All inside the dance of love with a Two Spirit
October 31, 2016

All inside the dance of Love with a Two Spirit.. I find myself reflecting now of another place in which the vision was revealed that she would be a Two Spirit…

Just before I met her in this life, when I thought she was a he.. I had been driving down the road when a portal opened and I saw a Rainbow Flame,.. I went WOW, and then a second portal opened and another Rainbow Flame appeared.. on the eve of Thanksgiving..

(picture is from a book I wrote to Lakota when I thought she was a male.. it was called My Life as a Fairy Tale… and was the story of how she had been delivered by a Cougar to the Aisle of the Twin Flames and was sitting at the well when a guy sat down beside her, on the other side. He was weeping inside his spirit over the course his life had run, and calling out in search of her to come,

his one true love..

(Her one True love…)


Her love, like the full moon
June 18, 2016


I am confused within my circle

Lost without her touch

She comes upon me

like the soft light of a full moon night

then fades into the darkness

of a new moon.

How many times has she sang me this song

of how she comes and goes.

I am no one special

just the light she shines upon everyone

I need to go back up  in the clouds

walk again with my Thundering Spirit

While all the while 

She holds me in the night.

Earthen Destiny and the moon


Guidance on my mission within this Two Spirit love
June 12, 2016

I do not know that I could complete this mission without the Earth guiding my steps and my reactions.  The human part of me would react in a way to push any discomfort out of my being, but in this new world I have found myself in the rules are so different here.  They call for a higher love  than I have experienced in my current human expression.

Butterfly Blue lead me into a place I call the Dark Forest.  It it the place inside my Two Spirit where she holds such rage for all that has happened in her world with the constant reminder that she is not like everyone else.  From the moment I entered there I got a tummy ache.  Then it felt like my head exploded (I am an empath, I think I am walking inside of her now).  I have had an Amethyst on my head all weekend because anywhere I tried to focus made me feel overwhelmed.

In the place of this rage, it is without love.  Love has no place here.  It is the total and complete emotion of protecting oneself from annihilation.   It is the Dark forest that has been built upon for all the generations that the Two Spirits have been traveling through the Time of Chaos.  The emotional body carries the signature of all the love that they have seen murdered through time, which makes it unsafe to love, all the disrespect that they have been shown because they translate the world through different eyes than most people.  It is the place inside where the rage is so strong it makes her tremble.  As I looked around there, there was no love for me there.  I could be there or I could leave.  It did not matter.  The only thing that mattered to her was to get through the rage to the other side so she could grow through the experience.  Where ever it lead her, that is the place she would go.  I could be nothing more than a song bird she once heard singing, or I could be whatever I chose to be.  There was no love inside her like we think of love and relationships growing through time..

It was difficult being there, stomach hurting, and my head feeling like it was going to explode (I never have headaches, but I got a headache) ..

Finally I decided I needed to change into something more comfortable for my passage through the Dark Forest, so I transformed into a River Song so that I could watch the energies of the collective Dark Forest from inside the Water Spirit.

We have been walking in silence for 22 days now but we have still been touching in that one place where we meet, even though there are no words spoken out loud, just tiny pictures that dance between us.  I was not going to tell her why I changed my name from Destiny loves Lakota to River Song.  I was just going to let it go where ever it went.  The Earth has already told me that she has bound me to Lakota for her healing, no matter whether we walk inside a relationship or not. (Did I tell you the Earth had me cut off my braid and send it to Lakota in 2011?  I did as I was told and the Earth said that she bound me to Lakota because I am a notorious run away when it comes to love.)

So I was not going to tell Lakota why I transformed myself into a River Song..  But then the Butterfly Blue showed up.  She danced upon my waters and bid me to say hello to Lakota and tell her why I transformed myself into River Song..  so I did..

After that I was laying in bed, with my Amethyst on my head, drifting in River Songs body when I saw a cloud formation in the sky.  It was in the shape of a Tree, and the top of the tree had been swirled to look like a crescent moon, with swirls that came out and disappeared into the blueness of the sky.  Behind the  trunk of the tree cloud a bright sun, complete with Sun rays reaching out, and evenly dispensed on both sides.. all against a blue sky.

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I Dream in Tarot Cards, art by Destiny

My first thought was, I don’t think I can paint that picture out…  so I drifted on, and looking into the Dark Forest I saw a Black Tree…  bent in a swirl, just like the Cloud…  so I drew it out…


This Two Spirit mission is really important..  and sacred..  But I do not think that I could complete it if I was not divinely guided by the Earth to come into this higher love..

It is so easy to get lost in the Ego, thinking it has to go one way or another.  The Ego could say well, “You tried and she broke your heart anyway.  The Ego would have me to contemplate a thousand excuses to travel on and go someplace else, and if it was up to me I would have left.

But it is the Earth who guides my steps, and she sends animal messengers to tell me what direction she needs me to travel next.

Since this new phase of the journey began 22 days ago, a blue butterfly keeps showing up to guide my journey and tell me what to do..

And 2 days ago, I was driving to work when an Eagle flew over my path.  I drove further, and in my sky I beheld a cloud in the shape of an Eagle…

I have come into a New World, into a higher form of love.  The Earth holds me and keeps me safe on this journey and keeps Lakota safe too, in this special place that the Earth has made for her healing.. and for the healing of the Two Spirits.

all my love,

a River Song

Living within a spiral world, loving a Two Spirit
June 7, 2016

I will tell you something that ringing its song inside my heart right now..  Life is a circle, a spiral really..  visions from the age of 12, when I come to understand why I discover it is a circle.. and a spiral all at once for now I am 60 years old and the world has spun itself into a new world for me.

I always wondered why I was given 2 visions when I was 12 years old.  In one, my mother from 13 generations ago came to instruct me on how to walk through a world that was solid.  She said in all ways I was to merge with the Earth.  From there I spread my wings and stretching out across the land, through time, I became a warrior opening up the path for the Indigenous Peoples of the Earth for they are the Keepers of the Planets that support Life.  So I sang my songs and made my prayers and watched through Time as the People again began to rise.

In the second vision I was taken to my Home world and saw that my mission to the Earth had been accepted by the Elder Council.  Then my husband sweeps in like Sun standing over me holding me as a planet while I dance around him.  He is saying that his mission too to Earth has been accepted and is showing me where our paths will join in mission…  then the door closed…  and it felt like I was forever in search of why I was given the second vision.

Inside my dreams there was always someone walking with me, sometimes I could see it was a man, sometimes it would be a girl and she would be telling me where we were going and what it would look like.. and feel like.  In my dreams I fought against loving her.  My earthly body had been programmed to believe that as a girl my destiny could only be matched with a boy..

and yet now here stand I, dancing sacred around my Sun.. my love ..  Two Spirits .. discovering that in the completion of the circle, which in reality is a spiral, I have come to a second mission..

To sing my song, my creation song, to sing a new world into being, within the Heavenly Host of Singers who have come to sing the new world into being.  I must walk into the new world to open the open the path..

and now I can see why the Ancients changed my name to Destiny

once I had come into the time of the Second Mission..

the mission of singing into being

a world that embraces

Two Spirits

who walk as One.

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We are writing a new world into being, opening the path for the Two Spirits
June 7, 2016

That describes it so pretty…

the soft soft…

I have dreamed this before, the soft soft… In my mergings with the Earth, there are places all over where the soft soft coexist together..

It is a beautiful new world we are creating.. On the inside looking out.

We have come to the next circle around the Central Sun..

we are singing a new world into being..

and opening paths that were always sacred and holy…

A path of 5 genders (or at least that is how far I have discovered inside my research)…

not just 2, but opening the path of all the genders…

The soft soft is tenderly written upon the Earth.. a gentle rain falling down upon peaked mountains is the soft soft kiss of sweet bliss..

Love has found me and wrapped me in her light
June 5, 2016

I am beyond Loves passion, sweetly entangled
Love drips from my soul
like jewels in a cave
glimmers sweet light
except for those who would dare
to enter the cave

Love has found me and wrapped me in her light.

I dance

Two Spirit names




She walks with tears
June 1, 2016

Release the Dogma

Inside my prayer this silence weeping.. memories locked within the DNA, our world being over run, and ran over.. in the midst our sacred Two Spirits who we could not protect… and those people with their big big dogs commanding the dogs to maul our sacred Two Spirits to death…..

We did what we could do to protect them

and now once again we must collect them

and bring them back, holy and sacred upon the Honor Ground

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Dreams of the Fairy Festival
May 17, 2016

My beautiful Cheyenne Two Spirit is in preparation to have a booth at the Fairy Festival this coming weekend..  so I wanted to record these dreams so when she shares her journey I can see if these people were at the Fairy Festival..  We are dreaming through time and we don’t always know what direction we are dreaming, straight into the future, or looking into other lives.  Lakota and I, we dream together it is possible that these dreams are people she will meet on her path this weekend coming…  (LOL, no one may actually be interested in reading the dreams except for me, my X marks the spot)

rainbow dragons of M Pena

In the first dream I was dreaming we had gone to a familiar village (the same people that we met in the cave in Nebula dream, when she took me to the cave to tell me her secret (when I thought she was a guy)…

So we were in this Village, kind of up on the hill, and just over the hill was a barbeque pit, which I had gone to bring up.  It was an unusual shaped fire pit, huge and on 4 wheels like a wagon.  I was having a hard time getting it over the hill because it was so heavy when I would lift the cart it would roll down the hill instead of up..

Lakota looks like a guy.  It is on the inside that she carries the divine feminine.. and she has other friends like this also, so it may not be easy to interpret, but then 2 guys show up, and the one she gets out and helps me to move the cart up to our site.  We sit down in a chair and she sits on my lap.  We are sitting there watching a woman mold some rainbow colored clay into an animal..  reminded me of the shape of my Sleeping Dragon dream..  then she pulls out some more rainbow colored clay and begins to form the wings.  With this I realize she is crafting Dragons.. and awaken with Lakota still sitting on my lap..  I had picked up a strawberry and in looking at the strawberry I realized I was staring into the Dragons face.

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In my dream this morning, it had to do with the Ancients and watching the Ancients grow old and appearing to be in the time of their passage.

There was a group of us, family, but every time we gathered they would become very noisy with chaos.  There was someone who was always instigating talking behind peoples backs, pointing at them and telling their business.  I did not like that at all because I am a gentle people, not loud, just content to watch the Ancient One as he was in preparation to make his exit.

After a long period of watching this scene happen again and again, I became quite upset by the chaos makers.  So I jumped up and began to scream at them.  A hush fell over the room as certain ones began to whisper their surprise that the gentle one was now upset.  I was screaming how upset I was over the ones who were talking about the people who passed by as we watched the passing of the Ancient One.  I stomped my feet and told them, “I am not like that, and I am tired of you making me listen to that!”

With this I stomped off and went into the Village..  It was like a row of shacks that connected, one each to the other.  There was a guy who showed up.  We had mated before.  He was bidding me to come with him, but I was saying I was not going back there now.  I had something more important to do.

So he gets back into his vehicle and leaves..  It is as I am sitting there staring at my fingers that I realize they are green.  I look and actually my whole body is green.  I try to pick up my fingers but they are slow to move, and when they do move, they move in slow motion.  I slowly pick up my hand and touch my finger enough to peel back the green..  that is when I realize I am clothed in green moss….


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However, the night before the People of the Moss dream, I had been staring out my window staring at the green fairies playing in the forest across the road..

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I have been affected by the dream in which I woke up to see a Cheyenne Chief standing at the foot of my bed with his Troupe, staff in hand, saying,  “We are trying to locate our Two Spirits who were lost in the time of chaos, so I record this honoring song in this place that I may open the path for them to reconnect with their Cheyenne Two Spirit…

To my Cheyenne Two Spirit
May 2, 2016

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I think of you all the time.  This Winters past the Great Spirit Bear who guides me explained to me how all my life after I set out from our Home World you came to me every night and walked with me through my dream time and as I journey through my dreamworld and look within my dreams there is always the presence of you even to the point of me seeing you as a male and seeing you as a female opening the path to our love story on this planet today, you were there guiding my steps to awaken our mission of Oneness in this life before we arrived at it.

When I was 12 I was instructed from an Indian within me to merge with the Earth in all ways..  so I did.. (It was also the first time I saw you in vision)  In 2007 I had a merging with a River who once upon a time rang strong underneath its lover a Mountain.  When the River Ouachita merged with me it touched the place where I was lonely and called up in me to sing a song I called, “Are you Lonely, yes I am”

In 2011, when we first touched in this physical life I shared that poem and it made you weep.  Back then I did not remember why the Earth was calling me to journey with you by bidding me to cut off my braid and offer my medicine to you.  I did not remember why she showed me a picture of us in the heavens, Star People holding hands.  All I knew was this was the journey I was given to walk and so I had to honor it, no matter how long the path was or how long it took you to want to hold my hand in the heavens (even as I admit I was afraid to hold you too, as every time your Lion roared I ran away, until this last time when I simply followed you) I still knew I must honor the path I was given to take to get to my mission be that whatever it was.

Even when I surrendered to the roar of the Lion this time there was still a great journey to take.  It is all very sacred to me the way it happened, the way that we were dreaming together when I just happened to mention that your body parts did not seem to line up the way I thought and you told me it was because you had been born with the divine feminine living inside you..

Over these last months you have lifted the veil of your protection to reveal to me that you are a Two Spirit..  and for that honoring I have taken a journey into the world of the Two Spirits and have discovered the many flavors of the Two Spirit world.

There is a commonality that runs between you all, that this is a world that is filled with pain and hearts that hurt that long for understanding and acceptance, to not be taunted as freaks.

In my journey into this new world I have have been watching movies.  The theme of not being accepted runs through them all.  The theme of the path needing to be opened runs through them all.  The pain hidden, but felt runs through them all.

There are things I remember in my journey with you in this life, the suicide..  the longing for the pain to end..  I remember..

I remember seeing you torn to pieces, time and time again, remember laying witness to your gentle spirit getting up and never speaking ill of anyone who ripped your heart to shreds .  I remember you trying again and again to find a love that would not tear your heart apart…

And now, every day I pray that you will know the love that is inside my heart for you walks with you through out your day, and I pray that you will not be made to suffer as this world has been so horribly cruel to the people of the Two Spirits.  Every day I pray that your spirit can feel the love inside my heart for you even though we are on separate continents..

There was a dream I was given many years before we met.  In it I found myself on the dark side of the moon, in  an observatory.  We were in a classroom and the teacher (a Maya Indian) was in front of the classroom instructing us on how to teleport.  She was instructing us to push white light out our meridian points, and then she said that at the point where our bodies became engulfed in light we were to will ourselves to the location we desired and we would appear.  With this she pushed the white light out her meridian points and when her body became engulfed in the light she disappeared and then reappeared back behind me off my shoulder..

I have never forgotten this dream.  There were others in the classroom learning the same lesson.  I watch for them to appear in this human world so that we can use the strength of each other to achieve this…


Coming into the heart of the Two Spirit
April 12, 2016

I am coming into a deeper understanding of why I would be given a work of opening a path to the sacredness of the Two Spirit Nation. My love, Lakota, is a Cheyenne Two Spirit. The wound inside the heart of the Two Spirit Nation is deep. Yesterday I watched a video on Two Spirits that said when the Indian Nation was being taken over by the Christian Nation, the Christian Nation only had definition for 2 genders. If you had female parts you were female, and if you had male parts you were assigned as male. The Two Spirits were revered amongst the Indian Nations and given special place that was easy for the White conquers to recognize. It was said that the White conquers took with them these big dogs and when they would come across a Two Spirit they would to attack and maul them to death…

This morning I woke up weeping over what I found yesterday as to what happened to the gentle hearted Two Spirits…

When I was young I wept a lot over the prejudice I would witness in the Christian Nation… I was this girl with the gift of vision, crying all the time over the prejudice I would witness. I had these Indians within me, guiding me in my walk. In my tears I would ask them what was so special about me they would walk with me when I cried all the time. They would tell me I was a great warrior, and that there was great power in my tears.

The Two Spirit people have a very gentle heart.. for their healing I weep. I am proud to open this path for them through my tears…

I am honored to hold the love a of Two Spirit