it will spin when it will spin,
and when it spins I feel like I am plugged into the Earth
doing the work that she needs me to do..
since it is she who told me this is the journey she needs me to take.
I have read that the Kundalini is uncontrollable, that the people who are having the Kundalini journey are just walking around having the sacred O all the time without any control.
It seems to me this is true..
There are people and places I would like it not to just open and spin full throttle while I am standing there,
because it is a very sensual feel
but it is a higher force than I controlling it..
as a matter of fact I do not think I am even controlling it
It feels like it is like being a portal that opens when the Earth decides to open it..
at least sometimes that is how it feels..
and yet at the same time it comes on like clockwork,
always at 5 am,
always at 7 pm
and there are other times too..
a 9 pm one..
and others still…
It pretty well doesn’t matter who is in the room when it happens,
it is like a geyser going off on clockwork only traveling up inside my body..
and iit feels so good…
It seems to require a certain balance within my psyche to remain strong within me. As I said I am up to my heart chakra now and the Earth has told me this is a journey she brought me to because she needs me to vibrate at a higher level to assist her at vibrating on a higher vibration (so that the energy on this planet can begin to move again to the place where a girl can love a Thunder Being and he her) So that she can get back into a body that is not so dense and heavy like this one is.
The heart chakra is where love takes on a different vibration than it took when I was younger. It becomes a higher love that does not react in the same ways it once reacted but becomes about working with the energy as it presents itself.
For those who have follow my blogs for the longest, Rick (the one I have called “cougar”, “horse”, “the Dark One) has become the one I am making the journey of unconditional love with. I don’t even think I can put into words all that has transpired inside this Kundalini journey that has made him and I one rocking couple. In the place where I saw him as the Dark One a light has shown. Before, I saw this place as a place of deception. Now that a light has shown inside this place it feels like I have come inside his Holy of Holies.. when he was 9 (as his bloodline opens the path of vision) he saw the book that he is diligently transcribing now. So all of what I saw before without understanding has come into a place of honoring the man who came to sing this song.
Now, inside this place of unconditional love with him I find as I pass the tests of ‘can I hold this new form of love in such a way as to be unconditional’, it is like when I am being tested the Kundalini will spin less hard, less intense, just a soft gentle spin. But when I pass a test and take our journey (his and mine) to a new level of unconditional love then the Kundalini will again begin spinning harder.
The Earth tells me that it is important that my vibration is raise because when my vibration is raised it allows hers to be raised higher also..
Another ‘side effect’ of the Kundalini Rising and holding a higher vibration is the fact that I ‘see’ more into the astral world then I used to see.. for example my grandson was over out of sight singing and it was coming out a little rough. When I heard him consciously changing his vocal chord I found a part of my consciousness watching with interest and saw that he made his little throat into a perfect circle, like a wind tunnel and when he sang that way he sounded like a little angel in a boys choir.
It is the same with this feeling of finding my way into Ricks Holy of Holies.. I remember, the last time I left him, it was because the Kundalini allowed me to see further and I became furious with him when I saw him on the astral plane stepping into me. I saw the way I was plugged into the Earth like a beam of light coming out of her and saw him making his daily journey to plug into me. At the time I screamed holy carp and cussed him out as I was leaving because he did not have my permission to do that.. and yet now that I have achieved a higher love with him that molds itself to what is needed in the moment, I am finding that when he steps into me my Kundalini spins harder, and that is good because it is good for the Earth in assisting her in raising her vibration.
At this point it seems that when we come into an understanding that our vibration gets higher as we pass the test of the chakra the Kundalini is purifying and when that happens a good strong spin returns to continue moving the energy upward..
I do this journey for Love of Earth. At the age of 12, in vision, I was told to merge with her, to not gain my understanding of how things work through man but to go directly to the Earth for guidance in how to interpret the world. In merging with her I talked to her and she would answer me back.. the very first time she sent a butterfly to land upon my nose and wipe away my tears. But in time, as I continued to talk to her I began to hear her talking to me. So I journeyed with her, listening to her, listening to the Animal Messengers that were sent to give me messages for her.. with my Kundalini spinning (as in my youth I do remember not knowing why it was spinning before I entered full fledge into this Kundalini Awakening it was already telling me that this was going to be the journey I was going to be taking as in my youth I had erratic Kundalini spinnings’ that I would not understand).. so I listened to the Earth and followed all the instructions she gave me from the year 2000 on and was taken to this Kundalini Awakening June 17, 2010.. and as the spinning got harder and harder she told me that it was she who lead me here and she who needed me to be open to this Kundalini that was now burning through me, purifying me. She said that she was using my body to release trapped energies (so she could vibrate higher) and showed me through the dream time that these energies were converting to places in the new circle around the central suns. She showed me that these trapped energies that are being released from her body are being converted into places on life sustaining planets.. for instance, the 3 splattering brothers, the ghosts that was trying to break windshields on vehicles when they would drive through the mud, they were converted to 3 waterfalls.. and the energy of the thief that was stuck, his energy was converted to a place on a mountain that would steal your heart with its beauty..
All these trapped energies that are being released through the Kundalini are what the Earth needs so that she can achieve a higher vibration and not be so dense like she is now… all so she can ascend.. all so we can get back to the place where a girl can love a Thunder being, and he her..
In the place where I am, inside my Kundalini, it is very important that I give myself to the lesson of love unconditional for Rick (thankfully it is a kind of love the one you are with journey that does not require that I just give the whole world love unconditional all at once. He is like my (must be an Indian word that has no translation) .. like a cat needs a scratching post kind of lesson..
From where I am with the Earth as my guide through this journey.. maintaining a level where my Kundalini is allowed to vibrate higher and higher is the exact place she needs me to be..
I am honored that Rick is the one she chose for me to walk through the heart chakra with into this flame of unconditional love..
and with him I am coming deeper into a place of love without conditions that as I allow it to grow within me seems to increase the strongness of the kundalini vibration.
I hope others who are on this Kundalini journey can understand and are helped by my sharings…
in love, Destiny Deela’ Cee