Her love, like the full moon

June 18, 2016 - 2 Responses

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I am confused within my circle

Lost without her touch

She comes upon me

like the soft light of a full moon night

then fades into the darkness

of a new moon.

How many times has she sang me this song

of how she comes and goes.

I am no one special

just the light she shines upon everyone

I need to go back up  in the clouds

walk again with my Thundering Spirit

While all the while 

She holds me in the night.

Earthen Destiny and the moon

 

Guidance on my mission within this Two Spirit love

June 12, 2016 - Leave a Response

I do not know that I could complete this mission without the Earth guiding my steps and my reactions.  The human part of me would react in a way to push any discomfort out of my being, but in this new world I have found myself in the rules are so different here.  They call for a higher love  than I have experienced in my current human expression.

Butterfly Blue lead me into a place I call the Dark Forest.  It it the place inside my Two Spirit where she holds such rage for all that has happened in her world with the constant reminder that she is not like everyone else.  From the moment I entered there I got a tummy ache.  Then it felt like my head exploded (I am an empath, I think I am walking inside of her now).  I have had an Amethyst on my head all weekend because anywhere I tried to focus made me feel overwhelmed.

In the place of this rage, it is without love.  Love has no place here.  It is the total and complete emotion of protecting oneself from annihilation.   It is the Dark forest that has been built upon for all the generations that the Two Spirits have been traveling through the Time of Chaos.  The emotional body carries the signature of all the love that they have seen murdered through time, which makes it unsafe to love, all the disrespect that they have been shown because they translate the world through different eyes than most people.  It is the place inside where the rage is so strong it makes her tremble.  As I looked around there, there was no love for me there.  I could be there or I could leave.  It did not matter.  The only thing that mattered to her was to get through the rage to the other side so she could grow through the experience.  Where ever it lead her, that is the place she would go.  I could be nothing more than a song bird she once heard singing, or I could be whatever I chose to be.  There was no love inside her like we think of love and relationships growing through time..

It was difficult being there, stomach hurting, and my head feeling like it was going to explode (I never have headaches, but I got a headache) ..

Finally I decided I needed to change into something more comfortable for my passage through the Dark Forest, so I transformed into a River Song so that I could watch the energies of the collective Dark Forest from inside the Water Spirit.

We have been walking in silence for 22 days now but we have still been touching in that one place where we meet, even though there are no words spoken out loud, just tiny pictures that dance between us.  I was not going to tell her why I changed my name from Destiny loves Lakota to River Song.  I was just going to let it go where ever it went.  The Earth has already told me that she has bound me to Lakota for her healing, no matter whether we walk inside a relationship or not. (Did I tell you the Earth had me cut off my braid and send it to Lakota in 2011?  I did as I was told and the Earth said that she bound me to Lakota because I am a notorious run away when it comes to love.)

So I was not going to tell Lakota why I transformed myself into a River Song..  But then the Butterfly Blue showed up.  She danced upon my waters and bid me to say hello to Lakota and tell her why I transformed myself into River Song..  so I did..

After that I was laying in bed, with my Amethyst on my head, drifting in River Songs body when I saw a cloud formation in the sky.  It was in the shape of a Tree, and the top of the tree had been swirled to look like a crescent moon, with swirls that came out and disappeared into the blueness of the sky.  Behind the  trunk of the tree cloud a bright sun, complete with Sun rays reaching out, and evenly dispensed on both sides.. all against a blue sky.

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I Dream in Tarot Cards, art by Destiny

My first thought was, I don’t think I can paint that picture out…  so I drifted on, and looking into the Dark Forest I saw a Black Tree…  bent in a swirl, just like the Cloud…  so I drew it out…

 

This Two Spirit mission is really important..  and sacred..  But I do not think that I could complete it if I was not divinely guided by the Earth to come into this higher love..

It is so easy to get lost in the Ego, thinking it has to go one way or another.  The Ego could say well, “You tried and she broke your heart anyway.  The Ego would have me to contemplate a thousand excuses to travel on and go someplace else, and if it was up to me I would have left.

But it is the Earth who guides my steps, and she sends animal messengers to tell me what direction she needs me to travel next.

Since this new phase of the journey began 22 days ago, a blue butterfly keeps showing up to guide my journey and tell me what to do..

And 2 days ago, I was driving to work when an Eagle flew over my path.  I drove further, and in my sky I beheld a cloud in the shape of an Eagle…

I have come into a New World, into a higher form of love.  The Earth holds me and keeps me safe on this journey and keeps Lakota safe too, in this special place that the Earth has made for her healing.. and for the healing of the Two Spirits.

all my love,

a River Song

Butterflies and Eagles, Two Spirit love

June 10, 2016 - Leave a Response

It has been no easy task walking as a Two Spirit through the Time of Chaos.

I thought my life was hard, getting my innocence stolen at the age of 13 and then having the Church try to exorcise my Indian right out of me..  I cried a river of tears as I made my way back to the mission for which I was sent..

But the life of the Two Spirit, when they think so different than other people, is a hell that just continues on and on.

Something happened in my Two Spirits world that she has to pass through so she can grow…  In the first moments I tried to run away, but a butterfly blue appeared (her sister) and said I needed to travel with my Two Spirit here..  The Earth is my guide.  She sends messengers in the animal kingdom to guide me..  so I did not leave but followed the butterfly into the forest where I was taught about the XXY chromosome, and how it is a sacred part of the Creation Song.

In the passage through the Time of Chaos, that which was unique has been regarded as a defect and there has been great damage done to the Two Spirits.

They are the best of both worlds.  In my journey with her I have now discovered that when they feel a need for protection they call upon their own male energy to protect them and see them safely through the Chaos..

Inside the forest the butterfly has taken me to the place where she rages, inside the dark forest we walk in silence..  On the outside she embraces her male energy now..

There is so much to be learned from the Two Spirits, as we open the path again for them to be seen for the beauty with which they are.. and their of teaching balance.

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Living within a spiral world, loving a Two Spirit

June 7, 2016 - Leave a Response

I will tell you something that ringing its song inside my heart right now..  Life is a circle, a spiral really..  visions from the age of 12, when I come to understand why I discover it is a circle.. and a spiral all at once for now I am 60 years old and the world has spun itself into a new world for me.

I always wondered why I was given 2 visions when I was 12 years old.  In one, my mother from 13 generations ago came to instruct me on how to walk through a world that was solid.  She said in all ways I was to merge with the Earth.  From there I spread my wings and stretching out across the land, through time, I became a warrior opening up the path for the Indigenous Peoples of the Earth for they are the Keepers of the Planets that support Life.  So I sang my songs and made my prayers and watched through Time as the People again began to rise.

In the second vision I was taken to my Home world and saw that my mission to the Earth had been accepted by the Elder Council.  Then my husband sweeps in like Sun standing over me holding me as a planet while I dance around him.  He is saying that his mission too to Earth has been accepted and is showing me where our paths will join in mission…  then the door closed…  and it felt like I was forever in search of why I was given the second vision.

Inside my dreams there was always someone walking with me, sometimes I could see it was a man, sometimes it would be a girl and she would be telling me where we were going and what it would look like.. and feel like.  In my dreams I fought against loving her.  My earthly body had been programmed to believe that as a girl my destiny could only be matched with a boy..

and yet now here stand I, dancing sacred around my Sun.. my love ..  Two Spirits .. discovering that in the completion of the circle, which in reality is a spiral, I have come to a second mission..

To sing my song, my creation song, to sing a new world into being, within the Heavenly Host of Singers who have come to sing the new world into being.  I must walk into the new world to open the open the path..

and now I can see why the Ancients changed my name to Destiny

once I had come into the time of the Second Mission..

the mission of singing into being

a world that embraces

Two Spirits

who walk as One.

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We are writing a new world into being, opening the path for the Two Spirits

June 7, 2016 - Leave a Response

That describes it so pretty…

the soft soft…

I have dreamed this before, the soft soft… In my mergings with the Earth, there are places all over where the soft soft coexist together..

It is a beautiful new world we are creating.. On the inside looking out.

We have come to the next circle around the Central Sun..

we are singing a new world into being..

and opening paths that were always sacred and holy…

A path of 5 genders (or at least that is how far I have discovered inside my research)…

not just 2, but opening the path of all the genders…

The soft soft is tenderly written upon the Earth.. a gentle rain falling down upon peaked mountains is the soft soft kiss of sweet bliss..

Love has found me and wrapped me in her light

June 5, 2016 - 2 Responses

I am beyond Loves passion, sweetly entangled
Love drips from my soul
like jewels in a cave
glimmers sweet light
unseen
except for those who would dare
to enter the cave

Love has found me and wrapped me in her light.

I dance

Two Spirit names

 

 

 

The illusion of Time

June 1, 2016 - Leave a Response

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Time is the illusion.. the place where we came to make our play ground.. the love that walks inside our spirits is a bond that travels through time… First we touched in Spirit and danced the great dance.. and wanting more we created a timeline where we could share our dance..
lions and tigers and whale and dolphins and trees and flowers.. and humans.. all of us engaged in sacred dance…

She walks with tears

June 1, 2016 - Leave a Response

Release the Dogma

Inside my prayer this silence weeping.. memories locked within the DNA, our world being over run, and ran over.. in the midst our sacred Two Spirits who we could not protect… and those people with their big big dogs commanding the dogs to maul our sacred Two Spirits to death…..

We did what we could do to protect them

and now once again we must collect them

and bring them back, holy and sacred upon the Honor Ground

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Intricately woven love stories ~Lace~

May 30, 2016 - Leave a Response

 

there are some people who are destined for greatness…  whether anyone else sees it or not…

To be a Sun, and hold in your arms a Life Sustaining planet and dance that way for eons of Time.. that is Greatness… 
Earth and SunTo be a comet, traveling at a high velocity so you can circle a Sun and release your seeds of creation… that is greatness..

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True love stories are woven like fine lace upon the fabric of Time…

Dreams of the Fairy Festival

May 17, 2016 - Leave a Response

My beautiful Cheyenne Two Spirit is in preparation to have a booth at the Fairy Festival this coming weekend..  so I wanted to record these dreams so when she shares her journey I can see if these people were at the Fairy Festival..  We are dreaming through time and we don’t always know what direction we are dreaming, straight into the future, or looking into other lives.  Lakota and I, we dream together it is possible that these dreams are people she will meet on her path this weekend coming…  (LOL, no one may actually be interested in reading the dreams except for me, my X marks the spot)

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In the first dream I was dreaming we had gone to a familiar village (the same people that we met in the cave in Nebula dream, when she took me to the cave to tell me her secret (when I thought she was a guy)…

So we were in this Village, kind of up on the hill, and just over the hill was a barbeque pit, which I had gone to bring up.  It was an unusual shaped fire pit, huge and on 4 wheels like a wagon.  I was having a hard time getting it over the hill because it was so heavy when I would lift the cart it would roll down the hill instead of up..

Lakota looks like a guy.  It is on the inside that she carries the divine feminine.. and she has other friends like this also, so it may not be easy to interpret, but then 2 guys show up, and the one she gets out and helps me to move the cart up to our site.  We sit down in a chair and she sits on my lap.  We are sitting there watching a woman mold some rainbow colored clay into an animal..  reminded me of the shape of my Sleeping Dragon dream..  then she pulls out some more rainbow colored clay and begins to form the wings.  With this I realize she is crafting Dragons.. and awaken with Lakota still sitting on my lap..  I had picked up a strawberry and in looking at the strawberry I realized I was staring into the Dragons face.

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In my dream this morning, it had to do with the Ancients and watching the Ancients grow old and appearing to be in the time of their passage.

There was a group of us, family, but every time we gathered they would become very noisy with chaos.  There was someone who was always instigating talking behind peoples backs, pointing at them and telling their business.  I did not like that at all because I am a gentle people, not loud, just content to watch the Ancient One as he was in preparation to make his exit.

After a long period of watching this scene happen again and again, I became quite upset by the chaos makers.  So I jumped up and began to scream at them.  A hush fell over the room as certain ones began to whisper their surprise that the gentle one was now upset.  I was screaming how upset I was over the ones who were talking about the people who passed by as we watched the passing of the Ancient One.  I stomped my feet and told them, “I am not like that, and I am tired of you making me listen to that!”

With this I stomped off and went into the Village..  It was like a row of shacks that connected, one each to the other.  There was a guy who showed up.  We had mated before.  He was bidding me to come with him, but I was saying I was not going back there now.  I had something more important to do.

So he gets back into his vehicle and leaves..  It is as I am sitting there staring at my fingers that I realize they are green.  I look and actually my whole body is green.  I try to pick up my fingers but they are slow to move, and when they do move, they move in slow motion.  I slowly pick up my hand and touch my finger enough to peel back the green..  that is when I realize I am clothed in green moss….

 

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However, the night before the People of the Moss dream, I had been staring out my window staring at the green fairies playing in the forest across the road..

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I have been affected by the dream in which I woke up to see a Cheyenne Chief standing at the foot of my bed with his Troupe, staff in hand, saying,  “We are trying to locate our Two Spirits who were lost in the time of chaos, so I record this honoring song in this place that I may open the path for them to reconnect with their Cheyenne Two Spirit…