trans versed, but like he showed up because of her.. (and I can still feel her inside my bed)

Inside my dream this morning he showed up, just sitting there inside a daze, not saying anything…  3 times did she (his divine feminine) come to him and ask him why he disappeared.. 3 times he sat staring as if he did not hear and would not answer her..

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They have been inside my dream world since before I was 12..  sometimes her.. sometimes him.. sometimes them…  my mind has been wondering, on this time of signs, of her showing up, of him bringing her..  why the pain that is inside him now…

This morning, as I feel my body all hurting again, as it has been hurting horribly since the rubber bullets and the water cannons were sprayed upon the people of Standing Rock..  I am wondering if my love also is lost inside the historical trauma that we we all experience at Standing Rock.. (I do not have any way of knowing what they are feeling as I only have dreams, and the knowledge of her.. his.. their presence inside my bed)..

but I know that I, myself have been locked inside this horrible pain since the spray of rubber bullets and water cannons tried to quell our quest to protect our water for all the generations to come..

I have been struggling through a need to feel prejudice.. and a need to protect all those who fall outside the guidelines of the white supremacist who seem determined to turn the clock back to the days when they could rule the world through prejudice…

..  This morning I awoke my my dream and wondered if my love too has gone into a need for healing because of what we witnessed at Standing Rock on the day the rubber bullets were shot and the water cannons were sprayed..

my body has hurt horribly since then….  as if someones trauma came inside me.. or as if on the astral plane I was there and felt what happened..

Twin Flames ~journey to a higher love
June 18, 2017

I could write a thousand words
while endlessly trying to make certain I protected your heart
I had a dream that I was standing at the waters edge
staring down at the water,
watching the lights sparkle and dance
I saw 3 of the most beautiful, magical orange scales
laying there beneath the surface.
The lights of the water danced upon them
then as I watched
the lights of the water was dancing upon the 2
as they danced together
and looked like a butterfly in flight
I do not have the words to explain to you what was shown to me in that moment
as the universe opened in that moment and reminded me of what we feel like when we are spirit
And in the place where we are spirit, it all made perfect sense..
Then I heard the words, Let them go, he has a journey he needs to make…
With that I turned and was driving down a country road, when suddenly swooping in over the top of me, and guiding my path the largest bird I have ever seen.   with a wingspan that stretched across both lanes of the road and color so dark I could not translate what kind of bird was now being given to me as a spirit guide..  This spirit bird guided me down the road then disappeared for a moment, and as I looked around trying to see where it had gone, its shadow came across my truck and guided me down the road…
all my love,
Destiny
I will see you again when the blue butterfly asks me to come sing to you…  All my love…

Mermaid Island, a spiritual retreat,
June 6, 2017

 

I have gone to Mermaid Island on a spiritual journey, spiritual retreat… It is the place where I lived in our passage through Lemuria.. I will be searching through time for my memories from that life…

Once we set our mind on something, it will cause the path to open before us..

and thus through my dreams and ‘seeings’ I will be be able to access memories from there…

I found myself in a dream from there this morning, but I was not able to bring it out with me…

but the thought is crossing my mind, as I swan down the corridor that we lived in the caves.. that was as much of the dream as I was able to bring out

I have a feeling the Hawk.. and the Blue Butterfly will both have appearances on this journey…. along with the water dragon with golden light in its hair…

Journey to Mermaid Island ~A Two Spirit Journey
June 4, 2017

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Life happens… changes happen .. it is very important that we honor the changes..
 
the painting of this picture was a journey of discovery that all began with a mistake.. this was a mermaid lesson on line that I was painting and after getting the sun, sky and dragon stone painted I drew in the rainbow haired mermaid.. Then I noticed it was all blank to the right of her and thought, ‘well I will just add a second mermaid. Got her all outlined and I still had a 1/4th of the canvas to fill… so I thought I will put a flower in the second mermaids hair and have the limbs of a tree coming down to fill the rest of the space…
 
As this happened a book begin to form in my mind and the pictures I could paint in this book so I began to have a look see at the symbols the Earth was giving presently around me and saw the Honey Suckle in the Tree who came to visit me and share her message with me…..
 
So then I knew that in the next picture the water dragon will appear with me.. and with my love, an amazing Star Fish in her hand that she is showing me…
 
In the course of painting this picture I did some research to look at various mermaid head dresses and discovered that there are a multitude of Two Spirit who are Mermaids… (and they need to be part of this honoring song also)
 
and then today I did some research to see what a group of mermaids is called… I found, to my amazement a passage that one in 3 mermaids is infertile and will spend her life running with her sister.. or friend… or lover such as I and my Two Spirit Love who happens to be my Twin Spirit (according to the Eagles in my dream) making us born in the Womb of Creation together as Twins…
 
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Sometimes Love is a Butterfly, lessons from a Two Spirit Journey
April 18, 2017

This Two Spirit love.. pictures from the journey

This is from last summer when she came home traumatized and said she had to leave, that what she once believed was no longer true and she had to go find herself.. and grow

I had responded with I will leave also, and thinking that I would go somewhere else I found myself in a sea of clover with a blue butterfly dancing at my feet. The Blue Butterfly showed a Y in the path and said, “you can go right and there will be food there, or left and there will be food there also”

So I left the path where I was going to leave her, changed my name to River Song and told her the Blue Butterfly was the path I would follow in a sing a long…

Two Spirits are amazing. She disappeared behind her masculine energy and her gentle feminine would not touch me from inside the place she had gone to heal…

She sent me pictures from inside the forest where she had gone to heal..  And I sent her pictures of the butterfly traveling along the River Song… There were mermaids in that river, and fairies and magical trees, and a dark forest where one could get lost endlessly..

Then I dreamed she was returning… though she still was holding herself so far from me…. so I rejoiced in the knowing and sang exuberantly… while she pretended not to notice I was dancing by myself waiting for her to step back out of the forest where she had gone to find herself…

That moment, when she came back and found me still sitting there waiting for her…. I believe it was the moment love was reborn in her heart…

Sometimes things happen in life that can tear us apart, leave us shattered and torn… and sometimes it takes a butterfly to heal that pain….

In the Womb of Creation, a Rainbow Twin Spirit Love song
April 3, 2017

Here is a love song I wrote.. to her.. to him.. to them..   to my Two Spirit Love recently… (not only is she my Two Spirit Love, she is also my Twin Spirit. That is what I heard in a dream this last January..)

In the womb of creation
we lie in in sacred dance
Our bodies yearning
and turning towards each other
with the knowing
in that moment
we had touched love
And that it was a divine energy
that would always flow between us

Oh we could come back
and be Twins again and again
or triplets with your divine
intertwining within me
But it is just so much fun
to come here and dance with you
outside the confines
of a bloodline twins
In this place where we
can be lovers true
and enjoy the pleasures
of Two Spirited you.
dancing with me
in eternal love..

while remembering
how beautiful it felt
when we danced in the
Womb of Creation
our bodies touching
in sacred bliss
knowing this was the first place
where we touched Love..
knowing that this is where
we experienced
our first kiss.

Love Destiny and Shining Star

In the place where we stand is the place where we should sing from

Two Spirit Love, divine unveiling
March 20, 2017

This human mind is a virgin to the Two Spirit world. In ways I cannot define I accepted the belief reality of this world, even while other parts of myself could see through the prejudice, the hate, the fear, I could see easily see there and know my calling was to choose the path that led to love.

A world beyond 2 sexes never crossed my mind to question it reality, and its legitimacy as reality.

Now here I am having completed one whole puzzle (why the spirit Indians began walking with me in the 4th grade) I have now been given a second one to put together. This beautiful puzzle who we call Two Spirit Love in her divine unfolding.

One of my observations in this great unfolding, especially in the last year is the fact that when she feels less than safe in her divine feminine, or when she feels she needs some special protection she will step behind the essence of her male energy and allow him to protect her while she tries to find a way to heal.

So I now understand that the reason I met my Two Spirit Love walking fully in her male energy was because her heart had been shattered and broken and at a loss to know what to do or how to carry on without the safety of her comfort zone she had slipped behind the veil into the safety zone of her male energy to allow him to protect her..

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Every day I allowed the honor of walking with her it becomes more and more clear what medicine Two Spirit people brought to our Tribes..  They teach us how to walk in balance within ourselves.  So often we think we are only one sex, or the other, and we do not see that we are both, all of us.  We all have the feminine nurturer and the masculine protector within all of us.  It is the medicine of the Two Spirit to remind us of how to find balance inside of ourselves.


Twin Flames update….
February 24, 2017

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This morning this beautiful knowledge lay like a gift at my feet, waiting for me to pick it up. It was a memory through time of Love and I’s journey since 2011.
 
It was the Earth who instructed me to make this journey towards her, way back when all I could see was him. The Earth asked (well screamed at me, “I need you to give ‘him’ your hair right now.” … As I surrendered and cut off my braid I knew nothing of the power of this medicine… I cut it right off the top, as close to the scalp as possible… Little did I know that this would bind me to the journey to find her.. The medicine of the hair, it does speak to you..
 
It is from here, that this mornings gift danced like a star fish at my feet calling me to investigate…
 
Dancing through our memories through time, I saw these moments when she would pull close, then in my unknowledge of who she was, she would see I could not see her and pull away.
 
Then I would keep going and keep singing like the Earth told me to and again, she would pull close, and still I could not see her and she would pull away..
 
And I would keep going, singing my magical song, writing our journey in a book I called, “My Life as a Fairy Tale” til again she could pull close.. and realizing I still could not see her, she would pull away.
 
Ever given this sacred song to sing, and my ability to write, translating our moments of speaking to each other into a story line she could not resist. Again she would pull close to stand right next to me and still I could not her so she would pull away.
 
the years flew by inside this sacred dance, the hair grew back and was replaced by a blue butterfly who began to dance around me and tell me when I should speak with ‘him’… Then again, she would draw so close, and realizing I still could not see her, she would pull away…
 
We carried on like this for such a long time. me with my blinders on, and her hidden from view..
 
All the while, the Earth had me on this journey of purification, facing various parts of myself that were no longer in line with the new me I was becoming…. until at last, one day I saw her and began my journey towards her..
 
And now she does not have to pull away..
 
and now I miss her, even when she goes to the store..

Eagle and Star Dancer, a love story that transcends time, art expressed
January 10, 2017

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The Dancing Bird Goddess picture was drawn in 1994. A bunch of artist had shown up and began strumming their instruments while others sat and drew. So I got out my pencil, found a beautiful picture of an Eagle and began to draw it.. Right when I got to the end I realized it was head dress, so I began adding the Dancing Bird Goddess. My Native American bloodline carries the line of vision, and the next thing I know I am seeing the words to a book, “And at the end of the story the Dancing Bird Goddess steps from the edge of the precipice and begins her leap of faith..

 

When my Two Spirit Twin Spirit Twin Flame showed up in my life in 2011, everything about it was this leap of faith.  We were talking when another girl decided, unbeknownst to me, that she would steal the moment from me.  All of sudden the Earth screamed at me that I was to cut off my braid and send it to this Two Spirit.  So I just did..

The medicine of hair is very very strong.   It bound my medicine to my Twin Spirit (who I did not recognize) and took us on a journey..  There is just a part of me that has need to entertain so I began writing my Twin Spirit a book called My Life as a Fairy Tale, in which I took all the happenings of our journey and converted them into a Fairy Tale..

The clouds in the background of the picture is from a picture I took November 6, 2011.  I had come out of Walmart’s and was walking across the parking lot when something called me to look up and 2 Eagles, in the most glorious dance racing to rise above and approaching storm…

In 2016, I had followed my Twin Spirit for long enough and had been so faithful to the medicine of the hair that we began to dream together, even though we had been dreaming together all along, the birth canal, and intense pain can take away a lot of memories.  And it was inside our dreams where my Twin Spirit began to make the Two Spirit reveal..

There had been a vision I had been given in 2004.  It had to do with a Ceremony the Earth was asking me to perform called, The Remnants of Past Wound Healing Ceremony.  At a certain point in the Ceremony (that last 3 months long) I was told to drive an additional 250 miles to lay my heart upon the Earth at the foot of a Mountain.

When I asked why, I was given a vision of laying before a fire in fetal position,  Before me Grandfather of the Wolf Clan began to dance and chant..  Behind him came the Eagle Dancer and behind the Eagle Dancer came the Star Dancer.  She was incredible tall, with very think long legs..  She was dressed in white, and everywhere she danced a train of stardust followed her…

When my Twin Spirit was making her reveal, she kept sending me pictures of who she feels inside her…

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All inside the dance of love with a Two Spirit
October 31, 2016

All inside the dance of Love with a Two Spirit.. I find myself reflecting now of another place in which the vision was revealed that she would be a Two Spirit…

Just before I met her in this life, when I thought she was a he.. I had been driving down the road when a portal opened and I saw a Rainbow Flame,.. I went WOW, and then a second portal opened and another Rainbow Flame appeared.. on the eve of Thanksgiving..

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(picture is from a book I wrote to Lakota when I thought she was a male.. it was called My Life as a Fairy Tale… and was the story of how she had been delivered by a Cougar to the Aisle of the Twin Flames and was sitting at the well when a guy sat down beside her, on the other side. He was weeping inside his spirit over the course his life had run, and calling out in search of her to come,

his one true love..

(Her one True love…)

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