Thunder dances in my dream

July 4, 2016 - Leave a Response

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Thunder dances in my dream

calling to me

with her dancing light

opening me

to flashes of insight

Then again

Black goes the night

As I stand there pondering

the doorway opens

and I pass through

To find

it reverses its light

and changes.

And awakening I find I must

run outside

to verify

that Thunder

has been dancing in my dreams

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Lion and her Angel, Two Spirit love song

July 2, 2016 - 2 Responses

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Drawing again… Lion and her Angel.. By Destiny with her moon in Leo… It apparently is going to rain all day today.. Believe it or not this started off to be a picture of a nature spirit hugging a waterfall.. But then I saw the Lion looking at me.. So it became a girl hugging a Lion.. Then she became an Angel…. I am really glad that peace has, like water.. soothed my spirit and I can learn to draw inside the space of this new journey

We were journeying along together, dreaming together, with me only seeing her male energy, when inside the dream I touched her..  So I said, “Inside my dream I touched you..  Oddly your body parts did not line up like one would think they would”  And that is when he told me, “I am male and female, the best of both worlds.”

Then I went into this whirl wind, like a galaxy spiraling in sacred dance I looked at every thing with our 5 year journey.  Then Sacred White Bear came and told me to also look within my dreams from long before Lakota came into my life and I would see her him them there too..

I passed through many emotions as a galaxy spiraling in sacred dance.  One of them was I did not want to dishonor her for in all the pictures I had drawn up to that time I had drawn her as a him.  So I stopped drawing so that I could come into the place where when I drew I could see her…

This Two Spirit journey

is so amazing

and natural

feeling, like the Earth.

She is the Tree

and I am the Vine

who dances

and blooms

all while being

held within

her sweet embrace.

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Holding the love of a Two Spirit

July 1, 2016 - Leave a Response

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Holding the love of my Two Spirit is like trying to harvest the Milky Way. 

You cannot tell her who

or how to be

only let her dance

her own dance

the way she dances it.

Hold her too tight and she will shake you off.

Hold her from a distance

and she will dance for you

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We are Divine

June 28, 2016 - Leave a Response

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We are so much more than we remember

I have this place where I dream. I don’t know if I am a Star or a Galaxy, but I remember, in my dreams, I travel there with frequency..

In my dream this morning I was standing in my yard watching the goings on around me. I could see that I had this place where I parked my vehicle that was actually in the driveway of my neighbors yard.

I could see the comings and going of my neighbor. One of my neighbors was standing in my yard, in the place where I park my vehicle. He was standing there, without moving staring into space.

Then as I am watching the ghost man passes through my yard, and when I look back over to the man who was staring out into space another man was standing there with the space man. He appeared to be doing something equivalent to rubbing after shave on the the spacemans face.

Then the spaceman faded and the man began rubbing the ‘after shave’ on his own face. He did it in very slow circular movement. Inside his movements I could see a galaxy spinning… When he saw me staring at him, “It feels very good you know” I told I could sense that in his movements..

Then when I walked back over to my house to go back inside I glanced back at the path the Ghost Man had taken through my yard and saw, off in the distance, a cluster of children, of various ages coming towards us..

It was when I saw the children coming, in the cluster of stars shining bright in my sky that I realized I was in the place where I am a Galaxy, alive and living a life very much like a human does.. only time is different…

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Giants in a world of little people

June 19, 2016 - Leave a Response
I feel so small beneath you
My feet reaching through the soil
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and takes back through time, back to the place where once you hovered in the great expanse.  Even there in your rainbow pulsing energy you looked like the beings we came to know as Trees inside our human shells.
You are beautiful and magnificent.  I feel so small beneath you..  and yet … protected by you
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Her love, like the full moon

June 18, 2016 - 2 Responses

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I am confused within my circle

Lost without her touch

She comes upon me

like the soft light of a full moon night

then fades into the darkness

of a new moon.

How many times has she sang me this song

of how she comes and goes.

I am no one special

just the light she shines upon everyone

I need to go back up  in the clouds

walk again with my Thundering Spirit

While all the while 

She holds me in the night.

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Guidance on my mission within this Two Spirit love

June 12, 2016 - Leave a Response

I do not know that I could complete this mission without the Earth guiding my steps and my reactions.  The human part of me would react in a way to push any discomfort out of my being, but in this new world I have found myself in the rules are so different here.  They call for a higher love  than I have experienced in my current human expression.

Butterfly Blue lead me into a place I call the Dark Forest.  It it the place inside my Two Spirit where she holds such rage for all that has happened in her world with the constant reminder that she is not like everyone else.  From the moment I entered there I got a tummy ache.  Then it felt like my head exploded (I am an empath, I think I am walking inside of her now).  I have had an Amethyst on my head all weekend because anywhere I tried to focus made me feel overwhelmed.

In the place of this rage, it is without love.  Love has no place here.  It is the total and complete emotion of protecting oneself from annihilation.   It is the Dark forest that has been built upon for all the generations that the Two Spirits have been traveling through the Time of Chaos.  The emotional body carries the signature of all the love that they have seen murdered through time, which makes it unsafe to love, all the disrespect that they have been shown because they translate the world through different eyes than most people.  It is the place inside where the rage is so strong it makes her tremble.  As I looked around there, there was no love for me there.  I could be there or I could leave.  It did not matter.  The only thing that mattered to her was to get through the rage to the other side so she could grow through the experience.  Where ever it lead her, that is the place she would go.  I could be nothing more than a song bird she once heard singing, or I could be whatever I chose to be.  There was no love inside her like we think of love and relationships growing through time..

It was difficult being there, stomach hurting, and my head feeling like it was going to explode (I never have headaches, but I got a headache) ..

Finally I decided I needed to change into something more comfortable for my passage through the Dark Forest, so I transformed into a River Song so that I could watch the energies of the collective Dark Forest from inside the Water Spirit.

We have been walking in silence for 22 days now but we have still been touching in that one place where we meet, even though there are no words spoken out loud, just tiny pictures that dance between us.  I was not going to tell her why I changed my name from Destiny loves Lakota to River Song.  I was just going to let it go where ever it went.  The Earth has already told me that she has bound me to Lakota for her healing, no matter whether we walk inside a relationship or not. (Did I tell you the Earth had me cut off my braid and send it to Lakota in 2011?  I did as I was told and the Earth said that she bound me to Lakota because I am a notorious run away when it comes to love.)

So I was not going to tell Lakota why I transformed myself into a River Song..  But then the Butterfly Blue showed up.  She danced upon my waters and bid me to say hello to Lakota and tell her why I transformed myself into River Song..  so I did..

After that I was laying in bed, with my Amethyst on my head, drifting in River Songs body when I saw a cloud formation in the sky.  It was in the shape of a Tree, and the top of the tree had been swirled to look like a crescent moon, with swirls that came out and disappeared into the blueness of the sky.  Behind the  trunk of the tree cloud a bright sun, complete with Sun rays reaching out, and evenly dispensed on both sides.. all against a blue sky.

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My first thought was, I don’t think I can paint that picture out…  so I drifted on, and looking into the Dark Forest I saw a Black Tree…  bent in a swirl, just like the Cloud…  so I drew it out…

 

This Two Spirit mission is really important..  and sacred..  But I do not think that I could complete it if I was not divinely guided by the Earth to come into this higher love..

It is so easy to get lost in the Ego, thinking it has to go one way or another.  The Ego could say well, “You tried and she broke your heart anyway.  The Ego would have me to contemplate a thousand excuses to travel on and go someplace else, and if it was up to me I would have left.

But it is the Earth who guides my steps, and she sends animal messengers to tell me what direction she needs me to travel next.

Since this new phase of the journey began 22 days ago, a blue butterfly keeps showing up to guide my journey and tell me what to do..

And 2 days ago, I was driving to work when an Eagle flew over my path.  I drove further, and in my sky I beheld a cloud in the shape of an Eagle…

I have come into a New World, into a higher form of love.  The Earth holds me and keeps me safe on this journey and keeps Lakota safe too, in this special place that the Earth has made for her healing.. and for the healing of the Two Spirits.

all my love,

a River Song

Butterflies and Eagles, Two Spirit love

June 10, 2016 - Leave a Response

It has been no easy task walking as a Two Spirit through the Time of Chaos.

I thought my life was hard, getting my innocence stolen at the age of 13 and then having the Church try to exorcise my Indian right out of me..  I cried a river of tears as I made my way back to the mission for which I was sent..

But the life of the Two Spirit, when they think so different than other people, is a hell that just continues on and on.

Something happened in my Two Spirits world that she has to pass through so she can grow…  In the first moments I tried to run away, but a butterfly blue appeared (her sister) and said I needed to travel with my Two Spirit here..  The Earth is my guide.  She sends messengers in the animal kingdom to guide me..  so I did not leave but followed the butterfly into the forest where I was taught about the XXY chromosome, and how it is a sacred part of the Creation Song.

In the passage through the Time of Chaos, that which was unique has been regarded as a defect and there has been great damage done to the Two Spirits.

They are the best of both worlds.  In my journey with her I have now discovered that when they feel a need for protection they call upon their own male energy to protect them and see them safely through the Chaos..

Inside the forest the butterfly has taken me to the place where she rages, inside the dark forest we walk in silence..  On the outside she embraces her male energy now..

There is so much to be learned from the Two Spirits, as we open the path again for them to be seen for the beauty with which they are.. and their of teaching balance.

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Living within a spiral world, loving a Two Spirit

June 7, 2016 - Leave a Response

I will tell you something that ringing its song inside my heart right now..  Life is a circle, a spiral really..  visions from the age of 12, when I come to understand why I discover it is a circle.. and a spiral all at once for now I am 60 years old and the world has spun itself into a new world for me.

I always wondered why I was given 2 visions when I was 12 years old.  In one, my mother from 13 generations ago came to instruct me on how to walk through a world that was solid.  She said in all ways I was to merge with the Earth.  From there I spread my wings and stretching out across the land, through time, I became a warrior opening up the path for the Indigenous Peoples of the Earth for they are the Keepers of the Planets that support Life.  So I sang my songs and made my prayers and watched through Time as the People again began to rise.

In the second vision I was taken to my Home world and saw that my mission to the Earth had been accepted by the Elder Council.  Then my husband sweeps in like Sun standing over me holding me as a planet while I dance around him.  He is saying that his mission too to Earth has been accepted and is showing me where our paths will join in mission…  then the door closed…  and it felt like I was forever in search of why I was given the second vision.

Inside my dreams there was always someone walking with me, sometimes I could see it was a man, sometimes it would be a girl and she would be telling me where we were going and what it would look like.. and feel like.  In my dreams I fought against loving her.  My earthly body had been programmed to believe that as a girl my destiny could only be matched with a boy..

and yet now here stand I, dancing sacred around my Sun.. my love ..  Two Spirits .. discovering that in the completion of the circle, which in reality is a spiral, I have come to a second mission..

To sing my song, my creation song, to sing a new world into being, within the Heavenly Host of Singers who have come to sing the new world into being.  I must walk into the new world to open the open the path..

and now I can see why the Ancients changed my name to Destiny

once I had come into the time of the Second Mission..

the mission of singing into being

a world that embraces

Two Spirits

who walk as One.

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We are writing a new world into being, opening the path for the Two Spirits

June 7, 2016 - Leave a Response

That describes it so pretty…

the soft soft…

I have dreamed this before, the soft soft… In my mergings with the Earth, there are places all over where the soft soft coexist together..

It is a beautiful new world we are creating.. On the inside looking out.

We have come to the next circle around the Central Sun..

we are singing a new world into being..

and opening paths that were always sacred and holy…

A path of 5 genders (or at least that is how far I have discovered inside my research)…

not just 2, but opening the path of all the genders…

The soft soft is tenderly written upon the Earth.. a gentle rain falling down upon peaked mountains is the soft soft kiss of sweet bliss..