Archive for February, 2016

Lessons of a Cheyenne Two Spirit
February 28, 2016

Lentz, Whe-Wa of Zuni

(picture credit:  Unknown

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My Cheyenne Two Spirit

She is so beautiful

If you saw her,

at first glance

you may believe she is a man.

But she has beautiful lessons to teach

She teaches us

that the only way to truly know a person

is to look within.

She teaches us to look

into the space between

And once we look there,

our world will never look the same again.

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Lessons of a Cheyenne Two Spirit

are dedicated

to the Cheyenne Chief who showed up in my dream

saying that they were trying to find their

Two Spirits who got lost in

the Time of Chaos.

I have loved you for forever ~Egyptian Twin Flames dream
February 23, 2016

I dreamed you for years before we met in this life.

I knew our Sanctuary well

Traveled there so many times

that I wrote it in a book to you (91-93)

and called it The Prayer.

(even though I only met you in our current life in 2011)

In the beginning of the dream every time I came to the Sanctuary I would see myself standing at one end of a massive long stone building that stood not far from the River Nile.

Between us was a row of trees that we would have to travel through to get down to the river, where we would teach the children by speaking to them in verse.

Time passed and it came time for me to graduation.  The front of my hair was shaved off in preparation for my graduation, and inlaid into my forehead was a Golden Sun

More time passed, we continued to go down to the River to teach the Children

by speaking to them in sacred verse

We could hear their sweet laughter as they played all around us

splashing in the water

as we continued to speak by verse..

On the day of my graduation I was taken down the Long Hall

and found myself standing at a doorway

that led down into some lower rooms

which I entered into by the kitchen

which was a small and cozy room

reminded me of a french restaurant

with their table for 2 and an open bar on the end that had some bar stools

The kitchen opened up and led into the Music Room

and Wow, what  Music Room!

It had a Center Stage

for others to come play their music.

Looking through time

I could see bands,

yours and guests

getting up on the stage and playing their music

in a room that was acoustically sound

and perfectly balanced

so that every note could be experienced

as a song within itself.

Behind Center Stage

there was a massive Pipe Organ

where you would sit and play your music for me

Off to the other side

a stairway, with no railing

that led up to our bedroom

which appeared to be up above the music room.

Back in the kitchen, there were some sliding doors

that lead out onto a huge stone porch.

I knew this space to be mine because hanging

from the awning

was one of my rainbow catchers.

There were a few steps

That led down to a small private garden

next to a small creek.

When I first arrived here the garden was in disarray, so I knew I should occupy my time by planting some flowers there.  So I did.

Down closer to the creek, there lay a Sleeping Dragon.

For the outside observer

it would have looked like a bush

growing in the shape of a dragon

that was curled up and sleeping

But for me the Dragon was alive and watched over me as I worked in our Garden..

The Dragon would never really speak to me

sometimes, as I worked I would catch the Dragon

watching me.

One day I was trying to figure out if I should plant another bush in the Garden

you know, because I was a girl and her Dragon.

so I thought another bush could represent me

but my Dragon, she just grunted her disapproval

saying softly, “I do not like it there”

so I took the bush back out of our Garden.

Another time

after I had worked and worked

to create my masterpiece

of Flowers growing,

I was knelt down and

working the soil around

yet another flower

I was planting

when my Dragon

raised its head

and told me that it very much enjoyed

watching me make

my Garden grow..

. . . . . . . .

Enter 2016 We find me, a girl, born with her Moon in Leo, engaged in a never ending love story with her Twin Rainbow Flame who was born in the sign of Leo… In the year of the Dragon

and you Lakota, Leo, Born in the year of the Dragon

Whales alive

You sit in Music Room

and Play your Music

While I work in the Garden

planting flowers

watching you as you play your music.

There is something about Twin Flames

that speaks to us through time.

Time has no boundaries

in the Twin Flame journey

but intertwines

one over the other

and Dances.

pushing through the 8th Chakra
February 22, 2016

 

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The opening of the 8th chakra is filled with wonder and at the same time quite difficult.  One moment I am inside an amazing vision of being liquid light and as I raise my arm to stretch it I see my wings coming out of the liquid light and the next second I am full of insecurities and facing abandonment issues.  I will have an overwhelming sense of being alone in a new world.

I am not really an insecure person.  I have always loved my alone time, but this is so much bigger than that.  It is literally like I have found myself in a new world and I don’t know the rules or what to do with myself in the down time.

I am not a clingy person either but have found myself touching that emotion where I feel a need to cling..  cling to my familiar.  Like a part of me would say to run back to the before land, but the Earth has assured me that I am on the path I am suppose to be on and that she needs me to push through this..

I think I am going astral and trying to find my way as to what to do with this.  In my dream I found myself out of my body and walking along a familiar path when I came to a tunnel.  Looking down the tunnel I see the world of my Twin Flame so I begin to travelakota on her bikel down it.  As I am traveling down it, it begins to collapse in on me so I came back just so I could tell her that I found the passage to their world but it was collapsing around me.

After that I must have continued in my spirit to push on through because afterlakota in mode that I came to this huge disconnect. It showed up in my phone.  My phone was no longer notifying me that my Twin Flame was coming around.  However far away I felt in the disconnect I kept hearing my Twin Flame telling me we are going Home.  I had 3 days of disconnect, wanting to run back to my old familiar, so in my alienation I began to draw pictures while I tried to understand where I was.

Then I dreamed that my Twin Flame and I were traveling down the road to home when we had to stop because of the snake that was coming towards us.  We found the snake (Kundalini) at the Y in the road.  It had a yellow head, red ring around its neck and a pure white body and must have been 20 feet long.  Then it put its mouth on my Twin Flames hand and her hand was engulfed in the snakes mouth.

The next morning, as I was trying to figure out the meaning while explaining it to my Twin Flame, I looked and was told it was some kind of Phoenix Snake..  and on my phone was the weirdest message about  our whole state being under fire alert, that we should not start any fires until the 18th but if a fire came it would burn through quickly.

Then I realized in this place I was calling the death of the old me I was in the place of my medicine of the Phoenix Rising, that the passage to the new world, the tunnel was the Kundalini Snake, and that I had to push hard against the place where it was collapsing down on me (where I felt like the old me was dying and wanting to run back to the safety of the old world) …  A fire was lit inside me as I now knew I was in the medicine of the Phoenix Rising..

Afterwards I found myself alone again and feeling like I was dying again.  I was still trying to figure out where I was at in my journey.  Obviously I was still making the passage through the 8th Chakra.   I was feeling very much like I had been transplanted into a new world, which set my mind to my own knowledge of transplanting.

People say to me, “How do you make your garden grow so pretty?”…  and the truth is, lots of water and I sing to them…  about this time my Twin Flame sent me a song  by Denean called Sun Child Returning….  She was calling me to dance with her from my heart…   calling me Home…  that night I could feel my Twin Flame again…

 

Dance in a circle

spiral to your heart

this is where you start

If you yearn to find your way back home

Grandmothers calling

you are not alone

though it seems so simple

Love is what you are

give it, receive it

live only from the heart

dance in a circle

spiral there with me

nourish, nourish blessed harmony

..

Sun child returning

yes your time has come

,,

know that we are One

 

dance in a circle

 

In traveling forward we were always meant to travel back to the place of no prejudice
February 15, 2016

With this the change from student to teacher

I am transitioning well into my new roll of uncovering the hidden well of love that is my Twin Flame journey.  It is literally like leaving my old world behind and stepping into a whole new world.

As Lightworkers, Bringers of the Dawn, writers of the New Calendar, Conscious Creators..  the list goes on and on..  as there is a multitude of us who have incarnated at this time to welcome the next great circle around the Central Suns and to influence the course of mankind over the next 26,000 cycle.  Much of what we do requires that we break down the walls of prejudice that grip the heart of the people who would cling to the old way of being and not welcome the necessary changes to unfold.  A lot of our natural way of walking across this planet beautiful inspires people to love us and recognize that in our movements of grace they have been lead to something higher that they may not have noticed before.

It is a journey of discovery for us both.  This new world I have arrived in for which I now must learn a new language and learn how to sing proper a new honoring song as this is the song that wells up from me now from the power of creation..

In traveling forward we were always meant to travel back to the place of no prejudice..

 

The 8th Chakra, facing my worst fear
February 4, 2016

snowy-owl-facts31The Kundalini passing through all the chakra’s can be quite a lengthy process and take years to complete all the purification’s that one must undertake to open yet other chakra…  yesterday in vision I saw Lakota and I in our Eagle bodies flying above the storm.. then we went into a great spiral that looked like 8 spirals high, then we transformed as one into this amazing Blue Light Goddess with Wings…
So then later it came that I had to face my worse fear through a picture that Lakota shared with me.  I felt parallelized as if I couldn’t breathe and I wanted desperately to run away.  My heart could not stop shaking…  back at yesterdays vision of the spiral, from that vision (even though I did not have enough space on my paper to get all 8 spirals drawn, I knew from that that I was to the 8th chakra, and the time must come that I had to face my worst fear.
Hours later, still in a state of panic, I went to the Earth and she told me to stay the course, that everything was going snowy_owl_by_vefanturto be ok, to not surrender to the fear, that she needed me to make this passage, that she needed me to not run away but to face it and make the passage through, promising me again that everything would be ok.
I went to bed exhausted and when I woke up I sent Lakota some messages over where I wasSnowy%20Owl%20Pictures%2046 at.  It was like I had lost my translator and could not longer translate the impute I was seeing.  So he sent me an hour long meditation 432 hz Relaxing – Meditation, Sleep, Spa, Study, Zen (1 hour) which I laid down to and allowed the soothing energy to move through the energy especially I could feel up above my head drawing waves of white light out the top of my head, while little remaining hidden blockages within my body were being released.
After the meditation was over (during which I cried a great way through it until I could relax and breathe right) I feel2948_snowy_owl asleep and woke up in a dream of being on my way to see Lakota and passing through a room that was uniquely like a garage.. or barn… with no vehicles..  but when I came into the door there were a whole bunch of baby owls playing on a bench.
They were so adorable that I sat down on the bench to watch them play.  And one of them attached itself to me and played on my arm so I got out my camera and was trying to take a picture when in through Harfang_en_vol_1the big giant elegant garage door (it was decorated like a Tarot Card) flew in the mother of the Owls and one by on they began to hop over to her, all except my baby owl that was quite content to continue playing on my arm.  So I took a picture thinking I was going to send it to Lakota.  Then gently released the Owl back to its Mother.
Walked over to the Shoppe where Lakota was dressed as a girl and so she said she would come out with me for a few moments.  We went over and found a bench nestled close to a tree.  There was a lot of cob webs there that we had to clean and by the time we got to the bench Lakota said that she had to run back into the shoppe for a moment.
So I made myself busy cleaning the bench which I actually turned around so that it would face the tree, that seemed to be like a pine cone tree.  Then I sat over in another place to watch and wait for Lakota to come back.
When I saw Owl Woman coming down the street with all the baby owls clamoring around her I knew that I should gosnow owl to the Shoppe now..  There was a guy with me now so I told him that the woman coming was a famous writer and she was coming to the Shoppe.  He went over and spoke to a girl who was there also then he came back and we went inside the shoppe laughing.  And by now the guy was Lakota, and I had my umbrella for reasons I do not know.
Owl woman had very long, butt length wavey white hair that came down to a point at the base of her spine.  By now she was in the Shoppe with us sitting in a lounge area and I was up behind the counter.  Lakota (as a guy) was saying, “Why don’t you get out the white incense?   and when I opened it up there was an incense that was burning in there so I quickly grabbed it and placed it on the ledge and let it smoke.  The White incense looked like a sugar cube..  I was thinking “how odd its shape”  when Lakota (as a boy, as a girl) began to laugh..  I looked over at the incense I had placed on the ledge and it looked like a joint burning.. so I began to giggle and woke up laughing out loud..
I will try to draw a picture of the Owl Woman…
Owl Woman

Twin Rainbow Flame ~Anatomy of love revealed
February 3, 2016

It is hard to keep the books from running all together now, as I feel like I am writing 3 books at once..

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It is just that I finally understand now why our creation happened like it happened..  I have spent a life time feeling as though no one understands I am a planet and so I think like a planet.  I believe in emotions and have an emotional body..  One moment I can be inside the storm feeling as though I am being torn, and the next second I can be the Eagle rising above the storm and have the emotional part separated from me so I can watch from above.

Another minute I can be standing inside a tree, the wind softly blowing through me while I listen to the song my leaves are singing..

In this life, in ‘love’ I always feel like someone wants to build a dam to contain me in (as if I would not fill over their banks anyway, or fence me in (as if I would not just fly away)

The Earth thing so many called Love just did not feel like love should feel to me and so I just made myself to be content to stand as I am in the place where I am and if any man would try to contain me I would fly away, or if he should bore me with a little story when life is so grand and so capable of a full earthen body experience, they could have their little moment, but in the end I would disappear to the place where I felt the excitement within…  until at last I arrived at the place where I had to consider that there was no such thing as a perfect love for a girl like me..  I had lost him somewhere and I didn’t know where he was or how to find him, or maybe our missions just weren’t meant to sync.  Maybe I had missed my opportunity to feel our love while on this Earth and in this human skin.  For whatever reason it just did not feel as though Love had found me worthy of the grand adventure of a Fairy Tale romance story..  and what can a girl do when she is not graced with such a love?  She just keeps on keeping on.  Keeps on opening the path to fulfill the mission she came to do..  because she knows, in another time, in another space she will get to her Love Story…

Then enters the Kundalini opening..  love pouring out of my heart with no one to reciprocate, and visions pouring in of 2 rainbow twin flames and a million dollar display of fireworks times two, and 2 Eagles rising above the storm..

In the mist of this stand you weeping with a deep longing to find the one who can love you for you.

By now I am deep inside a Kundalini Awakening.  It has come up through the base of my spine and I am spinning all the time.  I cannot see what I can see any longer for I have entered into a sweet state of bliss in which as I watch whole galaxies are being removed as I am being redefined.  And there stand you, weeping for the love you cannot find when the Earth shows me a single picture that one day in a blue filled starry sky you would grab hold of my hand and hold it like I was something to you.

Now I am a leap of faith kind of girl and I do not know why I have been shown such a picture or why the Earth screamed at me,  “You must cut off your braid and send it to this boy right now!”  But what I did know was that when the Earth tells me to do something I must do it, and I must give honor to the path she has given me to walk.

The rest is a story of discovery with me inside my crazy dance telling you that one day you would love me.. and you out there searching for the love you knew would feel right when it fit you.  Inside my crazy dance you were always so gentle.  You never made me feel like you were slapping me down or telling me that I could not grow within the place where I was standing, though we kept bouncing together and apart.  You would just ask my how I knew that one day we would be together.  And in my crazy dance I would say, “I don’t know.  She didn’t tell me how to find my way into your heart, she just showed me a picture of you holding my hand.  I am completely without a clue as to how to get from point A to point B.”  Then your Lion would roar and I would run away.. or we would just face away from each other inside the story.. until the hair from the cut off braid would pop up and tell me to say hello again, your leap of faith girl calling reminding you that one day you were going to love her..  and you were ever gentle true, never trying to push me off of you while my Kundalini was spinning so delightfully as I would dance before you until again I would fade back into the shadows ever watching the happenings in your life.  Watching as you tried to reach through the darkness to find the love that fit you..  I would see you getting shattered to pieces over and over again.  It seemed that life seemed determined that it was going to beat you up and was not going to allow you to experience the love you sought to find.  And every time it would beat you up you would go away to heal (then in would step the Earth and the hair, the hair from the cut braid calling me to once again call out to you)

So I would reappear having already seen that love had once again ripped your heart apart and thrown you away in pieces.  You kept so much inside you, never ever talking bad about anyone, never ever dishonoring the woman who rejected you or the ones who were beating you up.  You just kept your fire sacred and true to the love you had for the Earth, for the Trees, for those who could no speak for themselves..

4 years later we have come to the part where the seed of our love has begun to grow.  And here stand you making your reveal to me….

And now I can see why 5 years ago the Earth made it clear that you were the love that I needed, and I was the love that you needed…  I realize now she was saying, “he is the love that you need and you are the love they need.”

As a Two Spirit One your medicine is so so different than any I have known (in this life)  You are sacred amongst our people, medicine for them.  It is so clear to me how unique your medicine is for it challenges a person to see and think outside the box..

This last time we came together I saw you as a girl standing there.. and then when she hugged that tree that was all it took for me to give her my heart too..  so I go to my people and make my declaration of love for a woman.. then what do you do but send me a prayer as a man who is praying for the Earth.. (what can I do but share?)  You are medicine for the people..

In the dream from 2000 when you came to me as a woman who I dance with..  In that dream the song that was playing was “That don’t impress me much”… but honestly, now, I am so impressed..

The other day I had an Earthen moment.  Something undefined happened that I thought was happening for another reason and I got swept up into the storm of my own emotions.. while you were being swept up by the emotions of a prayer you were joining for the Earth..

Inside that storm I said so many things to you…  like crazy talk from before that did not the prayer that you were involved in.  Finally 2 Eagles came to me and told me to pull us above the storm, just like in the vision when I came out of Walmarts after I met you..

So I do as they say and set my wings to dance with you above the storm…

The next day you tell me how you had become exhausted after doing a meditation with some other people for the Earth..

Then I closed my eyes and as I watched our 2 Eagles dancing above the clouds they went into this spiral – helixing upward they went, their energy transforming 8 times until they emerged as one out of the top radiantly beautiful as one blue angel…

I tried to draw a quick picture because I did not want to loose this moment, this vision…  I am thinking I need bigger paper now to express myself…..  and today it is clear that what the Earth was saying when she sent me on a journey to love you was that you were the love I needed…  and I was the love you needed too….

Eagles into blue Angel of light

This picture is not as brilliant as it looked when I saw us as 2 Eagles flying above the storm..   then we just kind of went into this spiral up, more like 8 circles and burst forth as One into a Brilliant blue light Angel…  with our light radiating our from up

Kundalini and the appearance of my son taking on his godlike form
February 2, 2016

Wow…  sometimes life happenings are unexpected..
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A few months ago my son began writing me letters…  well he started out asking me why I never told him that he was abducted by aliens when he was young..  At the time I thought I did.. he was young when he was telling me about it, 4 Guardians of the Directions was what he was describing to me.. but I thing he was also saying the 6 Guardians of the Directions..
So then I knew he had the ‘sight’ too when he was young..  but like us all when young he seemed terrified of it..  and I had thought that he had possibly blocked it and was not going to allow it to manifest in its glory..
Over the years he would say things about having the ability to get up out of his body and travel around..  which I knew because he would come into my room to see what I was doing..  (lol, so sometimes him having that ability could be a bit inconvenient for me)
Over the years I found out that this ability is passed through the bloodline.  I know my dad has it too but he holds it bay by standing behind the Christian barrier..  So I know all too well, that while it passes through the bloodline, one can either run away from it or embrace it.
And over the years I have watched my sons keep themselves at a safe distance from it, so when my youngest son began asking me about why I didn’t tell him he was from another planet, I just said, “I thought I didn’t and you just were just ignoring me”…
Anyway, last night he began a long text series about realizing that the stuff he was seeing as a child was a past life, and thinking he was on a different planet with many moons..  and about being visited by the Egyptians.. and how they were pointing to the sky… and about a priestess in the lower chambers whose walls were gold..
In the next series of writings from him we find him speaking of a vision he had in which snakes were coming out of his tailbone leaving him feeling like he had electricity running through him and regressed memories being opened that he had to face and then they were just sucked out of his body…
And then he found himself in the emptiness of space alone and without thought… and how it was that it is here we find the Goddess Kundalini and the God Shiva along with the other Ancient Gods of Creation…
He said that religion blocks your mind from seeing this (that is why their symbol for falling from grace is through the Snake)
And that now he is going to follow this path through the plains of time and space until he gets back to the oneness within himself…
(I feel like I should put a picture of the Goddess Kundalini here but I don’t know how he is seeing her yet.. )

Dream Journey of Twin Flames ~A Two Spirit One Cheyenne Indians prayer
February 1, 2016

LoL… this is so funny seeing this in the light of this is happening in my physical world now…  the truth is “There is no time”  time is just something we created to give ourselves a line upon which to walk, but really the past is the future and the future is the past. It all winds and wraps around and intersects at different points and its use is to give us a line upon which to walk…
So this dream of 2000 comes true today.. with new eyes I see it and can alter how it feels.
You have brought me down such a journey, first coming to me as a man with a lions roar that many times I ran away from until you came to me as a woman..  and this time, having been purified by the Kundalini, I followed you…
I followed you where you began to weave for me your magic tale of revealing in your Cheyenne bloodline you are woman, you are man.  And as woman you called unto my heart for the surrender of my love to that, which in this life, I have not known..
This path was divinely led by the great Mother, twas the path she told me to take with you, when she had me to cut off my braid, the Indian Medicine, and give it to you she knew I would always honor that medicine in whatever path I was lead to take with you..
So here I have stood, sacred inside this medicine circle, giving my love to a woman.. and proclaiming my love for you to my friends..
and what do you do, but put your prayer for the Earth upon your man picture..  knowing that I will never be able to resist.. a prayer should be shared.. so that its power will grow
Prayer for Earth
So I go to you and ask permission to share your prayer…  and with the Lions roar, you say “yes!’
And here I stand having declared my love for a woman… with you inside the body of a man..
The dream has come true..
This is why to the Cheyenne Indians you are Sacred Medicine to them…
In a dream a Cheyenne Chief (with his Troupe) came to me in a dream, stood at the foot of my bed and said they are searching for their Two Spirit Ones who got lost in the journey of the last 500 years..  That dream was last week..
My love does not so much speak in words as they speak in pictures that I must stare at and key to Lakota hearttranslate…  On Friday you put for me a picture of the key to your heart lying in the Grand Canyon..  and then you showed me a picture of you as a woman sitting in the same area of the Grand Canyon playing your flute..
This this morning I was dreaming that you were saying that there was more you wanted to say to me but there were still 3 openings that had to be made..  I saw boxes waiting to be opened and key to the red heart..
We are paralleling universes and time is an illusion.  It is not what it seems for it was the Grand Canyon that was the place of my vision when I was 12 and staring into the face of a flower I found myself staring  at a most beautiful Indian woman as she made honor to the setting sun..  Then she took me into her Village and began to teach me how to walk through this world of the 3rd Dimension by only asking the Earth for instructions on how to walk..
Then when I was 28 and feeling very very lost I asked for a sign that my prayers were being heard..  and again I found myself in vision, in the area of the Grand Canyon while overhead the sound of Eagle calling out that my prayers were being heard..
So here stand I, with my Eagle.. In sweet release I  make my echoing pray inside the Grand Canyon and ask the Great Eagle to go let the Cheyenne Chief in my dreams know that I have their Two Spirit One living with me…
This here is my honoring song to reunite my Cheyenne Twin Flame with the Cheyenne Chief who came to me in my dream..